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  1. Public Bookmark 34

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    “I was,” Ilya waves at the clothes, flushing pink. “Cutting tags.” 

    It’s Shane’s turn to blink at him. “Tags?” 

    “Yes,” Ilya says, rubbing his nose. God, it’s unfair how good he looks—wearing Shane’s old hoodie, curls flopping over his forehead and blushing pink. “Did not think you would come back so early. I was going to finish and put them all back before you noticed.” 

    Shane stares at him. “Why?” he asks, soft. 

    “You don’t like them,” Ilya shrugs, like it’s simple. 

    Ilya’s cutting off the tags from his clothes because Shane doesn’t like them. Ilya, who in all the years Shane has known him, has never once seemed bothered by them. 

    “Yesterday,” Ilya explains, reaching over the bed and dropping the scissors on the bedside table, next to a pile of cut off tags. So many of them. “You were pulling at collar. Like this,” Ilya tugs at the collar of his own shirt, mirroring what Shane did for probably a millisecond yesterday.

    “You saw that?” Shane asks, awestruck. Fucking hell. 

    or, ilya rozanov is deeply, deeply in love with shane hollander. the one where ilya rozanov is the loverboy of all time.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    His mother’s eyes darken with weariness Shane recognizes instinctually, a grief separate but not wholly unlike his own. A tear makes its way down her cheek, but Shane’s stay put, stubborn, cradled in his lashline like if he doesn’t cry, maybe none of this is as bad as he thinks it is.

    “Just—I just have to ask,” she says. Her voice lowers to a whisper, that ever-steady corner of her mouth wavering as her palm envelopes his cheek. “How long have you been hurting?”

    My whole life, probably, Shane thinks. I'm sorry. I just didn’t know.

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    [Or: Shane learns that skill, passion, and meticulous control aren't necessarily immunity, and that rest isn't something he's owed so much as he has to carve out for himself; sometimes with a whisper, sometimes with his pride on the line, sometimes on his hands and knees. And still, regardless, despite—he refuses to give up on this either, even if this time it means believing in himself instead of familiar schedules or rituals. Even if it means his whole life has to change to do it.

    Even if it means having to believe that he's worth that much in the first place.]

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s lived his whole life performing. On the ice, in front of cameras, sometimes even around family and friends. It keeps him safe. Lets him hide in plain sight when he needs a minute to get steady again.

    It’s why he’d thought he could be with Rose and manage fine.

    It isn’t until Florida, until he’s behind Ilya’s hotel room door with his back against cotton sheets and thighs pressed open with familiar, calloused hands that he realizes something’s shifted—that there’s a difference between performing and survival.

    One is a choice. The other… isn’t.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    “It’s okay. I don’t need anything.” 

    “I am not going to eat in front of you while you have nothing, Hollander,” Ilya scoffs. He plucks a can of cold ginger ale from the top shelf as casually as he can manage and slides it over the island, interrupting Hollander’s fidgeting thumbs. “You must be hungry, yes? It’s been hours since you left hotel. I can make something. Easy.” 

    “Make… what?” he asks warily.  

    Ilya rolls his eyes and tosses a look over his shoulder. “Do not worry. I will find something that works for your special hockey diet,” he teases. He reaches back into the fridge. “Tuna melt okay?” 

    “No,” Hollander says primly. “And it’s a disease. Not a diet.” 

    He pulls his hands out of the cold and turns, blinks. “What?” 

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    13 Jun 2026

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    At first, he thinks he’s hallucinating Rozanov. The lethal half-cut of his gaze, the open collar of his shirt, the span of his hands moving up someone else’s waist. Shane’s always been a glutton for punishment.

    But he blinks, or the lights keep blinking for him, won't fucking quit, and Rozanov is still there. Looking. An anchor. Shane stares back, can’t make himself stop.

    The glass he’s holding slips out of his hand and shatters as he jolts forward. He's drowning in this sea of people but he thinks, maybe, Ilya is the only one that manages to hear.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    David Hollander arrives in Montreal with homemade soup, expecting to take care of his son Shane, who’s down with the flu after missing the biggest NHL game of the season.
    What he does not expect is finding Shane cuddled in the lap of his greatest hockey rival: Boston Bears captain Ilya Rozanov.
    Apparently the NHL’s most legendary rivalry has secretly been a relationship for over a decade.
    Now David must process three shocking truths:
     his son is gay,
     Ilya Rozanov is basically a housewife with pharmacy bags,
     and every on-ice fight was apparently foreplay.

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    13 Jun 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 42

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    Jane
    Right
    Well, okay
    I want to try body worship

    Huh. That doesn’t seem so bad. Actually, now that Ilya’s thinking about it, it’s hot, and he almost regrets getting undressed as he wills himself to not get half-hard in this locker room full of idiots.

    Lily
    body worship? when did you get so vain hollander
    you want me to hold you down and taste you everywhere, is that it?

    Jane
    Don’t text me like that when you know I’m still around my team!
    And, no, you asshole
    I meant I want to worship you

    Oh.

    or: shane loves ilya. this is how he shows it.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    “Go?” Rozanov repeats, and Shane thinks he manages to nod, thinks he manages to spin some kind of excuse that he knows Rozanov doesn’t really buy, but he needs to go. He needs to get out of here. He needs to find somewhere quiet and calm where he can ride out this panic and painful tightness until he can catch his breath again. He needs-

    He needs to go.

    “I’m sorry,” he says, turning heel and resisting the urge to just book it right for the front door only because he’d rather not have to explain to Hayden why he returned from a hookup with Boston Lily in men’s clothes that he certainly didn’t leave in.

    It’s not until he makes it halfway up the stairs to Rozanov’s bedroom that it occurs to him in a cold rush that it isn’t just anxiety that makes it this hard to breathe.

    “No,” he tells himself firmly, white knuckling the bannister and trying to take a deep breath just to prove that he can.

    It wheezes.

    (how the tuna meltdown is averted through the power of food allergies and anaphylaxis)

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    13 Jun 2026

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    "Hollander?" Ilya answers. 

    Silence.

    Breathing.

    Then:

    "Can you come get me? I’m in Boston." 
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    Shane and Ilya aren't together. In fact Shane has a boyfriend he can happily be open with, but when Ilya discovers that the relationship is abusive, he has to do everything he can to make Shane get away.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    "Jane" gets added to the Centaures WAGs chat shortly after Ilya moves to Ottawa. Maybe a group of girl friends is exactly what Shane needs in the face of hardship

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    12 Jun 2026

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    “You can go, y’know, if you want-“

    “Ah, no. I do not want to,” Ilya interrupts. “Stay at home with my very sexy husband who is wearing his glasses, or go out to a club filled with people who are not you? The answer is very simple, Shane.”

    Shane rolls his eyes again, but he’s smiling as he saunters towards Ilya.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    “Rozanov, back up.”

    “Backing up,” Ilya said evenly, “But if he touches my husband again I will explore violence.”

    Shane exhaled, resigned. "You are sitting next to me for a reason.”

    “Yes,” Ilya agreed. “Leash.”

    @downbadinottawa
    There are FOSSILS less down than Rozanov. He is WHIPPED and PROUD of it.

    @montrealdefender
    we are getting destroyed by a guy who just publicly admitted his husband controls him. this is the worst timeline.

    When Ottawa faces Montreal again, Shane keeps it professional. Ilya absolutely does not.

    Featuring: one infamous Hollanov Wikipedia page and a professional athlete with a marriage kink.

    Translated into Chinese

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    12 Jun 2026

  13. Public Bookmark 66

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    Shane Hollander was a composed man- Canada’s golden boy and all around well respected star in the MLH. Until the day he watched Ilya Rozanov nearly die on the ice and he sprinted to him. He abandoned his team in New York and flew for Ottawa as quickly as he could. To be there, to care for him, to offer the love that Ilya so rightfully deserved.

    They set the world aflame with their announcement- a relationship over a decade in the making. But where does this leave Shane Hollander? And what might Ilya Rozanov also do to protect the one he loves?

    Sequel to Another Hospital Stay

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Ilya winced and was glad Shane had not noticed. He had to remind myself that Shane was allowed to be scared and allowed to feel and express these feelings. Because it was scary. To go nearly thirty years thinking you biologically could not, should not, have a child, to finding out you’re six months pregnant with your secret fiancé’s child. It was a lot.

    Shane learns he is intersex in the worst possible way, but at the same time. The both of them definitely want kids, even if this isn't the most ideal situation.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    The knock at his door comes about five minutes after Shane gets home, three minutes after Shane pees on the stupid sticks, one minute after Shane looks at the fucking pink plus signs, and about thirty seconds after tears spring to his eyes.

    Shane Hollander, professional hockey player and captain of the Montreal Metros, has a bun in the fucking oven.

    Or Shane and Ilya's enemies-with-benefits arrangement has some unintended consequences.

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    12 Jun 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 92

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    Shane is pregnant, and he's so happy his heart could burst.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “You okay, Hollander?”

    Ilya’s voice cuts through the pain. Shane tilts his head upwards, catching Ilya’s gaze. His facial expression is his hockey default, stoic and frozen. His eyes tell a different story. Their pale blue color looks less like ice and more like the ocean, waves of concern betraying his cool demeanor.


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    Or, Shane didn't know he was pregnant... until he's in labor.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    The night takes a drastic turn when Shane collapses in the Vegas bathroom, finally holding Ilya's attention after months of being ignored.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    The test very confidently displayed a positive result. Well—this test and the three others he’d taken just to be sure. He’d used the basic drug store one that showed only a plus sign, as well as the fancier ones with words and estimates of how far along you were. All of them were screaming at him, in unison, the words he hadn’t wanted to hear. They echoed the thought that he’d been desperately trying to ignore despite the symptoms he’d been having for the past two weeks.

    Shane Hollander was pregnant.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya can handle the pressure of playing professional hockey.

    They can handle overtime, the stress that comes with being famous, the photoshoots, everything.

    They can handle a pregnancy with ease.

    They cannot, apparently, handle naming a human.

    Surely picking a name for their son shouldn’t be harder than winning a Stanley Cup.

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    11 Jun 2026

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