Comment on I was little, I was weak and perfectly naive and I grew up too quick

  1. astrocetus Tue 09 Mar 2021 12:03AM UTC

    the r slur?

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    1. anon (Guest) Tue 23 Mar 2021 05:06AM UTC

      yeah lol what the fuck??? i was like "oh this fic seems interesting" and then the author was like "I Will Disrespect Autistic People"
      im glad im not the only one who was upset

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      1. astrocetus Tue 23 Mar 2021 10:37AM UTC

        oh yeah i clicked off right away

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        1. Cxmill Thu 25 Mar 2021 10:04AM UTC

          Hi!

          I’ve put a full explanation in the notes for my use of using the R slur. I would like to say that I did not mean disrespect to the autistic community or any community linked to the R slur.

          I am in no way trying to defend the use of a slur, they are not acceptable and should not be used.

          When I wrote the slur I used it with the intention of portraying Kaeya’s anger, I was not thinking of the offence I would bring with the use of the slur as sadly I was more focused on thinking of an ending rather than the implications the words I write bring. For that I apologise.

          I wanted to portray Kaeya’s anger, when one gets angry sometimes they say things they wouldn’t say usually because they are angry and so when I write anger I try and follow the same premises.

          I apologise once again for offence I have brought you as readers and any other readers in the future.

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          1. astrocetus Thu 25 Mar 2021 11:40AM UTC

            I can’t accept this apology. However, it would be better if you edited the slur out. Your reason for putting it in is very problematic and is disrespectful to the autistic community even if you didn’t intend it that way.

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            1. anon (Guest) Wed 31 Mar 2021 08:37PM UTC

              not the author using the "heated gamer moment" as an excuse..........

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          3. anon (Guest) Wed 31 Mar 2021 08:38PM UTC

            just edit it out bro, slurs don't become acceptable just because someone's angry
            apologizing and not taking any steps to fix it or improve, is not actually apologizing
            "that's a dumbass decision" work work better without disrespecting people with autism

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            1. astrocetus Thu 01 Apr 2021 12:28AM UTC

              THIS^^

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            2. Cxmill Fri 02 Apr 2021 11:26PM UTC

              I understand and have read your full comment. I understand the use of a slur is disrespectful and of course I’m not trying to excuse the use of slurs they should not be said and should not be used as they are offensive.

              When writing I took into consideration Kaeya’s anger as well as historical context as it’s not set in 2021. Although we don’t have a specific date for the game we do still have the fact that many of the women in Mondstadt wear corsets and with the Kamera only just having come out I’d say that if you want a historical date I’d say late 1800s.

              I’m classified as having a mental disability so words like “retard” “spaz” “slow” have been used on me before. I don’t particularly see any problem with the words being used as long as they’re not being used to moc someone with a mental disability or purposely insult someone with a mental disability. I’m not trying to use this as an excuse cause I know they’re wrong but bc I’m dumb and can’t wrap my head around it cause social cues and the whole “be careful not to insult someone” when you never meant it as an insult and shit don’t make any sense to me. If I’m being honest I don’t get it cause Diluc isn’t (well at least in this fanfic) mentally disabled and Kaeya isn’t using the word in a sense of insult to the mentally disabled community so ig it’s not making sense to me? I’m not trying to be ignorant but I just don’t understand how can be taken with so much offense as it has been when not used in an Inherently purposely rude way? No that probably makes people angrier huh? I suppose my lack of understanding is what makes me hesitant to change the word because from my point of view; the story is set in a historic time period where a. Mental illnesses and disabilities were poorly understood. B. It’s a fanfic C. Kaeya was angry D. I didn’t write it with the purpose of insulting a character with a mental disability bc the r slur is used on a lot more classes of disability than just autism Ugh I’m probably making a bigger deal of this than it has to be but I really don’t get it? If you could explain it to me with more than just “it’s a slur! You’re disrespecting the autistic community!” Would be really helpful. God I probably sound so dodgy. I promise I don’t and never had intended to offend any community I just really didnt think about it too hard as it didn’t really flag up as anything in my mind?? If that makes sense?? Kind Regards, A dumbarse author

              Last Edited Fri 02 Apr 2021 11:35PM UTC

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    3. teatime_for_u Fri 17 Oct 2025 11:15AM UTC

      Ahah I know this is literally four years ago but this is funny

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      1. astrocetus Fri 17 Oct 2025 01:26PM UTC

        funny how?

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        1. Cxmill Wed 13 May 2026 01:27AM UTC

          Suck my ballz this was five years ago you’re trying too hard g

          Last Edited Wed 13 May 2026 01:31AM UTC

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