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    They toe off their shoes in the entryway and Shane looks around, pulling in a deep breath and letting it go. Two hours ago, his dad had walked in on him and Ilya and Shane had thought the world was ending. Now, the world seems bigger and more plausible than ever, like a smooth, fresh field of ice, stretching all the way to the horizon, just waiting for his skates to mark it up. He turns, and there is Ilya, hands in his pockets, watching Shane with a look of lazy contentment on his face as if he feels it, too.

    OR: Two weeks at the cottage.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    At age 46, Ilya Rozanov, retired former Captain and star forward of the Ottawa Centaurs, six time Stanley Cup Winner, and widely regarded as one of the most talented hockey players of all time, is diagnosed with dementia.

    Five years later, the legacy he leaves behind is beautiful.

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    21 Jan 2026

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    this is so so fucking sad and so beautifully written.

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    Cliff Marleau gets assigned to keep the new Russian rookie out of trouble. Fifteen years later, he gives a speech at Ilya's wedding.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    Shane doesn’t respond right away, he just looks at him for a moment longer, before he nods back, mouth curving into a faint smile. A sad smile that Ilya didn’t expect. 

    He breaks the eye contract, turning his face to the side as he starts blinking hard, like he’s trying to force something back. 

    And oh. 

    Ilya’s chest constricts sharply when he realises what the other’s doing. 

    Shane is doing it again. Hiding his feelings before they can spill over. Stopping himself from crying. It’s an odd habit Ilya has noticed from the very beginning, the fact that Shane never truly lets his tears fall. Doesn’t matter how heavy the shine around his eyes becomes, they’re always swallowed back inside. 

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    Wherein Ilya comforts Shane after stupidly proposing the idea to marry Svetlana for a citizenship.

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    15 Jan 2026