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  1. Public Bookmark 12

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    Matthew arrived in Korea untouched by Hanbin’s world, soft in ways that still belonged entirely to himself.

    Now even the language in his mouth carries traces of Hanbin’s hands all over it.

    Hanbin still remembers the first time Matthew called him our Hanbin hyung instead of just Hanbin hyung.

    Our.

    Such a small word.

    It wrecks him for weeks.

    Matthew learns Korean through Hanbin so thoroughly that eventually the language itself begins to feel shared between them. Matthew carries traces of Hanbin in the way he speaks now. In the cadence. In the phrasing. In the softened edges of his accent whenever he gets tired enough to stop thinking before talking and it's the most devastating thing Hanbin has ever experienced in his life.

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    21 May 2026

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    Hanbin psychoanalyzes his cuteness aggression for Matthew, and the two of them are equally intense about each other. The world is balanced.

  2. Rec *

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    After Lan Wangji takes a blast of illusionary talismans for him during the Sunshot Campaign, Jiang Cheng finds himself forced to take care of the invincible Hanguang-Jun for once. But when comfort is not the only burden they share, unpleasant rumours start to spread. As Jiang Cheng struggles to save his face as a young leader, Lan Wangji seems surprisingly willing to help – no matter the cost.
    Only Wei Wuxian seems strangely fazed by their newly formed bond, and dabbling in demonic cultivation might cloud more than his senses...

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    03 May 2026

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    This is the Jiang Cheng/Lan Wanji epic that should define a literary genre. The "unreliable narrator" trope should have this entire story embedded in the definition. When your protagonist believes a lie, and his beloved believes an opposite lie, what happens? What happens when canon has planted plenty of seeds to rot and bloom into a different take on soulmateship? The soul of Zidian threads through this story like embroidery that glows under moonlight. The sentimentality of Lan Wangji, the self hatred and gradual self acceptance of Jiang Cheng, the enduring support that each of them demonstrates for each other... Fighting brothers, fighting the Divine Heavens themselves, fighting every attempt to tear them apart. The beauty of rebuilding and rebuilding again and again. The painful canon event that is Wei Wuxian lost to darkness, and how this version lashes out at Jiang Cheng specifically. The tragedy of a promise broken. The peace of trusting your brilliant, imperfect partner to always have your back, and having theirs -- always that security. Hours and hours, returning to campfires in the woods, to small broken beds, to fans painted with ugly teapots... The planning it took to maintain continuity through half a million words is an absolute feat of legends. I feel bereft and fulfilled and depressed and relieved to have experienced this masterpiece. Please preserve this work, never delete. I must reread and relive this Jiang Cheng, who is so broken and strong, and Lan Wangi who is so steadfast and dedicated, to appreciate again the artistry of a master storyteller.

  3. Public Bookmark *

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    On their way to retake Lotus Pier, Jiang Cheng finds himself getting unexpectantly close to Lan Wangji. Realising his greatest asset against the Wens is just as human as he is, however, leaves him far more than only intrigued. But is sharing a little comfort worth the risk of losing Lan Wangji’s sword at his side?

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    19 Apr 2026

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    War and light and implicit feelings. (come back for the art!)

    ...
    This writing is so devastating. JC's thought process throughout it all, and all of his assumptions needing to pivot when LWJ demonstrates vulnerability in turn.. Culminating in the sunset by the pier, which happens right before everything else from canon takes place... I would love to write a fic inspired by this one in which all of this fic's events are canon. The trust built between JC and LWJ here is just beautiful, and the subtext of all the dialogue is masterfully done. Would love to see how their relationship established here would withstand the WWX-related shitshow.

  4. Public Bookmark 95

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    Alphas Lan Wangji and Jiang Cheng search for the missing Wei Wuxian.

    Jiang Cheng starts to change. In ways, they both do.

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    10 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark *

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    five times lan zhan and jiang cheng fucked and one time they slept together

    (and the pain and the love and the child that was made and created in-between)

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    10 Apr 2026

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    Co-parenting ZhanCheng is my hard drug.