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Loneliness,
To not be mistaken with being alone.
Because it's when you're surrounded with people that you feel the loneliest.
It takes root deep in your chest, slowly spreading until you suffocate.
It's a searing pain that gradually take your strength away.
There's a beauty within this, because you can choose to be alone but not to be lonely.
Because sometimes we prefer to be alone, left with our own thoughts. Sheltered from the human being. The only one bringing us pain and deceiving but also hope and trust.
But in the end,
We all crave this connection, this feeling of another human being bound to us.
The peace found by the mere presence of this soul.
And when you find this soul, it's like you've only been seeing the world in shades of grey but now you see the world in color.
You've only been existing all this time, but not really living.
But when all is left is the ashes, the memories, the only thing that you can feel is the lingering sensation that a piece of you has been ripped off.
A scar that will never heal.
For Lena this piece was ripped of the moment her maniacal brother took HER to the phantom zone.
Or maybe it was when Lex told her the truth about HER.
When she had purposely isolated herself, blinded by her own pain, her own rage.
The thought of being betrayed again by the one she loves was too much to bear.
When solitude was the only feasible option, the one with the least risk of being hurt again.
But it was too late, the damage had already been done. She had already seen the world in color. She'd seen the bluest eyes, bluer than the sky. How they would sparkled when she'd look at her family. Her perfect smile that could brigthen the whole earth.
But mostly, how she would look at Lena with pure love and devotion.
The only thing that could melt her frozen heart, hardened by years of misery and loneliness.
But the difference was that she had known the warmth of the sun only to be deprived of it.
She would do anything to take her sun back even if it means losing herself, or what's left.
Kara was her missing piece.