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russianstallion messages hollabackgirl on Grindr for some fun, but then they keep showing up at the same places, conveniently right when Boston and Montreal have a game against each other.
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Shane and Ilya, unbeknownst to each other, are sexting on Grindr while still being rivals on the ice.*SMAU that was previously uploaded to twitter is now on ao3 for ease of reading*
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29 May 2026
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Born to be an astronaut by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 May 2026
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Ilya can’t be realizing, at nearly thirty-five years old, that he isn’t as happy with who he is as he thought he was.
Because then, what? What is he supposed to do with that realization, except grieve? Should he mourn a life he might have had if his childhood hadn't been the way it was?
He has Shane now, and Shane loves him just the way he is, just as he's always known Ilya. This life led him to Shane, and being able to build something with him is the best thing that's ever happened to Ilya. He can’t, ever, fuck this up. He will always try fold himself into smaller pieces to preserve this.
But I don’t want to have to do that, his heart shouts at him. I don't know if I can do that anymore.
Or: Ilya Rozanov fights against and then accepts the fact that there's no such thing as being too late to learn more about yourself, and still be loved.
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- Part 4 of Hollanov collection
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21 May 2026
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“If it happened, you can complain,” Ilya reasons, “and I will listen. Like you did for me on the phone. And we can make list. And it will not kill you.”
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11 May 2026
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you all the way down by inkingbrushes for chaentics
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Feb 2026
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“Is my favourite thing.” Ilya murmurs.
The rain has started to slow down a little. Barely any lightning strikes anymore. Soon, the sky will clear.
“What is?” Shane asks.
Ilya brings their joined hands up to his face and presses a small, tired smile to the back of Shane’s hand. “You and me.”
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(or: they’re best friends who go on a roadtrip together.)
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26 Apr 2026
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“I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.
“There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”
“I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.
“No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”
// shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.
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05 Apr 2026