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    Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as an alternate for freestyle swim events.

    He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov.

    May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov has been saying I love you into the void his whole life.

    To his mother’s cold hands at twelve, making promises she can’t hear. To his teammates through fist bumps in tunnel rituals that cost nothing because they ask for nothing. To a sleeping man, in Russian, because his native language is the only container safe enough for what he actually feels. To a country he is slowly losing the ability to love back.

    He keeps saying it. No one says it back.

    Until they do.

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    25 Jun 2026

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    It does mean missing out on things like barbeques and team dinners sometimes, but it’s not as if he would have been able to participate anyway. At this point in his life, risking someone not taking his allergies seriously would mean potentially missing games, which makes it unacceptable. Jackie always makes sure he has a dish or two that’s safe when he’s over at their house, but if he was going to be the one guy sitting and drinking ginger ale instead of taking part in sharing nachos or Korean barbeque or burgers or any other delicious thing he goes in knowing he can’t have anyway, there’s no point in making a fuss about it. He eats at home, has a drink with everyone else, and he calls it a day. Easy. Safe. Foolproof.

    But also the reason it doesn’t occur to him that he hasn’t actually told Ilya about any of his allergies until it becomes immediately relevant five days into being at his cottage together.

    (how ilya learns about shane's food allergies) (and how shane learns what it's like to have someone who always saves him a seat at the table) (and who also makes sure there's food he can eat on the table to start with)

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    24 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 91

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    𝘚𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥: ‘𝘭𝘢𝘻𝘺’. 𝘐𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘢 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘥 𝘐𝘭𝘺𝘢 𝘰𝘧𝘵𝘦𝘯 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧-𝘥𝘦𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘭𝘺 𝘵𝘰𝘸𝘢𝘳𝘥𝘴 𝘩𝘪𝘮𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧, 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘢𝘥 𝘰𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘧𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘱𝘰𝘯𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘢𝘨𝘢𝘪𝘯𝘴𝘵 𝘩𝘪𝘮. 𝘏𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘢𝘣𝘰𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘰𝘸 𝘶𝘯𝘧𝘢𝘪𝘳 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘐𝘭𝘺𝘢 𝘵𝘰 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘭𝘪𝘬𝘦 𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘭𝘢𝘻𝘺, 𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘧 𝘪𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴𝘯’𝘵 𝘯𝘦𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘢𝘳𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘧𝘢𝘶𝘭𝘵 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘭𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘧 𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 ‘𝘯𝘰𝘯-𝘱𝘳𝘦𝘧𝘦𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘥’ 𝘵𝘢𝘴𝘬𝘴.

    𝘞𝘢𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘚𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘦 𝘤𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥 𝘥𝘰 𝘵𝘰 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱?

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    When Shane realizes that Ilya might have ADHD, he comes up with a plan to help Ilya feel motivated to do certain non-preferred tasks, and deal with his executive dysfunction. What ensues is very silly: but ultimately, it's a grand declaration of love.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    20 Jun 2026

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    For one, singular, blissful moment, nothing is wrong when Ilya wakes up.

    And then the bubble pops.

    With something less like a pinprick and more like a gunshot.

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    After Ilya is outed he has to deal with being the only openly queer player in the league, being Russian, and being in love with Hollander even after he ran away all at once. It sucks. He does it anyway.

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    18 Jun 2026

  7. Public Bookmark 35

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    Ilya struggles with how to handle the grief of his mother, in the years after he moves to Ottawa and comes to terms with his inability to visit his mother's grave in Russia. Yuna Hollander steps in with idea to combine their cultural practices in order to give Ilya a healthier way to mourn.

    𝘖𝘳, 𝘢 𝘧𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘧𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘺 𝘧𝘪𝘤 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘋𝘢𝘷𝘪𝘥 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘠𝘶𝘯𝘢 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱 𝘐𝘭𝘺𝘢 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘱𝘳𝘰𝘤𝘦𝘴𝘴𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘧

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    17 Jun 2026

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    13 Jun 2026

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    On a Thursday, a video of Canadian star hockey player Shane Hollander goes viral on the internet. The video was taken on the previous Sunday, and it’s not what anybody expects. It’s not a sex tape, or a drunken fight in a bar, or any of the other videos that have been captured of others in the league, but instead, it seems to be a sneakily filmed video of Hollander confronting his former teammates.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    They’re seventeen and they’re forty-five and they’re every age in between, and Ilya isn’t sure if he believes in fate – not quite – but there isn’t a single moment from the past three decades that hasn’t felt like it’s been ushering him quietly towards some form of destiny.

    There are other ways to die, beyond the physical; slowly and agonizingly, locking the truth away until it’s indistinguishable from the lies. And there are other ways to live; slowly and carefully and secretly, and then out loud, all at once.

    Or: love between the lines, glimpses of the moments spent in secret before the arrival of the abstract ‘some day’. Five times Shane and Ilya hid themselves from the world, and one time they didn’t have to.

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Hayden could not imagine someone losing that and their mother in the same day. It would age you. It would change you. Perhaps by the time Ilya had been thirteen, and fourteen, perhaps he had already been grown.

    Hayden Pike grit his teeth because he knew he had been wrong. Ilya Rozanov had never just been an obnoxious hockey player with a colossal ego and nice smile - nice enough to entrap Shane Hollander, anyway - and now his hatred was mostly unfounded. He hated it when people were more complex than they seemed. It meant he had to change his mind.

    Or

    Five times people see the impact of Ilya growing up too fast, and one time a tiger becomes a boy again.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Ilya was quiet for a long moment. "I'm scared I'm going to end up like my mother."

    Ilya is struggling while Shane is on the road with the Metros, and the distance, combined with a brutal depressive episode, leaves Ilya spiralling. When everything becomes too much and the intrusive thoughts won't stop, Ilya takes Anya for a walk - and somehow ends up at Shane's parents' house.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    After a brutal week that's left Shane wound tight with anxiety, he shows up at Ilya's hotel room desperately needing to turn off his brain. Ilya recognises what Shane needs before Shane can even put it into words - to let someone else take control for a while.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    “I liked seeing you like that,” Shane says. “All calm. Letting me take care of you.”

    There are a lot of ways to fall in love. This one happens on the floor.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    03 Jun 2026

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    Shane’s not even touching him, but Ilya moans out loud, dick twitching noticeably in his boxers. “Yes, okay, I will be good.”

    “You sure you can? Might be hard for you, Rozanov. I know how much you like to act like a dumb, horny rookie.”

    Ilya sucks his bottom lip in between his teeth and bites down, eyes flicking to the ceiling like he’s summoning some kind of divine strength. He draws in one long breath and releases it, meeting Shane’s gaze again. “I am dumb, horny rookie. I need to be taught a lesson. I hear you are best captain in NHL, yes?”

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    Shane, Ilya, rookie/captain role play <3

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Ilya's on a hotel roof in the middle of the night. The draft is tomorrow, and he can't sleep.

    That's when Shane Hollander appears, but he's somehow thirty-five years old, and acting very friendly... and he's wearing glasses. This must be a dream — mustn't it?

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    01 Jun 2026

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    “It’s not that I just—I don’t know how. I’m not like… attracted to them. I don’t know what to do,” Shane admits. His cheeks warm right on their peaks. Ilya laughs again, loud and barking. “We had sex twice. And I’m not sure either of us… you know… came either time.”

    “I could teach you.”

    “What?”

    “I said–” Ilya leans up from his spot on the couch, nearly crawling atop Shane. He grins down at Shane. “I could teach you how to make a girl cum.”

    Ilya gets Shane off like he's a girl.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Shane glanced at his fox, Akane. Still between Rozanov’s legs.

    Dark eyes staring back at him. Akane didn’t have dark eyes. She had hazel eyes, brilliant, multifaceted gems that glimmered playfully in even the dimmest light.

    That was Rozanov’s daemon. Of course it was.

    Rozanov’s daemon was identical to Shane’s. The same body shape. The same small white diamond above the nose. The same deeper red blaze along the spine. But he still should’ve been able to tell it wasn’t Akane.

    Who can’t recognize their own daemon?

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    30 May 2026

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    30 May 2026

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