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    Shane Hollander is on vacation.

    This is, objectively, a great idea. There is sun. There is a private villa. There is Luca, who fits into Shane’s life with the ease of something long-established. Brotherly, familiar, and currently eyeing the entire resort like it’s a personal challenge.

    There is also Ilya Rozanov.

    This was not mentioned. This was not in the plan.

    It’s fine. They’re fine. They’ve always been fine. Years later, different lives, perfectly capable of sharing a beach, a drink, and conversation that slips a little too easily into something familiar.

    Fine enough not to think about it.

    Around them, things stay uncomplicated. Luca is already making decisions Shane will have to deal with later. Marley is encouraging him. Svetlana is watching like she already knows how this ends.

    And Shane, who is absolutely, completely fine, starts to realize something mildly inconvenient:

    nothing else ever really measured up.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    “We could’ve had everything,” Shane admitted softly.

    The confession hurt more than he expected.

    “A real relationship. A family. A future.” His eyes drifted toward the planes outside again before he exhaled slowly. “But dreams eventually end.” A small, tired smile pulled at his mouth. “And this is me waking up.”

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    19 Jun 2026

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    Twelve years after his mother’s death, Ilya finds some of her in somebody else.

     
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    Desperate to delay his return to Moscow, Ilya finds himself spending an off-season coaching at the Hollanders’ hockey summer camp. There, he spends three weeks with Shane Hollander, twenty four overactive children, his dissipating sense of self, and his parents’ upbringing fighting for control over him.

    He’s doing alright.

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    19 Jun 2026

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    “He wants doll brushes because he’s seen the girls at the park brushing their plushies with them. Their dolls too, obviously. But he wants to brush that pelt you brought him-”

    David sets his crossword book down, giving Yuna his full attention.

    “What?”

    “The pelt of fur? Looks like a wolf, or maybe one of those big cats?” Yuna says, waving her hand dismissively. “Either way, I don’t think doll brushes are the right choice. We can look into getting him a set of actual grooming tools, he needs to learn that the right tools for the right job are an important-”

    “Yuna. Sweetheart.” David interrupts. “I did not buy our son a piece of dead animal as a souvenir from Russia.”

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    Ilya loses something important at the airport; years later, Shane gives it back to him.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Eight years after their divorce, Ilya and Shane have become experts at avoiding each other. They only speak when absolutely necessary, never hold each other's gaze for too long, barely make eye contact, and never talk about what happened. But ignoring one another becomes nearly impossible when they're still raising two children.
    One day, Ilya gets into what seems to be a serious argument with their oldest daughter, and Shane is forced to step in. Suddenly, everything they've spent years avoiding begins to surface.

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    Shane was about to break an unspoken rule.
    Because every time he and Ilya got together to talk, they ended up fucking.

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    08 Jun 2026