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  1. Public Bookmark 56

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    Everything about him gets under Shane’s skin - the way he cracks his knuckles and how he wears his sweats too low on his hips and keeps his desk unorganized. How he blinks slow when he wakes up, how he always forgets to close his wardrobe doors. He takes up so much space, too much space - Shane can hardly think when he’s around, his presence a pressure against his fucking skull.

    Rozanov is not his soulmate. He’s just the first Russian Shane has met.

    ***

    Or: It's Spirit Week at Snowsill University and Ilya has an agenda. It may or may not include wooing his possible soulmate with a whiteboard.

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    27 May 2026

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    Tired of his parents, friends and teammates always trying to set him up with a ‘Nice Alpha’, Omega Hockey Player, Shane Hollander, hires an actor to pose as his date to a fancy Gala in an effort to get people off his back. He fully intended to hire an actor. However, it seems he mistakenly hired an Alpha prostitute by the name of Ilya Rozanov.

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    26 May 2026

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    Shane has been hiding his designation for his entire NHL career. It's been hard, but its been worth it.

    Then a single moment makes everything come tumbling down.

    (Updates on Tuesdays)

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    26 May 2026

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    There are no subs in the NHL. Everyone knows that.

    Which is why Shane Hollander has never had any reason to question what he is, until Ilya Rozanov starts noticing things.

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    21 May 2026

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    “You’ll text when you land, right?” Shane asks as he takes an exit ramp labeled Airport Departures.

    “Yes. Promise.”

    “And you’ll call tonight?” Shane’s throat works over the words, like he still doesn’t trust this new thing between them. Ilya thinks he understands. He also doesn’t know how to trust this love. How can he when it has been trapped in his own heart so long. Neither of them know what the next year will bring. There is so much time before Ilya can have his agent, or his future agent, he will need a new one with no connections to Russia, reach out to Ottawa and hope that they’ll be interested in a future Hall of Fame center. The one thing Ilya is certain of is that he will do everything in his power to make their plan work. He spent his entire adult life lusting after, and then pining for Shane with his whole heart.

    “I will call.” Ilya reaches for the hand Shane has left on the gearshift and threads his fingers through his. He wants to say so much, but he has always been better with touch than words, especially when the only shared language was English. “We will talk every day.”

    Or, There is a year before Ilya can sign with Ottawa, Shane counts down the days until their forever.

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    12 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is the star college hockey player at Boston University. He's in his sophomore year, has just been announced as the Captain for the upcoming 2008-2009 season -- life is great.

    Shane Hollander is a freshman, living in a dorm room with Hayden Pike and going to all of his classes. He studies at the library, listens to Hayden's ramblings about his fraternity, gets coffee with his childhood best friend Rose, and signs up to be a tutor for the hockey team.

    Love persists in all their universes.

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    “I don’t think you’re supposed to smoke on campus.” Shane mutters, glancing up at the cigarette, then back at the guy’s eyes.

    The guy snorts.

    “Da. Good thing we are not on campus. I am Ilya.” He holds out his hand.

    Shane eyes it, then slowly reaches out with his own. He could smell vodka? on the guy’s breath. Some sort of alcohol, at least. He wasn’t super familiar with the assortments.

    But, he doesn't want to be rude. That was one thing he wasn’t.

    “Il-ya,” he says, “My name is Shane.”

    “Shane.” Ilya repeats.

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    07 May 2026

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    For years, Ilya and Shane have kept what they are to each other carefully hidden. The stolen moments in hotel rooms and late-night phone calls. Rivals don’t love each other, everyone knows that.

    Then Shane hits the ice and Ilya has to decide how much he's willing to say out loud.

    He chooses to say everything. He just doesn't expect Shane to have been able to understand.

    In the aftermath, the secret is out to their teammates, to Shane's parents, to anyone paying attention. They are the MLH’s most recognised rivals, on opposite sides of one of the league's biggest divides and suddenly there’s nowhere left to hide. The question now isn't whether they love each other. It's whether they're brave enough to see what that looks like in the light, and whether the world around them is ready to let them find out.

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    04 May 2026

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    He didn't know the lore. He'd spent his life on suppressants, reading hockey stats instead of Omega biology, studying playbooks instead of presentation pamphlets. He didn't know that if an Omega spent their first true, unmedicated heat in the presence of an Alpha who protected them, the brain didn't care about "hooking up" or "sexual gratification." The brain cared about safety. The brain cared about the one who proved, through the fire of biological imperative, that they would not hurt you, would not use you, would not abandon you to the wolves.

    Or: after years of avoiding heats, his suppressants fail and Shane falls into early heat in the middle of hockey camp. Ilya finds him and takes care of him, while being terrified.

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    5/?
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    04 May 2026

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    Sveta
    Help me
    I am in love with a virgin

    Ilya was exaggerating for comic effect, of course. He wasn’t in love with Shane Hollander. He was just absolutely infatuated with him and wanted to carry him around in his pocket and also fuck him senseless and then count his freckles while he slept beside him. So not love, just whatever that was, but still. It was a problem.

    Or,
    A newly-drafted Ilya Rozanov finds himself transfixed by a beautiful man in the grocery store.

    A newly-single Shane Hollander does something uncharacteristically brave.

    Neither of them are prepared for just how out of their depth they're about to be.

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    11/?
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    03 May 2026

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    Rozanov says, “I am new Captain. Is, um…in English, I think you say—”
    “Hazing,” Shane mutters. “They’re hazing you?”
    “Yes.” Rozanov pulls back. Shrugs his shoulders again. “Go back in your room, Shane Hollander.”
    “And if I do,” Shane mutters, sliding his eyes sideways again. Siderov and Vasiliev look proud of themselves, basking in a kind of butter-wouldn’t-melt ease that only bullies ever truly know. Somewhere, their mothers are calling them princes. “Will that be, like, it? Or will they do something else?”
    “Ah.” Rozanov rubs the side of his nose, sniffs. “Something else, probably. Or they will tell whole team you turned me down. No worries. Pretty omega turns me down, not end of the world. Guys on team will laugh. Also not end of the world.”
    “That’s not…” Shane screws up his mouth, looks down at his shoes. He’s still massively keyed up, still just a little hard, and Rozanov is still very handsome. “That’s not…what’s happening.”

    Regina, Saskatchewan, 2008. Shane Hollander is newly an omega and nobody is happy about it. Ilya Rozanov makes it interesting.

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    02 May 2026

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    +1 (617) 555-9214
    [image blurred]
    thinking about u

    +1 (857) 555-4473
    i’m guessing this wasn’t meant for me

    +1 (617) 555-9214
    fuck.

    or: Shane Hollander receives a thirst trap from an unknown number - and absolutely should not reply, especially considering how much he and Ilya Rozanov can’t stand each other in real life.

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    Chapters:
    10/10
    Comments:
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    29 Apr 2026

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    Shane had been used to being alone. He'd never thought of himself as lonely. He honestly often craved the solitude, found it grounding. But that was before he knew what it was like to have someone to call, someone to touch. He was never lonely before Rozanov, but he'd been lonely ever since.

    April 2017: Shane does not get laid out on the ice.

    Ilya goes through with ending it.

    Shane lets him.

    What follows is eleven months of distance, denial, and a quiet kind of devastation neither of them knows how to name, let alone fix.

    They learn how to live without each other.

    (Or at least, how to pretend.)

    And then, almost a year later, the infamous collision happens and Shane goes down cold.

    And suddenly, neither of them can pretend it doesn’t matter.

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    Chapters:
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    26 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander suffers a career ending injury in Metros training camp derailing his pro hockey dreams before they even start. He is forced to come to terms with who he is without his sport and find a new direction. Ilya Rozanov with nobody around to push him has lost his love for the game. More than a decade later, the new team doctor brings up old feelings that never had the space to grow all those years ago, but are now growing out of control.

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    25 Apr 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 26

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    “Flowers,” Ilya tells him, “are not just pretty things to look at—they are an entire language of their own. Every flower has its own meaning, so they can talk for you when you cannot come up with the words yourself. You can tell someone you are in love with them, or you can tell them you never want to see them again, and you never even have to open your mouth. This is why you must be deliberate with the flowers you give to another person. Every bouquet is a conversation. What do you want this one to say?”

    * * *

    As a florist in Montreal, Ilya is used to dealing with men who are completely useless when it comes to picking out flowers for their partners. When a certain hockey player wanders into his flower shop in search of a bouquet for his new actress girlfriend, Ilya decides it’s time to take a stand against bad flower etiquette.

    (Or, five times Ilya teaches Shane how to speak the language of flowers and one time Shane learns how to speak it for himself.)

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    05 Apr 2026

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    Ilya and Shane marry after Rookie season

    Due to Shane being a little more aware of himself thanks to Yuna, over-prepared mamma bear, explaining all types of sex/attraction to him from a young age (“He needs to be prepared for anything! I am not pigeonholing my son!”), Shane knows he’s crushing on, if not falling for, Ilya.

    The butterfly effect occurs; this has only one outcome really. It’s a small thing. Tiny. When Ilya is not there for Shane’s Rookie of the Year award after-party, Shane is worried, needing to track down the other man, instead of slightly annoyed/upset that he would be without Yuna’s lessons.

    This in turn leads him to not doing shots with Scott Hunter.

    Which means only one thing: other than the whole ‘definitely being aware of falling for your rival’ tiny thing. It shouldn’t change much.

    He is not drunk on that balcony with Ilya.
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    Ilya Rozanov is married, everyone knows this. His wife, Jane, is strict, perfect, stunning, pretty, boring, and Canadian. She’s always too busy to meet the team.

    Shane Hollander is married; some people know this. He doesn’t speak about his wife Lily much, but he’s absolutely smitten with her.

    FULL BLURB AT NOTES TOO LONG

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    3/?
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    35,464

    05 Apr 2026

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    When Ilya gets into a car accident on his way back from the cottage and wakes up having lost the last half year of his memories, Shane’s world crumbles.
    He keeps telling himself that Ilya will remember, that everything will go back to how it was before, but it’s hard to keep holding on to that hope when Ilya looks at him with so much distrust and hurt in his eyes.

    Having just spent two wonderful weeks at Shane’s cottage, Ilya’s newfound bliss is cut short when he wakes up in a hospital and the last thing he remembers is playing a game against the Metros back in winter.
    Stuck in his head with his most recent memories following shortly after the tuna melt disaster, he has a hard time figuring out why Shane Hollander keeps showing up at his hospital room. It’s not like they’re even on speaking terms, right?

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    10/12
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    04 Apr 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 29

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    In hindsight, Shane should have known that it could not last, that he should not trust the apparent ease with which they found a rhythm, a set of hard boundaries they silently drew and tacitly agreed not to push against. He should have foreseen the unsustainability of building walls over growing feelings. Shane should have known, but he didn't.

    Or, an extended study of Shane's marvelous journey of self-discovery as he fucks his way into a committed relationship.

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    Chapters:
    9/10
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    1,815

    29 Mar 2026

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    There are no omegas in the NHL. None in any professional sport, actually.

    It’s not that they’re illegal, it just… doesn’t happen.

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    Shane Hollander has spent his entire career hiding the truth: he’s an omega. Only... it turns out suppressants don't mix well with a high-stress pro hockey career. The last thing he needs is Ilya Rozanov noticing something’s wrong.

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    10/?
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    23,112

    29 Mar 2026

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    This needs to end. He doesn't want to see Rozanov again. Ever. He’s done with this. He can’t do just sex anymore, that much he knows. And if that’s what Rozanov wants, he sure as hell hasn't got any trouble finding willing bed partners in any city it seems, something Shane has spent more time than he is willing to admit thinking about. No, he needs to end this now.

    Jane: Lose this number
    Jane: I mean it, don’t fucking text me ever again

    OR, Shane believes Ilya paid him to have sex with him and freaks out. Ilya doesn't understand why he's been blocked, but fuck Shane if he thinks Ilya is going to let them end like this.

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    12 Mar 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 14

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    Because he'd not heeded the warning signs, had he. Not in the past months—years, even, since he'd met Eoin by the side of the always green pitch—and not in the past days, where, through poetry and gritted teeth, he had allowed himself to notice things, things small and dreadful.

    The way the lamplight would fall on Eoin's neck when he knelt between his legs, how he'd scrunch his forehead when holding the scissors in his mouth while fiddling with the roll of gauze, the way he would set the sulpha powder's cap in the same place each time, and how Paddy's body already knew the exact shape of his movement.

    He'd clasped at Yeats as much as at the remnants of the pain, willing it to hurt more than it did.

    And yet here he was, foaming at the mouth, and snapping at thin air.

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    Chapters:
    8/8
    Comments:
    87
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    97
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    1,634

    16 Feb 2026

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