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    Ilya hums, playing the card he's been considering for this entire conversation. “We could make more interesting, yes? A bet.”

    “A bet,” Shane repeats, eyes flashing. “Like what?”

    The reporter cuts in. “What about wearing the other player’s jersey?”

    They both turn to her, and Shane says, “Like, the loser wears the winner’s jersey?”

    “Maybe at the next game in a couple of months?”

    “Is a good idea,” Ilya muses, nudging Shane’s elbow. “You will look better in my jersey than in Montreal jersey.”

    Shane makes a low noise, his eyes holding a bit of a spark when he looks back to Ilya. It’s what Ilya was hoping for—the tiniest crack in the mask. He can see a hint of exasperated affection around the corners of Shane’s eyes, a little bit of fire burning just beneath the surface. It sends a thrill down Ilya’s spine, and he wonders if Shane will be snarky when Ilya gets him naked tonight.

    “That’s not happening,” Shane replies, shaking his head. “Because you’re not winning.”

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    Ilya should have known better.

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    Shane doesn't know how long they sit there in silence.

    He isn't counting seconds or minutes as the time passes by, quiet and heavy in the dim light of the hotel room. Instead, he counts Ilya's breaths—the ones that tremble and shake against the skin of Shane's neck, the ones that are buried in the fabric of Shane's shirt, the ones that become steadier the longer that Shane holds him as tight as he can.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

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    02 Jun 2026

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    “Wha’ happened?” Shane mumbles.

    Ilya presses the call button for the nurse. “You took a bad hit during the game. We are at hospital.”

    Shane frowns. “What game?” he asks, and then, “Who are you?”

    Ilya blinks back the panic rising in his throat. “Shane, what the fuck? Is me. Ilya.”

    Shane is still frowning. “Rozanov?” he asks, and suddenly, like he’s had a premonition, Ilya knows what Shane is going to say next. Knows from the furrow between his brows and the hunch in his shoulders and the hands that are very conspicuously not reaching for him.

    “Rozanov,” Shane says again. “What the fuck are you doing here?”

    So this is what it feels like for your heart to break.

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    Or: In 2023, Shane takes a bad hit during a game and wakes up with no memory of the last twelve years of his life.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Ilya has been searching for a home since he was twelve years old. He doesn't realize this until he's twenty-six and two times MLH champion Shane Hollander is grilling four burgers for him in his cottage.

    Or, five times Shane calls something "our" and causes Ilya to lose his mind a little, and one time Ilya does it himself.

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