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    “Oh shit,” he wailed, rolling his head back, the heels of his hands pressed to his temples. “Shit. This is it, Richard.”

    “Shut up.”

    “It’s over. We’ve had it. We’re going to jail.”

    “Shut up.” I said again. His panic, oddly, had sobered me. “We’ve just got to figure out what to do.”

    “Look,” said Francis. “Let’s just go. If we leave now we can be in Montreal by dark. Nobody will ever find us.”

    “You’re not making any sense.”

    “We’ll stay in Montreal a couple of days. Sell the car. Then take the bus to, I don’t know, Saskatchewan or something. We’ll go to the weirdest place we can find.”

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    When I said I slept with him, I didn't mean it that way.

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    Half-way through his cross-country trek to Vermont the summer before college, Richard encounters a wealthy woman twice his age at an airport, somehow smooth-talks his way into her home, and prepares to make the easiest money he's ever made.

    Then her son shows up to Boston in her stead, and his summer goes to shit.

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    31 May 2026

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    L’Automne s’assombrit ainsi qu’une Bachante
    Au sortir des festins empourprés. Elle chante
    La moite lassitude et l’oubli des baisers.

    (Richard and Francis, post-canon. Nothing goes according to plan.)

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    31 May 2026

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    I was Pentheus, the god before me, insisting that I worship him, that I take on woman’s equipment. Aἰδώς μ᾽ ἔχει, Pentheus had said, shame checks me. Αἰδώς, an important word to the Greeks. Shame does not encompass it. Αἰδώς is everything from reverence, self-respect, a sense of honor, that which causes scandal, moderation, self-control.

    And what could be more terrifying and beautiful, Julian had asked, to souls like the Greeks or our own, than to lose control completely? And what had I ever wanted, if not what was beautiful?

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    Or, my version of what might have happened if nobody had interrupted Francis and Richard that night...

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    30 May 2026

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