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A Court of Truth and Healing by flamesandshadows
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
16 Jan 2022
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After returning home from Under the Mountain, everyone is struggling to cope with the trauma of Amarantha's reign. Rhys lingers in the shadows at the Spring Court, concerned about Feyre's mental health, and his presence spurs events to unfold in unexpected ways.
The plot covers the events of A Court of Mist and Fury with major alterations. In this AU, we see what could have happened if characters were honest with each other, and talked things out rather than speaking in riddles or just avoiding topics altogether. We also get some actual apologies for egregious behavior that got glossed over in canon (looking at you, Rhys Under the Mountain) and big reveals that get put off to later books or not at all (looking at you, Lucien's paternity).
Relationships in this AU are fully consensual rather than based on bargains made under duress, half-truths, or huge power imbalances, so romances that had an enemies-to-lovers flavor feel more like friends to lovers.
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14 Jun 2026
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A Court of Family Secrets - ACOSF by flamesandshadows
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
17 Apr 2022
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When Feyre finds out that Rhys and the Inner Circle have hidden the truth about her pregnancy complications from her, she leaves home and searches for answers and support elsewhere. Along the way, she finds out that she's not the only one whose family has been keeping secrets. The ramifications of her decision extend all the way to Autumn and Day, with far reaching consequences. The Night Court will also be forever changed as Feyre comes fully into her own power as High Lady, building alliances and an agenda of her own.
A partial rewrite of ACOSF that kicks off with Feyre's pregnancy storyline, and diverges from the moment Nesta reveals the deception to her. I'm planning a rewrite of Nesta's full story in ACOSF, so she'll just make appearances here.
Themes of pregnancy termination, pregnancy loss, child abuse, abuse of adult children, and death in childbirth will be discussed.
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- Part 1 of A Court of Family Secrets
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- 118,136
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- 49/49
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14 Jun 2026
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A Court of Flames and Shadows by flamesandshadows
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
02 Aug 2022
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The Cauldron has a sense of humor, it seems.
After five hundred years of hatred and resentment, and a few confusing years barely tolerating each others' presence, a mating bond snaps into place, surprising both a High Lord and a powerful warrior and spymaster. Both males struggle with their complicated histories, filled with abuse and pain, as well as their families' and courts' expectations and prejudices.
Featuring:
-Azriel and Eris's tragic backstories
-Helion giving relationship advice
-Azriel's brothers get what they deserve
-Feyre, Mor and the Valkyries kicking ass together
-Eris's wing fetish
-Azriel going feral when his mate is threatened
-Azriel's shadows being matchmakers
-Nesta's lost Solstice present coming in handy
-Koschei going all Voldemort
-What Azriel whispered in Eris's ear at the High Lord's meeting
-Why Eris really left Mor in the woods
and more.I had no idea Azris was going to become my favorite ship to write when I started, but here we are. This is a sequel to A Court of Family Secrets. If you haven't read that, I have a few chapters to recommend to get up to speed. Welcome aboard the good ship Azris, happy sailing!
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- Part 2 of A Court of Family Secrets
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- 57/57
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14 Jun 2026
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A Court of Tangled Flames by Theladyofbloodshed
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
30 Apr 2023
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A Neris story!
This story will diverge from canon ACOSF. It begins when Cassian takes Nesta on the hike.
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14 Jun 2026
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A new day always begins with the ending of night by Wildflowersovermygrave
Fandoms: Supernatural (TV 2005)
02 Jan 2026
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Cas is gone. Dead. Dean doesn't want to think about that. He doesn't want to think about anything really. He wants to let go. But Dean is one of those people that doesn't know how to do that, especially when it comes to family. His Family. His Cas. Because damn it, damn the fucking world and Chuck and all of it, the angel was HIS. And when he, oh when Dean really wants something, he's going to burn his life down before letting it go. Or letting someone take that "something" away from him.
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04 May 2026
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A few beats of silence pass, almost to the extent of worrying Dean that he’s been caught eavesdropping.
“Sam,” Castiel quietly starts, tone careful. “I’m not sure how to less boldly ask, but...is there any chance that Dean may have been avoiding short sleeves for other reasons?”.
Okay, now Dean is ready to intervene. Like, ASAP.
He plasters on a content grin and tries to pretend as if his very bones aren’t rattling from fear, marching in with an unexpectedly rough, “Mornin’,” as he makes his way into the kitchen—thoroughly interrupting Sam’s apprehensive, “What do you mean ‘other reasons’?”.
(TLDR: Castiel gets saved from the empty and comes back to an extremely depressed/grieving Dean. Jack, Sam, Eileen, and Cas do their best to figure life out together, and Dean gets help. Heavy deancas centric + recovery process from alc withdrawal & sh)
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26 Mar 2026
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It’s been several months since the events of 15x19, and the world is at ease. Dean Winchester isn’t, though.
It takes a drunken night and a conversation with Sam for the Winchesters and a newly depowered Jack to start working on a way to get to the Empty to bring back Castiel, their angel best friend. After several weeks, the team enlist the assistance of the new Queen of Hell and find a spell. With Rowena’s help, Cas is finally back, alive, and for a moment everything looks brighter. Jack and Sam are ecstatic, and Dean’s had enough time to figure out what he wants to tell Cas. He’s ready to speak his truth.
Except, Cas doesn’t seem to recognize Jack, and the first thing he does is ask Dean how he’s managed to get rid of the mark. He doesn’t remember that Chuck, the flimsy prophet he met years ago, was God and that they just beat his ass. Actually, there’s a lot he doesn’t remember… Including telling Dean he loved him before getting taken by the Empty.
Now starts a different quest- figuring out what’s keeping a newly human Cas from remembering the past 5 years by their side, and helping him regain the memories he’s lost.
Of course, as is custom for Winchesters, nothing goes as planned.
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26 Mar 2026
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Dean is addicted to Castiel's Grace. Cas is content to give him as much as he wants, and more. Both get more than they bargain for when their uneasy courtship spirals out of control.
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- Part 1 of Graceless
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- 146,997
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- 24/24
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19 Dec 2025
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Cas loves Dean.
He had told him in his last breaths and never got an answer as to the feeling being mutual. But then Jack brings him back from the Empty and he realizes he doesn't need one. All he needs is Dean. To be by his side as whatever Dean will let him be.Dean loves Cas.
But he tells him he doesn't. He tells him they’re friends. He tells him he can't. He tells him all the things instead of the sheer truth. Until he learns to show him.[Or: How Dean tries his best to shut his inner demons off, so he can be with his best friend and give in to the years-long cravings, he always tried to shove down. And how Cas stays patient, with the promise to love him relentlessly.
Also, hunting is evolved, and everyone gets the ending they deserve!
This story is an absolute devastating rollercoaster, so get comfortable, fasten your seatbelts and get ready to be emotionally thrown around.](this is now finished)
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- 64/64
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14 Dec 2025
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“Take me,” Dean says. He doesn’t have to think about it. “Take me as your vessel, Cas.”
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or: Cas is cursed into an endless sleep. Dean offers himself up as his vessel while they try to break it.
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06 Dec 2025
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So, the first thing that happens is Castiel comes back.
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"Right," Dean says eventually, gruffly. He looks down at his shoes. "I'm not gonna tell you how to live your life, man. It's—you know, yours. Do your thing, love who you love, whatever. I can't really stop you from loving me, if that's what you've decided to do, but I don't—I can't—"
"I know," Castiel murmurs, still just smiling a little, not looking heartbroken at all. "Don't worry about it, Dean, that's all I ask."
"So we're—" Dean risks a glance up, swallowing thickly. "We're good?"
Castiel hums. "We're good."
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28 Nov 2025
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Hiatus fic set after the S11 finale. Dean's alive, Sam's alive, they're going to get Cas from wherever he got zapped to, and everything's finally gonna be all right. Dean's on top of the world.
A little voice in the back of his head is whispering "It's never that easy," but Dean ignores it.
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28 Nov 2025
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All Dean wants is a little privacy. Cas doesn't understand.
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- 18/18
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27 Nov 2025
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Cas asks Dean to marry him, and Dean can't think of a reason to say no.
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"Dean," Cas says calmly, gingerly sitting his fork down, and oh, this is gonna be a thing, Dean can tell. Sure enough, it is because Cas goes on to say, "What would you think if I suggested we get married?"
Dean blinks and swallows the food in his mouth, staring at Cas curiously. "I would think...you were either on drugs or going insane, why?"
"I'm not inebriated, nor mentally unstable."
"I—I…" Dean takes in a deep breath, then blows it out heavily. "Cas, you're not fucking with me, are you?"
"I'm not," Cas tells him.
"Okay," he says, "fuck it, let's get hitched."
"Thank you," Cas murmurs sincerely, then picks his fork back up and goes right back to eating.
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27 Nov 2025
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"... you wanna what, now?" Dean asks, because he definitely didn't hear that right.
Castiel tilts his head, a leftover tick from his angel days that Dean would be lying if he claimed to find anything but idiotically endearing. He knows this is his own fault, owing to that rather memorable moment a week ago when Cas wandered into this very same kitchen with a (fairly) legitimate question and Dean just didn't know when to shut up.
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25 Nov 2025
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They're doing that thing again, where Cas is staring at Dean with the intensity of a dog trying to remind his owner that it's past dinner time. Dean's staring right back like the first one to blink is buying the next round. Sam's aware there's a conversation going on that he isn't privy to — and he's used to it, by this point — but it's still rude.
"So, as I was saying," Sam tries to interrupt the resounding silence, "if we can just figure out a — "
"Sure," Dean says, and Sam stutters to a halt, because sure what? "I mean, yeah. Yes. Dude, you don't even have to ask."
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24 Nov 2025
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After their disastrous trip to the brothel, Dean takes a more direct approach to getting Cas de-virginized ... and gets a lot more than he bargained for. With the world on the fast track to Armageddon, can Dean finally find the courage to reveal the secret he's kept for almost twenty years?
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20 Nov 2025
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It's been weeks since Dean became a demon and Sam and Cas have finally found a cure. Cas, with his rapidly depleting Grace, and Sam follow the trail of blood Dean has been leaving in his wake with the goal of bringing him home and returning him to his former state. The process won’t be easy and Cas has to ask himself one very important question, is he capable of killing the man he loves if he can't cure him in order the protect the world from his ever growing destruction? Dean isn’t going to go down easy though and both men might end up learning more about themselves before the week is through. Will Cas be able to save Dean, or will he end up burning the world down just to keep him?
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How much would you be willing to change for the one you loved?
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20 Nov 2025
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Getting used to Heaven is something of a marvel. It ain't perfect, and Dean thinks he'd hate it if it was, which is probably why it isn't.
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"You don't understand," Dean whispers, exhaling shakily. "I know you don't, because even I don't. The instant you were gone, I wanted you back. Cas, I wanted you back. I wanted—I wanted—"
Cas stares at him, searching his face. After a moment, his own face falls slack, eyes widening just so. "Oh," he breathes out.
Dean wants to be furious that Cas has figured it out before he has—whatever it is—but he's not even that surprised. Cas knows him too well, always has, even more than Dean knows himself. He's been kicking Dean in the goddamn teeth with how deeply he understands him, even about the things Dean doesn't, ever since they first met. You don't think you deserve to be saved, that's what Cas had said. All bundled up in impossibilities and power, this being that looked at Dean Winchester and knew every single inch of him, as if he had a right to each part.
"What?" Dean grits out.
"I love you, too."
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04 Nov 2025
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In which Amara doesn't bring back Mary, she brings back John Winchester.
Dean is uncertain what Amara's meaning is when she brings John back, and struggles with coming to terms with the new family dynamic. Sam tries harder to keep the peace than he used to, and Cas does not get along with John at all- though he tries. Testosterone is at an all-time high as these four men struggle to coexist in the hunting world with very different ideologies.
We explore just how much the brothers have changed in the ten years without their father's guidance, the trauma they still haven't resolved, and the feelings that Dean and Cas hold for one another despite the very real and new barrier that is John.
This story begins 12x01 and ends around 13x06
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04 Nov 2025