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Shane Hollander is my Angel by codiwill
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Heated Rivalry (TV) RPF, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Jun 2026
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Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.
He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.
Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.
A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.
“What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.
No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.
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Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.
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19 Jun 2026
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One night, half-asleep, Shane says to Ilya, “You make everything easier to exist in.”
The words slip out gently, unguarded, like something he’s carried a long time and finally lets fall.
It steals the breath out of Ilya. He goes liquid against Shane and turns his head just enough to brush kisses along the line of his jaw.
Shane drifts under like that, held there by the knowledge that love can be quiet and spacious, that it can move through him in a way that is kind to his nervous system.
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Tenderness looks a thousand different ways. This is theirs.
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19 Jun 2026
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Don't Think Too Hard by Selective_attention
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Jun 2026
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Daily posts on the Ottawa Centaurs social media.
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16 Jun 2026
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find your way back home by strange_ghost
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Jun 2026
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"Hi, solnyshko.”
The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.
“Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.
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When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.
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16 Jun 2026
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Not My Roommate by Bearhollanov
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
06 Jun 2026
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No one wanted him there. And definitely not in their space.
When Ilya Rozanov transfers from Boston to Montreal right after the start of the new semester, his reputation follows him straight onto campus. The hockey team knows who he is. The frat definitely knows who he is. And no one’s interested in getting close.
So when his housing falls through at the last minute, it becomes a problem no one wants to deal with.
Shane gets stuck with it, and tries to ignore his feelings.
It kinda works. For a while.
Because it’s one thing to ignore someone across the rink or in a lecture hall. It’s another to live with them. To notice things you weren’t meant to.
This isn’t just a bad roommate situation anymore.
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15 Jun 2026