decideophobia
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“No? Мой любимый,” Ilya coos, and Shane flushes up to his ears, the nickname, coloured by the cadence of Ilya’s voice, how it sounds in Russian, hitting him so unexpectedly he gasps without meaning to. “You have always been a bad liar.”
Ilya keeps his hand on Shane’s waist, walking him into the restroom, close enough that Shane starts to feel the heat of his body through his clothes. He uses his other hand to carelessly pull the door closed behind them, locking it without even so much as a backward glance.
“Fooled you,” Shane shoots back and immediately clamps his mouth shut, biting at his tongue.
He feels a sick little thrill, a sort of vindication maybe, when Ilya’s breath catches.
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- Part 2 of with love like gallows strung
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with love like gallows strung by decideophobia for delsicle
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
07 Jun 2026
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Four years after faking his death after an undercover operation gone wrong, Shane runs into the person he was never meant to see again.
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- Part 1 of with love like gallows strung
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(baby can't you see) how these clothes are fitting on me by decideophobia for Rena
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
24 May 2026
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“So you agree?”
“Agree?” It’s getting harder and harder to focus on words when Ilya is pushing, pushing, pushing him until the counter is pressing hard against Shane’s hipbones. Everywhere Ilya touches him leaves behind a pool of embers ready to ignite.
“Your silk shorts,” Ilya says, slowly, as if to make sure Shane understands him, “They are slutty.”
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Shane deals with loving someone who's depressed.
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Shane finds Ilya's necklace in his apartment.
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I decided to post the fics from my old blog because the post links don't lead back to the fics anymore since I took the url with me. So here they are. Mostly TFLN prompt fills which is why most of the fics are untitled. I'm too lazy to come up with titles.
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The man sitting in the driver’s seat should not be here. He should be miles away, at his home base in Montreal, not driving a piece of shit beater in the middle of nowhere.
And Shane should not be here with him, because as far as Ilya Rozanov knew, Shane’s body burned up in a car fire four years ago.
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21 Jun 2026
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Ilya has some fun ideas about how to show Shane exactly how good he looks getting fucked.
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“Is Polaroid,” Ilya clarifies. “No files, no sharing… very private.”
Hollander swallows, stares a beat longer, and then aggressively doesn’t look anywhere near the camera or Ilya. “Okay. So?”
Ilya thinks, it’s always this. Hollander feints towards something he wants, and Ilya gets it for him, and he offers it up like a toy for a cat. Not too needy, not too blasé, he must twitch it at just the right pace. Here, kitty kitty.
“I would like to take some, see how you look,” Ilya offers oh so casually. “It’s just for fun. You can keep all of them, after. Put them through the shredder. I don’t care.” He cares. The things he’d do to keep one of those photos.
Hollander wets his lips, glances back at the camera, flushes. Then the pounce: “You can leave it on the nightstand.”
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31 May 2026
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time, and again by sundancekid
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
28 Apr 2026
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Ilya is six the first time it happens. He's in the garden, and then he sees himself, just a little older, and that older Ilya waves and comes running over to play. Later he will be so grateful Mama is the only one who sees. She tells him it must be their secret, just the two of them, always, and gives him ground rules, to keep him safe: when you visit, don't talk to strangers, don't go in public, don't ask questions of your older self, don't tell your younger self anything. You don't know what knowing the future might change. Don't ever tell anyone about it.
When Ilya says he's going to score fifty goals his rookie season, he's not boasting, he's reporting a fact.
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27 May 2026
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come real quick (and get inside my mind) by coffeeinallcaps
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
01 Mar 2026
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He should just forget about Rozanov. Forget about Rozanov coming all over his own stomach as Shane watched, transfixed; forget about Rozanov’s hand curving possessively around Shane’s jaw to pull him in for a kiss. Forget about the dizzying, red-hot bolt of shame and anticipation and fear and arousal that had shot through him when Rozanov stroked two fingers down between his ass cheeks and pressed there—a question, an offer. A promise.
(In which Shane responds to Ilya’s texts between 2011 and 2013.)
“Stop saying dick pic,” Shane hissed. “This is harassment.” He glared at the bulge in his pants. “You are harassing me.”“I do not know what this word means.”
“How fucking convenient for you.”
“Aw, Hollander,” Rozanov said, but he sounded a little contrite. After a beat, he asked, “Do you want me to stop?”
“Don’t you dare stop,” Shane said through clenched teeth, surreptitiously palming himself to take the edge off. It didn’t help.
“So do you want my dick or not?” Rozanov asked after another beat.
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24 May 2026
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think twice (and come back for a third time) by lipsticktraces
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 May 2026
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Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.
A stranger, and the love of his life.
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or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.
OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!
Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.
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Bookmarked by decideophobia
24 May 2026