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    Refusing to let Ilya ruin his career by signing with Ottawa, Shane chooses to really give their relationship a try and moves to Boston to live with Ilya and become a Raider. What follows is enough public scrutiny and backlash from his team that it has him questioning if he made the right decision. Until moments with Ilya and the Raiders show him exactly why he chose correctly.

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    Hayden’s eyes flickered to Shane as he sat on the bench, chewing on the edge of his mouth guard.

    “Don’t fucking look at him,” Ilya insisted as he bent down for the faceoff.

    “Excuse me?” Hayden mumbled, eyes darting back to him.

    “You heard me,” he retorted, his tone clipped. “He’s not your teammate anymore; he’s mine. If you think Marlow is a problem to your game, wait until you see what I will do to your team if you hurt anyone on mine again.”

    Hayden scoffed, dipping his head as he tried to focus on the game. Something about Ilya’s words still rang through his head though, sounding so definitive that he didn’t want to risk seeing what he was actually referring to when he said that.

    The puck dropped again, and Ilya stole it before he could comprehend how quickly it happened.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov’s life flips upside down when he’s granted parental rights to his recently orphaned 5-month-old niece. Shane Hollander’s life flips upside down when the two of them move in next door.

    Or: Shane Hollander, certified Baby Whisperer, is the only thing that can get his next door neighbours screaming infant to stop wailing.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    30 May 2026

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    At eleven years old Ilya Rozanov's class is given an assignment:

    They will be randomly paired with a student at another school in Canada via email. In order to get full credit on the assignment, they must send at least five emails back and forth and gather enough information to write their project.

    After seven years, Ilya is pretty sure he's done enough for 100%

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    Shane and Ilya sending emails throughout the years. What happens when they meet?

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    07 May 2026

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    PLANE CARRYING OTTAWA CENTAUR’S HOCKEY TEAM, COACH, PERSONNEL, REPORTEDLY LOST CONTACT, PRESUMED MISSING -

    Shane’s eyes scan over the words, once, twice. It’s not true. It’s some mistake. He knows it.

    “Lost contact?” Hayden asks, his tone a mix of concerned and confused. “What’s that mean? Like they lost their ability to communicate? Won’t that make landing hard?”

    J.J. frowns. “I do not think they will be landing,” he says solemnly.

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    The Ottawa Centaurs plane crashes in the Canadian wilderness. Shane tries to get answers while Ilya tries to stay alive.

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    27 Apr 2026

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    Yeva is giggling excitedly, and flawlessly executing her move, or so it seems. Her spin seems to be going well, until she somehow loses her footing, screaming in fear as she goes down. Hard. She hits the ice, face first, with a loud thud.
    Ilya’s eyes go wide at the sight of his little girl lying there, unmoving.
    Lying there....
    Unmoving...

     

    -shane and ilya's daughter has an accident on the ice, which triggers a traumatic memory for ilya-

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    25 Mar 2026

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    When Ilya develops a close bond with his new teammate Troy, Shane has to watch someone be openly friendly with his boyfriend in ways he can’t.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    Bood: Good morning team! Is everyone alive?
    Dykstra: define alive

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    A look into the Ottawa Centaur's team chat the day after winning the MLH cup.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    To be clear, Ilya is grateful the rookies aren’t growing up the way he did in the NHL. Ilya took the hazing to the chin – humiliation rituals, beat downs, grueling practices to prove he could “hang” with the big guns on the team.

    That being said, there’s still some part of Ilya that balks at the request by the gaggle of rookies to watch The Iron Giant, a veritable children’s movie at the team’s latest movie night.

    OR: Five times Shane and Ilya were the support system for the Centaur rookies they dreamed of having when they were younger.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    The Voyageurs ask Shane to join FanMail in order to foster a better connection with fans. Internet sleuths start to notice some interesting details in the background of Shane’s videos, and then the internet does...what the internet does.

    Or Shane and Ilya are granted an opportunity to come out on their own terms. Sort of. And in they do it in a very Ilya way. (Surprisingly, it is Shane’s idea)

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    12 Feb 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Harris launches a new series for the Centaurs' social media: having the team answer his question of the day!

    This follows the season after The Long Game, when Shane joins the team on their road to the Stanley Cup, as they answer questions like who's the hottest/funniest/most perceptive Centaur, different preferences, rituals, and more.

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    05 Feb 2026

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    a different take on the plane situation, in which it lands a little more roughly, ilya gets injured, and shane drives 13 hours to get to his man.

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    “Shane? Sweetie, are you okay? We saw the news,” his mother says immediately upon answering the phone. She sounds like she’s been crying.

    “No,” he answers, too raw to even think about lying. “I’m—I’m on my way to Tampa.” There’s no point in lying about that, either—they’ll find out one way or another.

    “You what?” He can hear the panic in his mother’s voice.

    “Hayden helped me get a rental car,” he grits out, taking a steadying breath. “I-I have to get to him.”

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    02 Feb 2026

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    He knew it stung Ilya, people not understanding. It stung him too. Because to Shane, loving Ilya was like breathing and also like standing on solid ground after years of drifting. It flooded him and steadied him at the same time. It hurt, knowing the world reduced them to a rivalry, a strange story, a piece of scandalous gossip when what they had was so much more. He wanted to be by Ilya’s side for everything, the mundane, the bright and the hard. And maybe not everyone who was in love felt like this, so overwhelmed and so steadied all at once. But Shane did. And if love was a contest, well… he is the winner.
    Best couple. Number one. Most epic love story ever.

    Or 4 times Shane told people him and Ilya were practically soulmates and the 1 time the universe told him.

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    24 Jan 2026

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    “What’s his deal?” Wyatt asked, appearing beside Shane. He was looking at Ilya with an amused expression, something Shane saw from Wyatt a lot. Actually, he'd never seen Wyatt look negative at all.

    “This.” Shane turned his phone on, putting the screen in Wyatt's view so he could see a post from some sports reporter.

    Adam Müller ✅ @AMullerNHL
    The #OttawaCentaurs have traded for Left Wing Hayden Pike.
    More information on this trade below.

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    hayden gets traded to the centaurs after a lot of deliberating, and his first season in ottawa proves why the change was worth it (plus the summer after)

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    20 Jan 2026

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    “I, for one, think it’s a great idea,” Troy chimes. 

    “Mind your own business, Barrett,” Ilya says. He looks at Shane. “I don’t know. Could be fun.”

    “Um,” Shane says eloquently.

    or, the young guys on the Centaurs want to bond with their Captain and his husband. Naturally, they ask if they can have a sleepover.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Rozanov cocked his head. “You speak Russian? Or just the curse words?”

    “Yes, I speak Russian,” he snapped, defensive and angry. He knew that it had been a mistake to even try to be friendly with Rozanov. “Why? Do I not look Russian to you?” He scoffed.

    “No, not really,” Rozanov said. Some of his teammates laughed, although they mostly looked surprised that Shane was speaking to them at all. Rozanov didn’t laugh, though. “Are you Russian?”

    “Go fuck yourself.”

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    Despite an inauspicious start, when Russia’s Ilya Rozanov learns that Canada’s Shane Hollander is fluent in Russian at their first World Junior Championships tournament, it changes everything and sets them on a different course. Instead of being branded as rivals from the very beginning, Ilya and Shane start off as friends.

    And, after all, a little friendly rivalry never hurt anyone, did it?

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    22 Dec 2025

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    “So I want you to tell me what’s wrong with this,” Harris said, pushing a printed-out screenshot of a tweet toward Ilya.

    Ilya glanced at it. His lips quirked up into a grin.

    “It says ‘Happy Pride Month,’” Ilya said. “What is wrong with that?”

    Harris dragged a hand over his face.

    “The problem,” Harris said, “is that it says ‘#BeGayDoCrime’ after that.”

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    11 Dec 2025

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    Three times Ilya can't resist marking what's his, and one time Shane decides to return the favor.

    Or: Shane and Ilya's first season together on the Centaurs. Includes teasing teammates, introspection, therapy, personal growth, lots of sex and an attempt to bring home the Stanley Cup.

    (Also: A story about learning how to accept your true self and all the joy that can come from that.)

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    11 Dec 2025

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    Shane finds a new family in Ottawa. It just takes him a bit.

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    10 Dec 2025

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