pilotflyingj
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as much sweetness as i can decently manage by pilotflyingj for marichat_04
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
09 Feb 2026
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If the walls of their apartment could talk, they’d speak of quiet nights in, Steve dozing in Bucky’s lap while Bucky read after dinner. They’d remember the muffled sounds of Steve’s Ma’s old record player in the background, playing Armstrong and Sinatra. They’d tell how Bucky would carry him to bed and how Steve clung to him in his sleep. If the walls could talk, they’d speak of love.
So, so much love.
Series
- Part 2 of because you have lived
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wear your heart on my sleeve by pilotflyingj
Fandoms: Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
07 May 2025
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When he sees her, his breath catches and tears immediately spring to his eyes. She’s so beautiful. He’s missed her so much.
“Ma?” he says, voice catching on the single syllable.
She turns to fully face him, and her expression melts into a smile, her eyes soft and loving in that way they only ever were for him.
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will you forgive my soul (when you’re too wise to trust me and too old to care) by pilotflyingj for xoxoxes, marichat_04
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
02 May 2023
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Faith is a fickle thing, but Steve finds himself comforted by the idea that maybe the afterlife is real, Heaven or something close to it, and maybe when he dies — actually and fully dies, that is — he’ll get to see his Ma again. He’ll get to see her smile for longer than he can make the image linger in his brain, he’ll get to greet her with a kiss on the cheek and get one from her, too.
And the flowers. He’ll get to give her those flowers.
Series
- Part 1 of because you have lived
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the best and worst day of june was the one that i met you by pilotflyingj, xoxoxes
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
28 Oct 2022
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It’s not so much the words Rafael says that piss Alex off. It’s his tone, it’s the way he speaks to Alex like he’s still as naive as he was then, like he’s still that bright-eyed teenager that could be convinced to do or believe almost anything so long as it would help him be the man he wanted to be — a man like Rafael Luna.
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god knows where i would be if you hadn't found me sitting all alone in the dark by pilotflyingj
Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
26 Jun 2022
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Then Sam says his name, a gentle “Buck?” and it’s hushed, kind, and it blows out the flame in Bucky’s spine, calming him, because he is safe, and he’s loved, but there’s still hurt curling in his gut when he lets himself fall into Sam’s arms – because while he’s incredibly grateful for Sam, for one beautiful moment he thought Steve was there.
Recent series
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because you have lived by pilotflyingj
Fandom Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
09 Feb 2026
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“To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson
(Or: Steve, Bucky, and their journeys through grief for each other, and for everything they thought they knew.)
Slow updates because this series is like, terrifyingly personal and difficult to write, but it’ll be finished eventually!
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It's been a long time since Grace has gone into subspace, and it's starting to show its strain. Rocky is worried, so for his sake, Grace decides to try a guided meditation.
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The Transformation by cordeliadelayne for KristenMaraMusingsOnBuckyBarnes
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe
29 Dec 2018
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Steve needs one final push to admit his feelings to Bucky.
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“The serum Hydra gave me was not like yours.” Bucky tried to keep his voice even, but he could not hide the underlying tremor. “It did not only enhance what the person already had; it added more to them.”
Steve’s eyes darted back up to his head. The rectangular ears poking out of Bucky’s hair flattened themselves against his skull like he was trying his best to hide them. Something in Steve’s chest clenched so tightly when Bucky averted his eyes as well.Or: Using the Winter Soldier strength gives Bucky some new feline characteristics. Steve is smitten.
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Steve spends the next couple of hours killing time, watching TV with Sam and Nat. He wants to run. He wants to pace. He want to slip his skin and lay out on the porch of the guest cabin so Bucky knows he’s safe. He can’t do any of those things, so he watches a documentary about caribou migration and chews the shit out of the side of his thumb instead. Every time his leg starts to jiggle, Nat stops it with a fingertip.
Their presence helps, well, at least it stops him from doing something batshit.
Steve’s checking the time again when the sound of panicked yelling has him up and out the door in the blink of an eye, the door flies open at the same time Steve pulls at it, Bucky wide eyed and terrified and pushing the door shut- “Steve there’s a fuckin’ wolf out there!”
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We're pretending, right? by TheOnlyCeeCeeJ
Fandoms: Marvel, Winter Soldier (Comics), Hawkeye (Comics), Black Widow (Comics)
29 Dec 2021
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Clint needs a date to a wedding, so he asks his friend to help him out. Due to some... miscommunications, their duo becomes a trio and they have to make it through the wedding together.
It's all pretend, anyways. What could possibly happen?!
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- Part 8 of Poly Armory Bingo Fics