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    The Pikes had a rough season, but now they may have a path forward to a new home, new friends and maybe some more unconventional changes.

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    29 May 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    28 May 2026

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    <3
    What if Ilya stacked the centaurs to be the queerest team in the league but he’s a coach this time? What if Shane moved to Ottawa for him? What if love was real?

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.

    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    25 May 2026

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    <3
    So good I stayed up til 5am reading it

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    In another life — or maybe the next one, or maybe the one before — Ilya Rozanov learns that some roads only lead to one place. No matter how you take them, the wolves are always waiting at the end.

    Maybe that's why, in December 2008, Ilya wakes up with the distinct, inexplicable sense, that he has already lived this life before.

    Some things, it turns out, are inevitable. The question is whether he is.

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    24 May 2026

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    <3
    Answering the overarching g question of “would you choose me?” With a time loop where they both choose each other every time. They’re soulmates!!

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    21 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    <3

  6. Public Bookmark 90

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    And he couldn’t stop thinking about it, going around and around in circles in his brain, how he wanted to be himself, faggy little Ilya, who wore adidas and also maybe mesh crop tops (maybe with an ear piercing? He’d always wanted one), and danced in gay clubs and made friends with nice people with coloured hair, and walked in pride parades, and held hands with a Shane-Hollander-shaped boyfriend, out in the daylight where everyone could see, and how he couldn’t do any of that while he played hockey, but he loved hockey too, loved bashing guys into the boards and spitting blood, loved the red of it, loved talking absolute shit, loved being an asshole, loved racing Shane across the ice, loved the scratching noise skates made on ice, loved his boys, loved it all, but it wouldn’t love him back unless he made it love him back.

    Sometimes he just wanted to be Ilyushka, the boy who danced with his friends and lay on beds, talking about nothing. The closest he felt to that kid was when he was with Shane.
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    Ilya Rozanov, what do you want? And how are you going to get it?

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    15 May 2026

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    The only trick is to have no fear, and even less fear than that the more trouble one is in. Ilya cannot teach that to a man who has directed his energies into becoming, not like a saint, but like a painting of a saint, all dripping in symbolism: the way the robe drapes here, yes, that is on purpose, and the angle of the light, the patron’s face in the crowd, the instrument of the martyrdom in his hand and the fruit in the bowl on the table, all arranged except when—

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    14 May 2026

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    It has been three days since Ilya let Shane feed.

    Shane is a vampire who cannot control his own desires, with a hunger too strong to survive on his own. It is a good thing, then, that he has Ilya to control them for him.

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    12 May 2026

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    A regular day in the life for Squad Leader Hollander quickly turns into a mad dash across the quadrant, leaving behind the life he always thought he wanted to save the one that really matters.

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    06 May 2026

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    <3 the world building!

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    After the tuna melt meltdown, Shane meets Rose Landry, has several deeply inconvenient revelations, and decides to do the only sensible thing: win Ilya back with sincerity, logistics, and a frankly alarming amount of emotional effort.

    Ilya, meanwhile, mistakes every tender gesture for the kind prelude to an inevitable goodbye.

    Or: Shane is living in a romcom. Ilya is living in a Russian tragedy.

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    03 May 2026

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    Beautiful prose

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    imagine Heated Rivalry but with a slapdash of magical realism, ghosts, and the slowly dawning realization of just how much Shane and Ilya have to gain, if only they could figure their shit out. featuring: the most supportive team in the world (the Bears), the seething underbelly of malice (Montreal), and three tiny babies (boston's rookies), who just want to meet their stepmom.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    It figures that even half-way across the world Ilya's dick manages to ruin Cliff's day. The real surprise is that it isn't the only dick involved in this mess.

    Featuring an ill-timed outing, a supportive but clueless team trying its best, panicking over Russia's LGBTQ laws, too many group chats, an unhinged 3am brainstorming session on how to get your captain a new citizenship (asking for a friend) and Roz' inability to answer his fucking phone.

    Or: Ilya disappears in Sochi. Half-way across the world his team does its best to help. Their best is more than anyone could have foreseen.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Ilya’s still learning what Shane likes and needs, observing him quietly because Shane’s not so forthcoming with what he wants unless he’s certain it’s what he’s supposed to want. But it’s not until Shane reaches back and grabs Ilya’s hip to pull him closer, pressing their bodies together and taking some of Ilya’s weight, that he realises Shane’s been studying Ilya the same way.

    “I’m trying to take care of you.”
    “Why?” Ilya says, instead of something safer.
    Shane twists over his shoulder to frown at him. “Because I want to? Because you’re tired and sad and not feeling well?”
    “Oh.” Ilya pulls his bottom lip through his teeth. “But I…”
    “I think maybe we both fucked up tonight?” Shane says tentatively.
    “No, is not your fault.” Ilya rubs a hand over Shane’s shoulder and then kisses it, wet and soft. “You’re good.”
    Shane hums like he’s not convinced. He turns and drapes his arms over Ilya’s shoulders, still pressed close. “After this, will you…”
    “Yes,” Ilya says, his mind sharpening attentively, “Tell me what you need.”


    Or: They communicate just a little bit better and let themselves be just a little more vulnerable, both with each other and their people.

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    13 Apr 2026

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    Getting to fuck his boyfriend and his best friend at the same time is a dream come true on paper - or, more specifically, the google doc that he, Ilya, and Hayden tipsily collabbed on while Jackie oversaw a month ago.

    But of course, leave it to Shane to get all tangled up in what role he’s supposed to play, when he’s got two different men with two very different visions of who Shane Hollander is to them. Luckily, Ilya has ten years of experience telling him what to do. And it might even be working on Hayden too.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    It’s like they’re in a fucked up game of relationship chicken now, increasingly doing things together that Shane can’t describe as anything other than domestic and romantic and boyfriend-like. They text constantly, detailing their days and sharing everything from complaints about teammates to jokes about other players in the league to the kind of quiet worries about family that don’t need to be responded to, just heard by another person.

    Or maybe it’s like Schroedinger’s cat. As long as Shane doesn’t ask, doesn’t speak out loud, he can have this. It can exist, and it cannot exist at the same time as long as Shane doesn’t press too hard. Doesn’t want too much.

    It feels increasingly like agony now that he’s realized that he loves Ilya.

    ...

    Tunameltdown AU where Ilya makes him tuna melts and says his name and Shane doesn’t freak out and run away. Well, he does freak out, but he also stays. Or the one where Shane doesn’t realize that Ilya’s his boyfriend for a solid three months.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Ilya looked at the mannequin and told himself he was thinking about it for Shane. Shane would look pretty in this. That was why Ilya wanted it, because he was picturing Shane’s waist nipped in like that, Shane’s long legs covered in silk. The color would look good on him.

    It would look better on Ilya.

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    02 Apr 2026

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    <3

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    Shane and Ilya had mutually agreed to keep their whatever-they’re-doing out of Sochi. It was an easy decision to make: this was bigger than any MLH rivalry and definitely bigger than a few hotel hook-ups. There was no room for distractions, not with Olympic gold on the line.

    So it’d be really fucking great if their daemons could get on the same page and stop trying to cause an international fucking incident.

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    31 Mar 2026

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    Soulmates!! The way that this fic shows ilyas love as being about protection and Shane’s love as being about honesty. Shane viewing hockey and Ilya as if he’s a sailor in love with the sea who still feels a strong love for the land after weeks on water.

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    Shane glanced at his fox, Akane. Still between Rozanov’s legs.

    Dark eyes staring back at him. Akane didn’t have dark eyes. She had hazel eyes, brilliant, multifaceted gems that glimmered playfully in even the dimmest light.

    That was Rozanov’s daemon. Of course it was.

    Rozanov’s daemon was identical to Shane’s. The same body shape. The same small white diamond above the nose. The same deeper red blaze along the spine. But he still should’ve been able to tell it wasn’t Akane.

    Who can’t recognize their own daemon?

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    29 Mar 2026

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    The problem was that everyone who played for Boston, except for Ilya, was like a million years old and had forgotten what fun was, if they’d ever known. They were all, like, married with kids and their idea of a good time was a barbecue where they drank a few flat weak-ass beers and or went golfing. Ilya just wanted to have fun, okay? He just wanted to live.

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    Ilya gets traded to Montreal. Everything goes better than expected.

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    29 Mar 2026

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    After the Tuna Meltdown and a disastrous game for the Metros, Shane expects the night to end with a flight to Florida. The Boston Raiders should be heading to California. Instead, a sudden security threat grounds both teams and forces them into lockdown together at a secure location.

    As captains, recently rifted Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are expected to set an example and keep the peace... but the tension between their teams may be the least of their problems.

    Because whatever broke between Shane and Ilya might be far harder to contain than the threat outside.

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    28 Mar 2026

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