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Help, I'm alive by Amiera for DoubleApple
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
11 May 2026
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“Let me do everything.” Shane slowly helped Ilya out of his clothes.
Shane kneeled beside the tub, grabbed a wet cloth, and carefully washed Ilya’s arms. There was no rush; only the soft sound of the water surrounded them.
“Shane.” Ilya pulled away slightly. “You shouldn’t be doing this.”
“I want to.” Shane desperately wanted to make Ilya feel better. He wanted to erase the shame he knew Ilya felt for needing help. To show him that it was okay not to be okay. That he was still deserving of love no matter what.
Or, Shane is there for Ilya during a depressive episode
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- Part 6 of Amiera's Hollanov
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08 Jun 2026
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“Can I ask you something?”
Ilya nods.
“Do you ever feel like a woman instead of a man?”
He doesn't answer right away. He looks at the clock on the wall, instead, watching the second-hand tick. He swallows. He opens his mouth, then closes it. Galina waits.
Ilya doesn't think he knows the answer to that question, is the thing.
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Basically 14k of closeted transfem Ilya Rozanov vs. the feeling of wanting to be pretty
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05 Jun 2026
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Feelings Are Overrated (And Other Lies Percy Jackson Tells Himself) by Everettevans
Fandoms: Percy Jackson and the Olympians & Related Fandoms - All Media Types
02 May 2026
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After a mutual breakup with Annabeth, Percy decides feelings are overrated.
Casual hookups? Absolutely. Commitment? Absolutely not. He has rules. The rules work.
Apollo was supposed to be just another no-strings night - except the god of poetry goes and catches real feelings.
Too bad Percy Jackson is emotionally unavailable... and very good at staying that way.
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04 Jun 2026
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Ilya sighs dreamily. There's wine on his breath, sweet and acrid. If Shane were to lick into the hot well of Ilya's mouth, could he taste the flavor on his lips? Does Ilya prefer red wine or white— or is he too young to develop a palette that he even has a preference? Alcohol is alcohol. Shane was nineteen once, he remembers, in memories he can't quite walk through anymore and whispers of nostalgia that hit him when he least expects, that he too used to drink whatever was available.
"Psyche is a very beautiful girl, people worship her instead of Aphrodite." And oh, how is accent jumps when he says Aphrodite. "So Aphrodite orders her son, Eros, to shoot his arrow and have her fall in love with someone ugly. Instead, Eros, in teenage rebellion fashion, shoots himself."
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03 Jun 2026
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будь нежной (Be Gentle) by PassengerPidgin
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
01 Jun 2026
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The ash from the end of his cigarette missed the ashtray and landed on his arm. It stung, enough to drag his attention back to the present. He brushed the gray flecks from his arm, but paused, marvelling at the sting it left behind. It felt like control. He stared at the cigarette, slowly burning out in his hand.
Taking a deep breath, steeling himself for the impending pain, he quickly jabbed the hot cherry into the meat of his arm.
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Or, what if Ilya had another reason for loving cigarettes? It gets worse before it gets better (as with all mental health).- Language:
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03 Jun 2026