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In a world full of unpleasant things, it was rare for Izumi to find something he didn’t detest. Something that didn’t make his skin crawl, regretting his very birth if it were to be into a world comprised merely of guilt and suffering.
That “something” came in the form of Leo Tsukinaga. A bright, cheery figure that stood out from the others. Proudly standing apart, alone.
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Xiao finally earns the sweet release of death he has been so selfishly craving for centuries on end, but it came to him in such a way that he finally desired salvation.
Nobody was there to save him.
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He adored the pain, both mental and physical. Born into pain, and destined to die in pain.
Continuation of "Plastic" and "Stains" please read both before proceeding.
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- Part 3 of Dilemma
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Plastic, plastic, plastic.
His guts and veins might as well be plastic at this point. White, white, white plastic. And mold. Moldy sandwiches. Ew.
Hospitals, drugs, episodes, and "Friends". Was this all just a shitty nightmare or reality? Either way, it was help yourself or get fucked. Nobody else was gonna do it for you, they all knew that.
And plastic, fucking plastic. A bunch of bullshit about "safety". Combs were pretty useful as an alternative.
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Continuation of "Stains", please read it before proceeding.
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- Part 2 of Dilemma
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He was happy. Very happy. Because he was going to die.
This has recently been updated/elongated to improve the quality of my work. Please proceed with caution and enjoy.
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- Part 1 of Dilemma
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Dazai-centric, mostly canon one-shots all existing in the same universe. i.e. all the events in these fics are presumably in the same world and may be referenced in latter one-shots. My goal is to have 10 in total but who knows, maybe I'll make it to 20!
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I've been recently reading the works of real-life Dazai so I like to sprinkle in some references and easter eggs along the way. I've also consumed a lot of BSD works (English fan translations) in a short period of time, so these one-shots reference:
"Osamu Dazai and the Dark Era"
"How I Picked Up Dazai" or "The Day I Picked Up Dazai" (Parts A and B - this is also my favorite light novel)
"Beast" manga
"55 Minutes" (my other favorite!)
"Stormbringer"
"Dazai, Chuuya, Age 15"
"The Untold Origins of the Detective Agency"I'm up to date with the manga *cue all the soukoku heartache (╯°□°）╯︵ ┻━┻ * but I don't think I'll be incorporating recent chapters into these fics (though many a theory I have >>_>>)
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06 Mar 2026
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Lelouch was always broken. Suzaku was always the one to keep him together.
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- Part 1 of Suzalulu Smut Series
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09 Jan 2026
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A private conversation. A desperate last expression of adoration. A secret promise kept.
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And when Shu leaned in again, it wasn’t to tease—it was to claim.
He kissed Mika slowly, then deeply, tongue slipping into his mouth with purpose, drawing breath and whimpers out of him like it was the most natural thing in the world. Mika’s knees almost buckled, and Shu caught him effortlessly, whispering, “I’ve got you, my darling. All night.”
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19 Apr 2025
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HELLO????????????? WDYM I READ THIS SHIT FOR FREE????????????
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i won't be awake for long (and when i sleep i'll dream of you by orphan_account for akaatsuki
Fandoms: Ensemble Stars! (Video Game)
23 Sep 2019
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The romance movie was a typical Izumi flick, even though he’d never admit it to others. To Makoto, he’d prattle on and on about it, discussing his fantasies and sighing about the perfect romantic scenes they never seem to replicate perfectly. Which is more than fine for him, Izumi confesses later, because being with Makoto is a fantasy that he never imagined would come true. And even though a statement like that was cheesy and not even said with the intent of making him flustered, Makoto felt embarrassed anyways.
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17 Apr 2025