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    Spring of 2016: Ilya loses a father.

    Summer of 2016: Ilya loses a brother.

    Fall of 2016: Ilya gains a daughter, a lover, and a friend.

    Or: another "what if Ilya gained custody of his niece" fic.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Instead of breaking up, Shane and Rose agree to a mutually beneficial lavender relationship for the cameras.

    If only Ilya would let him explain...

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “Good Morning, Mr. Rozanov.” He mumbled his greetings back.

    He placed the file folder down on the desk, two hands placed on top, as if to stop Ilya from reaching out and opening the file to find the results himself. “I hope you had some good rest last night.” Ilya wanted to reach across and shake the man. Instead he just made a face of agreement. “I have your results now if you’re ready.”

    Ilya wanted to scream. “Yes. I am ready,” he said in a managed voice instead.

    Mr. Carter, sighed, then opened up the file. “Mr. Rosanov, the results yesterday concluded with 99.99 percent certainty that you are in fact the father."

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander learns there are both pros and cons to accidentally adopting a kitten with your situationship.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    Shane was there when Ilya got the call, his arm heavy across Ilya's stomach, like even in sleep he could tell something was trying to take Ilya away from him.

    When Boston realize Ilya wants out, they send him to the highest bidder. The highest bidder is LA.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    When Shane takes a hard hit on the ice, he wakes up three days later to find his reality has been shattered. But the truth is, it wasn’t reality at all. Just an elaborate set of false memories conjured by a brain injury. 'False memory syndrome' they call it. Shane calls it a nightmare he couldn't have imagined.

    Or

    Shane doesn’t have amnesia. Instead, he wakes up wanting his boyfriend only to realize his brain concocted a bunch of fake memories of a nine year situationship and Shane has no idea how to live in his actual reality that Ilya hasn’t been a part of. Luckily, Ilya is…curious.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Lieutenants Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are rivals on the clock and something far hotter behind closed doors. But in a department where reputations are everything, and the Commissioner is watching, love is the ultimate liability. When the pressure mounts and the stakes turn deadly, Shane makes the impossible choice to walk away to protect Ilya’s future. But how do you stay in the same room as the person who owns your heart when you’re forced to act like strangers?

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    17 Jun 2026

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    One delayed flight. One closing airport bar. One truth or dare game that gets significantly out of hand.
    Ilya Rozanov came to his ex-girlfriend's wedding to prove he was over it. Shane Hollander came to his best friend's wedding to prove he was fine. They were both lying, but they didn't know that about each other yet.

    Then they had to share a room.

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    16 Jun 2026

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    Would you chose me over hockey, Hollander?

    Just fifteen minutes after Shane leaves when Ilya asks him to, he gets a call from Ilya crying profusely: his brother and sister-in-law are dead and he's the only guardian of his nieces.

    Now, with children in the middle, Shane has to make the choice between hockey and Ilya for real. And which one will he chose?

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    15 Jun 2026

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    perezhivanie (n., plural perezhivaniya, from Russian переживание)

    1. (in psychology) The emotional-cognitive experience arising for a person, especially a child, from any situation or from any aspect of his environment, which determines what kind of influence this situation or this environment will have on the child.

    2. (in acting theory) A tool enabling actors to create characters from their own re-lived, past lived-through experiences, by revitalizing their autobiographical emotional memories and arousing emotions through physical actions. see also Stanislavsky.

    or, Shane hates Ilya Rozanov, his professional rival and former drama school classmate. Rozanov doesn't seem to have gotten the memo.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    The plane carrying the Voyageurs home from Houston crashes just after take-off.

    Shane is on board.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    The first sound Ilya hears is a thin, discordant symphony of beeps and whirs. Something vibrating. 

    The next thing he hears is…wet. A sort of shaking, gargling sound, that feels like the ugliest crying he’s ever heard. And through it, Shane’s voice. 

    “I’m with him now, mom. He’s— he’s not fine. He’s not. I know—”

    Ilya wants to ask who's not fine, but he can’t feel his own body, his mouth, enough to ask.

    “Yeah,” Shane is saying, only slightly calmer. “I know. He wasn’t breathing—"

    Ilya knows there's a link, between the clinical musicality of medical settings, Shane’s audible, awful distress, and his own physical incapacity. It’s just, it’s so tenuous, and the air around him is so thick, so heavy. It would be easy, to sleep, a little. 

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    Footage of the last game between Ottawa and Montreal is everywhere; it’s breached containment from the sports world, and now it seems like everyone is baying for Montreal’s blood. Except, Ilya is oblivious. Not exactly blissfully so, but as the fight for accountability within the league rages on without him, Ilya just wants someone, anyone, to tell him what happened.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is in love, closeted, catastrophically lonely, and apparently incapable of referring to Shane Hollander in present tense.

    The Centaurs come to a- given the circumstances- reasonable conclusion.

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    Five times the Centaurs thought Ilya Rozanov was mourning his dead wife, and the one time they discovered his wife was actually Shane Hollander.
    Shane, for the record, is alive and really confused.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    -Association of Zoos & Aquariums Forum Admin created new topic-
    AZA CONFERENCE RIDESHARE MASTER POST
    Hey everyone, hoping to link up for a ride to AZA in October? This thread is for you!

    Ilya R.
    hi looking for ride from ottawa one-way. flying out after conference. will pay you for gas.

    Shane H.
    I can swing through Ottawa as long as you’re ready to go by 9 am Mon. No smoking or snacks in the car but you can be in charge of the stereo.

    Ilya R.
    thank you you seem like very safe driver
    Ilya R.
    even with stick up your ass

    Or, zookeeper Ilya meets aquarium keeper Shane on a road trip with only one bed and a whole lot of unlikely animal friends.

    -this fic is now complete!-

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    09 Jun 2026

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    No matter the trope.
    No matter the universe.
    No matter the setup.
    They find each other.

    “Great, I just need some info from you.” Shane flipped to a new page in the order book and pulled out his favorite pen. “What’s your name?”

    The man tilted his head, smiling almost indulgently at him. Shane waited patiently, then smiled awkwardly when there was no name forthcoming. “You don’t know?” the man said.

    “Your name? No, I don’t– sorry, have we met before?” Shane asked, suddenly embarrassed. He didn't remember seeing this man in the shop before. Oh god, had they gone on a date and he forgot? It had been awhile since he went out with anyone, so it must have been quite a long time ago if that was the case. But Shane was sure he would remember someone who looked and sounded like that.

    The man’s smile widened. “I must just have one of those faces,” he said. “My name is Ilya.”

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Shane and Ilya collide on the ice in 2008, and Shane's career is over before it begins.

    In 2014, when they meet each other in a club in Boston, Ilya wants to make it up to him.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    Hello! This is my first post, although I am a frequent visitor to this subreddit and have been for years. I have loved hockey all my life, but my real guilty pleasure is staying on top of all the behind the scenes gossip. As you can imagine, Scott Hunter kissing his boyfriend on the ice was a huge day for me!

    I recently noticed something with Ilya Rozanov that I don’t think many other people have, and I decided to finally post about it here to see if anyone else shares my opinion. Every hockey fan I’ve talked to in my real life has brushed it off because Rozanov is known as such a womanizer, but I genuinely think he’s in some kind of serious long-term relationship.


    Or the year before Ilya transfers to Ottawa, Shane and Ilya learn three things. Creating a charity is a fuck ton of work, coming out isn’t something you do just once, and the whole world seems to think Ilya Rozanov is in a committed relationship.

    Oh, and Ilya is addicted to Reddit hockey gossip.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Ilya is not going to steal Shane Hollander's dog. That would be illegal. And wrong. And someone would probably find out and make Ilya give him back.

    So. Not stealing.

    But there is nothing wrong with giving Chernysh all the pats and treats that he deserves, is there?

    Nothing wrong with encouraging Chernysh to spend more and more time at Ilya's house until he doesn't even remember who Hollander is.

    Because Hollander is stupid and boring and does not deserve a dog as good as Chernysh. No, he doesn't, does he? Because Chernysh is the best boy in the whole world, yes he is.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    02 Jun 2026

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