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- 9-1-1 (TV) (11)
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It’s not sudden or shocking. Just there. Something inevitable Eddie kept trying to rename into safer shapes. Best friend. Partner. Family. Anything except the truth sitting underneath all of it. His chest caves inward sharply.
Pepa’s expression changes immediately. “Hey,” she says. Eddie presses the heel of his hand against his mouth hard enough to hurt. His eyes are burning violently. Not now. Not here. Not after spending thirty-three years keeping this contained.
“I tried so hard,” Eddie whispers. Pepa goes still. The words slip out before he can stop them. “I tried so hard to be right.” his voice breaks on the last word.
And it finally destroys him. The exhaustion from spending his entire life trying to earn the right to exist comfortably inside himself. Tears spill before he can stop them. Eddie laughs once immediately afterward, humiliated on instinct.
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Eddie Begins Again
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“They said I’ve been approved to adopt Theo.” the words coming out broken.
Eddie doesn’t speak immediately. Doesn’t rush in. Just waits. Buck hates how easily Eddie reads him. He’s got better at it since Theo.
This should be good news. It is good news. Theo is safe. Theo is thriving. His nightmares are less frequent now. He laughs easily again. He calls for Buck when he gets hurt. Climbs into Buck’s bed during thunderstorms.
And Buck wants him. God, he wants him. That’s the terrifying part.
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The aftermath of Buck being told he is able to adopt Theo officially. Eddie is there to put the pieces back together.
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- Part 8 of Welcome Home, Theo
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5 Times Eddie Diaz Accidentally Acts Like Buck’s Husband — And the 1 Time Someone Finally Says It Out Loud
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Theo gets sick for the first time since moving in with Buck, and caring for him comes as naturally as breathing. Holding Theo through fevers and coughing fits makes Buck realise something painful - if Theo is so easy to love, and so much like Buck was as a child, then why couldn’t his own parents love him the same way?
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Theo is sick and Buck spirals
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- Part 7 of Welcome Home, Theo
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Christopher has always secretly loved when people mistook Buck for his dad. He never said it out loud. Not to Eddie. Not to Buck. Definitely not to anyone else.
But every time someone smiled at them at the zoo and said “Your son is adorable,” Every time a teacher assumed Buck was Mr Diaz, every time automatically corrected people with a soft, “Actually, I’m…” before Chris could pretend for a second longer.
Christopher loved it. Because Buck chose him. Every single day. He was his Buck.
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Christopher is struggling to understand where he fits into Buck’s life now he has Theo
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- Part 3 of Welcome Home, Theo
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After becoming kinship placement for Theo following the loss of Connor and Kameron, Buck learns how to navigate parenthood, grief and the lingering wounds of his own childhood. All while Eddie, Christopher and Theo slowly become the family he never realized he already had.
Note: please enjoy!! I’ll be slowly adding other stories into this series as I post things to fill some timeline gaps.
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“Buck,” Theo starts. “What is this?”
“Um, a piano. My piano.”
That I use to secretly release music online goes unsaid.
Or, Buck is a firefighter, a brother, and responsible for a young child. He's also a musician online, but no one is supposed to know about that. Maybe more than one song is about Eddie, but no one is supposed to know about that, either.
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02 Jun 2026
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Nine Years of Almost (And The Year it Finally Stuck) by Writeninembers
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25 May 2026
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It starts as a mistake. A joke. Something that doesn’t mean anything.
Eddie’s birthday ends.
A midnight kiss.
Buck’s birthday begins.They do it every year.
Over.
And over.
And over.For nine years.
Every year.
The same person.Some years are easy.
Some are messy.
And some… shouldn’t have happened.Bookmarked by Second_starr
01 Jun 2026
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To his left, a cluster of young men, barely old enough to be in here, were living their lives through their phone screens. They preened and posed, muscles straining against designer t-shirts, capturing manufactured moments of joy for an audience that wasn't here. Buck felt a surge of contempt so sharp and sudden it almost made him flinch. He’d been that young once, though his own brand of youthful idiocy had also involved running into burning buildings, not just perfecting a pout for Instagram.
To his right, a group of older men, their faces a roadmap of past disappointments, watched the younger crowd with a hungry, almost predatory nostalgia. They were looking for a night, an hour, a few minutes to feel like the men they used to be. Buck looked away. He was thirty-four, caught in the no-man’s-land between the two, and felt an uncomfortable kinship with both groups that made his skin crawl.
This was a mistake. He should have stayed home.
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A 34-year-old Buck and a 22-year-old Eddie meet at a gay bar and have sex about it. A lot of sex.Series
- Part 1 of Fast & Loose 'Verse
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28 May 2026
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“So,” Eddie said.
Buck glanced over. “So.”
“Beck asked me out.”
The world narrowed.
Buck’s hand froze on the truck. “What?”
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Or, Beckett Walsh, a firefighter from the London Fire Brigade, joins the 118 for a three-week exchange program and looks exactly like Buck.
Everyone sees it.
Everyone except Eddie.
So when Beck asks Eddie out, Eddie says yes, hoping one date might help him understand why every relationship before this has felt almost right.
Unfortunately for Buck, “almost right” looks a lot like him.
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18 May 2026
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"What are you saying, Eddie?" Buck asks again, soft and patient, and it's so unlike him that Eddie melts into his chair.
"Yeah," Eddie chuckles. "What am I saying?"
"Y-you want to try with me? Figuring out…"
"If we could want the same form of physical intimacy from each other," Eddie finishes for him with a nod, a little more confident now.
"H-how?"
"Uh, I don't know yet," Eddie admits. "Slowly, I suppose. I thought we could, you know, come up with a plan together?"
"A plan," Buck echoes, but he doesn't sound weirded out, more like he's already planning to buy a clipboard. "And it wouldn't be strange? I mean, considering— I'm a man, Eddie."
OR After the attack in the hospital, Eddie finds a letter hidden inside a book that Buck gave him, and reading it unravels him irreparably.
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17 May 2026