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    Chewing on things was something Shane had been doing for as long as he could remember. Gnawing on hoodie strings, erasers, the backs of pens. Bottle caps, when he was younger, until he got worried about damaging his teeth. His mouth guard during games, the reusable straw of his water bottle. Anything he could get his mouth on.

    So when Ilya pushed a thumb into his mouth the first time they hooked up, pressed back against the wall of that hotel room, Shane got whiplash with how quickly his world seemed to flip upside down. Or maybe that was from how quickly he'd dropped to his knees.

    Over the years it didn't get any better.

    Like, now. Married. Spending their two weeks at the cottage.

     

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    Shane Hollander has an oral fixation, and Ilya uses it to help Shane get out of his head.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    At eleven years old Ilya Rozanov's class is given an assignment:

    They will be randomly paired with a student at another school in Canada via email. In order to get full credit on the assignment, they must send at least five emails back and forth and gather enough information to write their project.

    After seven years, Ilya is pretty sure he's done enough for 100%

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    Shane and Ilya sending emails throughout the years. What happens when they meet?

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    19 Jun 2026

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    In Vegas, after they’d said everything right up to the edge of I love you, Shane and Ilya came up with a plan. It was long term, with many, many steps. There might be a spreadsheet somewhere that Shane won’t admit to.

    But it’s a plan, nonetheless. Over the summer of 2014, they tweak it and add things important to the both of them. There are even many, extensive, contingency plans.

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    Thanks to Shane's small lie the first time they hooked up, Shane and Ilya are together years earlier. Now, they have to figure out what to do about it.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    @HarveySmth76: 
    So, Dallas Kent's teammate just tweeted this: 

    Rozanov isn’t any better, though. Like we all know it. Dude's banged like a thousand women. Bet if even just a few of them talked, you'd all be shutting up about Kent pretty quick. 

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    Dallas Kent’s teammate makes a bigoted assumption. A very loud, very incorrect assumption. Twitter eats him alive.

    Because, yes, Rozanov has slept with a lot of women and they have a lot to say. About consent and check-ins and that accent.

    #OkIWillTalk is trending, as is #SexGodOfTwitter. Toronto Survivor's Legal Fund is finally gaining some traction. And Ilya is definitely going to punch Kent. Again.

    Told through twitter snapshots and extracts from the Ottawa Centaurs Group Chat. 

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    15 Jun 2026

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    Shane's eyes squeeze closed again. “We had reason to put rules in place. Protocol. If ever—if it got to a place where, if he was ever feeling like he might—"

    Hayden’s body understands before his mind catches up. His blood runs cold for a second, stuck on the scrunch of Shane’s face, the clench of his fist, how desperate he’d been to see Rozanov—Ilya—just now. To make sure that he was okay. Here, in person.

    Not hurt. Alive.

    “Oh,” Hayden hears himself say distantly. “Oh, fuck, Shane.”

    --

    or, Ilya needs a place to go, and Hayden's happens to be the closest. It turns out to be a good thing.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “We’ve never met, but I’ve seen you before. Not in pictures, but in his face. In his smile. In his laugh,” Shane continues in Russian, slow and careful with each word as he looks out over the water. “On his good days. On the bad ones, too.”

    Oh, Ilya realizes distantly. His grip slackens on the mug in his hands. This is not for him.
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    [or, shane asks irina for her blessing.]

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    11 Jun 2026

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    At a routine dental check up, Dr. Scott Hunter thinks the bruising in Shane Hollander’s throat is most likely some kind of eating disorder.

    Ilya would place his bets elsewhere.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    In late 2012 when Shane has a meltdown and frantically tells them to call Lily, for the first time Yuna’s ever witnessed, Shane is coaxed out of one of them instead of just suffering through until the exhaustion wins out instead—and all by some mysterious, apparently very well attuned to Shane, 'Lily'.

    She hadn’t meant to see the number before she’d pressed it and fumbled the phone up to Shane’s ear. It was simply a byproduct of the situation, something Shane had asked for her to do.

    …Memorizing it and then texting that number to thank Lily for their help was not something she’d been asked to do. But she worries so much about Shane, and Lily is a reassurance. Not a pry for details but the simple, verifiable confirmation: he’s okay.

    Lily, on the other hand, very much enjoys being able to make oddly specific 'your mother' jokes to Shane much more often now. (And maybe the whole family piece of it, too.)

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    10 Jun 2026

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    The Athletic NHL ✅ @TheAthleticNHL
    In its latest rulebook update, the NHL quietly added a ban on PDA on the ice. Is this merely coincidence or a response to Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov’s now iconic Stanley Cup kiss?

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov does not make it two weeks on Zoloft before the worst side effect hits hard and fast.

    or,

    “Barrett, I fucked up,” he says.

    “Roz?” Barrett sounds dazed.

    “I fucked up,” he repeats, and he realizes how drunk he sounds. He’s in so much trouble he almost hangs up.

    “Roz, what's going on,” Barrett says.

    Bozhe, he’s going to have to say the words.

    Now with part two, featuring buckwheat pancakes, psychiatry for millionaires, important conversations, and Troy and Ilya’s worst “your mom” joke.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.

    But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.

    (how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)

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    09 Jun 2026

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    In 2000, Russia had 31,000 cases of HIV. In 2010, there were 530,000.

    By fourteen, Ilya Rozanov is sleeping around Moscow. It's a complicated outlet, but he's good at two things: hockey and sex. At 16, he's diagnosed with HIV.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    “Game is over,” he says. “You won. I lost. I was annoying. Normal.”

    “That’s not—” Shane starts, then stops, because he actually doesn't know how to finish that thought without sounding like an idiot. His jaw works, teeth grinding together.

    That's not what I meant. That's not the point. You said I was boring and you were right and I need you to say it again so I know where I stand, so I know what you think of me, so I can stop waiting for the other shoe to drop.

    He settles for: “You were kind of an asshole.”

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Shane can’t stand his college roommate and teammate, Ilya Rozanov. Can’t stand his arrogance and his messiness and his constant sleeping around.

    But then the entire team, Shane included, welcomes their families to campus for Parents Weekend.

    And Shane also can’t stand that Ilya is alone.

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    07 Jun 2026

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    Shane kissed him, then nestled his head into the curve of his neck. Ilya tried to remember how to breathe. It felt like insects were crawling under his skin again. He didn’t want to leave, fuck, he never wanted to leave again. He wanted Shane to press his face to his skin for the rest of his life, just like this. He wanted to break open Shane’s ribcage and crawl inside it.

    (His heart did not feel big enough for everything he wanted from it.)

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    After confessing their love in the quiet, safe lamplight of Shane's Cottage, Ilya has a hard time coming to terms with the fact that he is loved. Shane notices, and doesn't let it slide.

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    Partially inspired by Chapter Thirty in the Long Game, but no knowledge of the books is required to read, and there are no spoilers. Enjoy.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t say anything. He keeps watching Shane from the doorway. When he speaks, his voice is quiet and he’s looking down at his bare feet. “You said you would stay,” he says. “That is what I remember.”

    In which Shane freaks out but doesn't leave in episode four.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    "Condoms," Shane gasps out. "We don't have condoms."

    Ilya groans, this one of displeasure. The last thing he wants to do is leave the space between Shane's ridiculously perfect thighs to go hunt down a piece of rubber. Though the image of Shane, panting and worked up, is a thing of beauty. It sounds fun, but Ilya needs it now just as bad.

    "Do we need them?" Ilya asks, mostly as a joke. He makes a move to leave, but Shane's legs tighten around him.

    Shane lets out a moan. "I'm clean."

    Ilya gets to fuck Shane raw. He doesn't last long.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    5 times Shane Hollander privately walks Ilya Rozanov like and dog, and 1 time he does it publicly.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    “Orange,” Ilya says in a flat voice. 

    “Shut up,” Shane says, blushing and starting to shove it back in the drawer.

    In which Ilya finally meets Shane's dildo.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    He goes to the fridge to look for the bell peppers, and while he’s in there, he says, “It was a good first kiss. As far as I could tell. I hadn’t really kissed anyone before.” He takes an orange bell pepper from the bag his mom brought over and brings it over to the counter. “Not anyone I really wanted to kiss anyway.” He cuts the top and bottom off the pepper and then works on cutting out the seeds. “Ilya’s a good kisser,” he adds. And he can’t believe he’s just said that out loud to his mom.

    Shane and Ilya's dinner with Shane's parents at his house following the end of episode six.

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    03 Jun 2026

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