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    Ilya and Shane get outed via instagram live… as friends. The world reacts as their friendship becomes the most talked about thing in the hockey world.

    Being openly friends affords them more freedoms to be together, but all the more easy to lose it all.

    AKA

    Shane has a touch of Hudson Williams to him

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    29 Jun 2026

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    After a viral photo outs Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov while they're still busy pretending their years-long situationship is mostly just sex, the fallout gets complicated fast. The world reacts badly. Their teams react worse. Ilya's future in North America starts to look alarmingly fragile, and Shane, who has never met a disaster he didn't try to control into submission, throws himself into fixing what can still be fixed.

    Ilya has spent his whole life being wanted for the wrong reasons and discarded for the right ones. Shane has spent his whole life believing that if he is careful enough, good enough, controlled enough, he can keep disaster from reaching the people he loves.

    A practical solution emerges, then a house, then rings.

    Somehow, by the time they say their vows, both of them are certain they are the only one who means them.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    “Eyes on me.” There is a sharp satisfaction as those eyes lift immediately to meet his again. “I need your name.”

    The man’s lashes flutter. “Shane, sir.”

    Ilya nods and lets his hand move through Shane’s hair. It is soft, and Shane leans into the touch, eyes closing briefly as if the contact alone is enough to ground him. The response is so natural that it gives Ilya pause.

    “Tell me about your limits.” Ilya doubts he is going to be close to any limits tonight, as Shane looks like he already had a pretty rough night. But he still needs to ask, good hygiene. 

    A small smile appears on Shane’s face, he looks at Ilya deeply, eyes not wandering away as he speaks, “There are no limit, sir.” He looks at the disbelief appearing on Ilya’s face and offers, “I’m the house slave.”

     

    Or, Ilya didn’t come for attachment, but Shane, bruised, obedient, and unraveling, becomes the one thing he can’t leave broken.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    "If you need a cat, and you deserve a cat, the universe will make sure that a cat finds you. That's the Cat Distribution System at work," the woman explains.

    "But I don't need a cat," Shane says, baffled.

    "Are you sure?" the bearded guy says, looking down at the box, where Shane is still stroking the kitten's head.

    "Yes?" Shane says, frowning as the kitten rubs its small, bewhiskered cheek against his finger.


    Shane finds a stray kitten; Ilya not so slowly loses his mind.

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    3/4
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    25 Jun 2026

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    “Shane, we should talk. Outside."

    Shane’s stomach dropped, anxiety filling back in him as he shook his head. “What is it Hayden?” He asked, his eyes narrowing and dropping to JJ’s phone, the glint of a news site cast across it upside down from where he stood. He moved quickly, a hand reaching up to grab JJ’s phone as he took in the headline.

    Ottawa Centaur’s plane crash in Tampa: More to follow soon.

    His heart dropped into his stomach as he reread the words over and over, wishing for them to change. He hoped that maybe, maybe, if he reread the words enough, some great power in the universe would will them to change. He wasn’t a religious man, but God, would he pray for this. His hand, which still held the phone in a white-knuckle grip, was now slightly trembling, a visible testament to the pent up agonizing worry ruminating within him.

    or: What if Shane didn't immediately know if Ilya was okay? What if the plane really did crash?

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    25 Jun 2026

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    Shane is in a post-game interview when his world stops.

    He’s just answered a question about Montreal’s offensive strategy going into the game. Clean passes, avoid penalties, draw defenders wide. It had worked and the Voyagers had beat Colorado soundly, 4-1. Shane had scored two of the goals and assisted on a third.

    Usually, Shane would be eager to boast about the win to Ilya. But ever since their fight- since Ilya told Shane to leave- winning feels hollow. Losing feels better, somehow. As if Shane deserves to lose after being so selfish. Ilya gave up everything for him- his home, his team, and to some extent- his happiness. Hockey. Ilya gave up hockey- good hockey- for Shane.

    A ripple goes through the room of reporters. Shane swears he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘crash’. But no one is paying attention to him anymore.

    “What’s going on?” he asks into the microphone, feeling strange at the role reversal. Usually, he’s the one being asked questions.

    No one answers. And this time he knows that he hears the word ‘Ottawa’ and ‘Centaurs’.

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    Shane rushes to Ilya after the almost plane crash. Their secret is no longer a secret.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    10

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    When practice is done and he’s showered, he checks his phone.
    The 16 messages from Lily are expected with Ilya traveling to Detroit this week. Ilya has a strong but unsupported hatred of Detroit. The ‘vibes are bad Shane’ was the last claim Shane had heard and he is prepared to read even less substantiated claims.
    He’s unprepared to see a group chat he’s been added to.
    Shane is only a part of a few group chats. One that Rose put together with a bunch of her not out queer friends that he keeps muted but likes to scroll through every once in a while (they have good memes). The group chat with the whole team he only keeps up with for Captain Reasons but keeps it muted too. The one with both of his parents that his mom uses more often than her single thread with him cause ‘Your Dad deserves to be in the loop too’. And finally the one with Jackie and Hayden which is mostly him and Jackie bullying Hayden and Hayden being increasingly frustrated with their antics.
    This is not even close to those
    OTTAWA WAGS

    or Shane gets added to the Ottawa WAGs group chat and maybe learns something about himself along the way
    Previously: Shane Hollander and the Magic of Friendship

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    21 Jun 2026

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    9

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    Wyatt’s gaze shot up and it was like one of those moments in a fucking movie or something.

    Because the person bursting through the door like an absolute tornado at two in the morning was Shane Hollander. The man looked sweaty. And breathless. And panicked. No, haunted. His eyes were wide and tortured, chest heaving like he’d run here from Canada.

    What was he doing here in Tampa and not in Canada?

    Oh. OH. Oh shit.

    OR

    **Spoilers for Book 6: The Long Game - Canon-Divergence**

    What if when the Centaurs plane trouble occurred, Shane immediately jumped on a flight to Tampa?

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    Chapters:
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    20 Jun 2026

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    27

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    "There in the photo was a young man in a hammock with a serene lake behind him, bathed in an orange sunset. A book was open in his lap and he was smiling up at the camera, easy and relaxed. Ilya didn’t think he’d ever seen anyone look so effortlessly gorgeous in a pair of ratty sweatpants and a bleach-stained t-shirt. He also didn’t think he’d ever find a personal family photo of Shane Hollander, the up-and-coming hockey sensation from Canada who had gone missing in November of 2008, in a thrift shop in Boston."

    Ilya and Shane never met at world juniors because Shane vanished without a trace. Against all logic, he appears almost two years later in Ilya's dreams. Those dreams begin to blur the line between fiction and reality, becoming muddy and impossible to navigate. As Ilya falls in love with a dead man, he finds that he cares less and less about those lines. When the opportunity to solve the mystery and bring closure to Shane's parents presents itself, Ilya must face whatever reality may truly be, even if that means losing the love of his life for good.

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    Chapters:
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    18 Jun 2026

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    Astral Plane

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    Shane Hollander is a university student trying his best. He is managing three jobs, two majors, and one sexuality crisis that threatens to upend his hockey career before it even starts. When his best friend, Rose, begs him to come with her to an exclusive BDSM club to let loose and experiment, Shane cannot believe it when he caves to her demands and agrees. Oh and it just so happens that unbeknownst to Shane the club is owned by a Russian mob boss. But really, what could go wrong?

    ***

    Or the one where organized crime boss Ilya meets hockey-playing uni student Shane and big feelings and kinky shenanigans unfold

    Updates 2-3x per week <3

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    35/?
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    18 Jun 2026

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    When Shane reluctantly agreed to kick off his MLH career with a photoshoot, he imagined, somewhat vaguely, a hockey uniform and some dramatic lighting on the rink. Shoot a few pucks. Pose intensely. That kind of thing.

    The marketing agency, apparently, had other ideas.

    A plane flight gone wrong, a desperate crash landing, and suddenly hockey’s two brightest young stars find themselves stranded in the heart of the Canadian wilderness. With no way home and no rescue coming, they only have one hope for survival -- each other.

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    Chapters:
    28/28
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    18 Jun 2026

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    Rookies lost in wilderness

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Teen camp besties

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    Shane returns home from Canada's loss to Russia in Saskatchewan at the International Prospect Cup. He finds out his soon-to-be ex-girlfriend is pregnant, and the baby is his. But he has no memory of ever being intimate with her. It doesn’t help that before he even left, he had caught her cheating on him with his best friend. Shane decides that if the child is his, he will step up and be a dad, but he wants nothing to do with his ex-girlfriend after what she did to him.

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    32/40
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    16 Jun 2026

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    Fluff Daddy 31

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    14 Jun 2026

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    College au

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this entire series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here:

    https://www.instagram.com/p/DWhgjfuFsVr/?igsh=MTlmbDBvbDBmMG55bQ==

    (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Outed

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    Hollander’s eyes slid past him, stopped, came back and held, his eyes widening. Ilya smiled, a mocking curve of his mouth, and raised his cup in acknowledgment. Number one, he mouthed, and while he couldn’t be certain in the dim light of the bar, he thought he saw Hollander flush.

    Then his chin lifted, challenging, and Ilya felt something hook behind his ribs, a sharp tug, like a fish on a line.

     

    Or: Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander make a deal - whichever of them debuts as a #1 NYT bestseller owes the other a blowjob

    Series
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    Chapters:
    16/16
    Comments:
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    12 Jun 2026

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    Authors/P&P

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    Shane Hollander takes a new teaching job that comes with a gig as the assistant coach of the school's hockey team. Little does he know that the team's head coach, Ilya Rozanov (also the school's Russian teacher), has no need for any help.

    Language:
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    Words:
    89,169
    Chapters:
    35/35
    Comments:
    355
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    12 Jun 2026

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    Teachers

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    Anyway, Shane didn't remember exactly what was in the folder ... But he knew they were all good shots of him.

    He hastily clicked open the folder, his eyes barely glancing through the dozen or so shots there, vaguely registering a picture with a sunset background from his condo balcony, something of him laughing, a picture of him working at his laptop with his glasses on...

    The director called him again, and he shook his head, the photos blurring. Whatever. It would have to do.

    He clicked "select all," then the messages icon, then Rozanov's name. Hit send.

    ----

    Or: When never-hooked-up Shane and Ilya have to collaborate on a league charity project, Shane accidentally sends Ilya a nude.

    Language:
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    47,304
    Chapters:
    11/11
    Comments:
    6,114
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    19,772
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    6,179
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    293,291

    10 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been drafted by Boston, the number one pick overall, but his father doesn't want him moving to America and so takes steps to block his visa. He's going to have to go back to Russia and stay there forever and that, thinks Shane Hollander, is wrong.

    It's so wrong that Shane can't stop himself from doing something about it. Even though that something is the most reckless, the only reckless thing he's ever done in his life. He marries Rozanov in secret, to keep him out of Russia and put him on a path to Canadian citizenship.

    Shane's got a five-year plan to get him there and when you have a plan nothing can go wrong. Right? Right. When you have a solid plan and a marriage that's on paper only there's no risk of feelings getting involved. Not on Rozanov's part and certainly not on Shane's.

    Right???

    (or, the story of how Shane Hollander fell in love with his own husband)

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    Language:
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    Words:
    150,160
    Chapters:
    21/21
    Comments:
    6,688
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    22,298
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    9,140
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    757,978

    09 Jun 2026

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    Married the whole time

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    After being a witness to an horrible accident on the ice, Shane Hollander, riddled with PTSD, surprisingly retires from playing hockey for the NHL in 2015. The reasons for his Retirement are kept confidential and vague, the official statement only mentions an career ending injury.
    He needs years to even manage to set foot into an ice rink again but eventually manages to become an assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs, to reconnect with his beloved sport in some way.

    Ilya Rozanov had dealt with his fathers death and the final fallout with his brother alone. He feels lost and lonely in Boston and never wants to return to Russia. To secure permanent residency in Canada, he approaches a trade to Ottawa, shocking the entire hockey community.
    He won’t admit it to anyone but after Shane Hollander disappeared from the NHL and his life almost 3 years ago, a part of him disappeared too. The Centaurs are currently still the worst team in the devision but something about playing in the hometown of Shane Hollander draws him there.

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    45,189
    Chapters:
    8/?
    Comments:
    38
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    145
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    4,063

    09 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Coach Shane had PTSD 8

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