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    Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.

    The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ilya saves the day by helping Shane calm down after the tuna meltdown, the boys actually learn to communicate much sooner than they would have otherwise, and it leads to a beautiful tradition of them staying the night with each other.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Shane should be here right now, should be in Ilya’s house. Ilya should be teasing him about being picky while going through delivery options for food on his phone. Shane should be discovering that Ilya has ginger ale in the fridge and the protein bars Shane mentioned liking in an interview in his pantry. He should be making out with Shane on the couch, sneaking a hand into his pants, teasing him about whether they can beat the deliveryman and arrive before he does. Shane was supposed to spend the night tonight, the Montreal team not set to leave until tomorrow afternoon because of potential bad weather in the morning. Shane should be fed and showered and ready to curl up in bed with Ilya tonight.
    But Shane is in a hospital.

    And Ilya is here.

    He pulls up Jane in his phone again. He presses call.

    “Hey, you’ve reached Shane Hollander-”

    Ilya closes his eyes and lets Shane’s voice roll over him.

    (canon divergence in which shane getting injured happens during a game in boston) (...which means shane then gets to go home with ilya to recover)

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    08 Jun 2026

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    “If you ever talk about my fiancé like that again, then I will end your career.”

    The words are pure vitriol, dripping from Shane’s mouth like venom from the fangs of a snake. He doesn’t raise his voice, he doesn’t even sound angry, he just sounds lethal. Like a man you don’t want to cross. Like a man who fully intends to honour his promise…or threat.

    He’s met with stunned silence.

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    08 Jun 2026