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    “We could…be friends, maybe.” Shane’s voice was small, hesitant on almost every sound.

    “Wha–” Ilya’s reply was less of a word and more of a stupid, confused noise like he’d been punched. A punch probably would’ve caught him less off guard than what Shane actually said.

    “Y’know, text about the hockey gossip? You call, I answer? Friends.”

    Something terrifyingly bright exploded into Ilya’s chest. Something dangerous, that felt like maybe it could keep him warm through the summer in Russia, through the chill that permeated his childhood home no matter how warm it was outside.

    “And also we like to suck each other’s dicks,” he quipped, trying to deflect.

    “Fuck off, Rozanov.”

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    Drunk and young and stupid, Shane and Ilya choose to be honest - just a little bit. To lean into each other, instead of apart. What happens if they choose to be a little bit brave on a Vegas rooftop in 2011, and keep choosing it?

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    26 Jun 2026

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    There was a burst of static, a gusty sigh. "Shanushka, you have the biggest 'bottom eyes' I have ever seen."

    "That's not a thing."

    "It is absolutely a thing, and that thing is you," she cackled, and he hung up the phone, ears so hot they should have been smoking.

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    Or, Shane meets Svetlana first, and it changes everything and nothing.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it

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    23 Jun 2026

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    Something both Shane and Ilya understood about hockey, that many other players didn’t, was that what separated good players from the greats was the ability and willingness to plan and engage in psychological warfare.

    Shane and Ilya went about it in different ways but that didn’t change the fundamental truth: to be the best hockey player was to be ruthless.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    “Birds living outside moved away. Went south, because you annoy them with your moaning every morning. They got sick of it.” Ilya’s words are breathy with laughter. Shane, still looking up at him, can see the exact moment the idea pops into his head.

    Ilya pulls his hand away from Shane’s face and takes a small step back. It finally feels like Shane has a bit of space to breathe and try to collect himself-

    Ilya drops onto his knees, lips parted with panting breath and eyes wide and shiny with admiration. Shane swears that he feels his heart stop in his chest. 

    He’s seen Ilya on his knees plenty of times, but this time it feels different. There’s an unspoken energy that has shifted between the two men, it’s just that Shane has absolutely no brainpower left to figure it out. It feels like a hand has just clamped down on his throat and his dick is aching at the sight of Ilya like this.

    “In my mouth first, please.” 

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    aka the fic where ilya teases shane so much during his trip to the cottage that shane realizes that he wants to top. at the same time, the world starts to pick up that something is not quite normal between ilya and shane.

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    14 Jun 2026