illyria13
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It’s always easy to think that it’ll never happen to him. But then it does, and he's left wondering at how far he can fall. And he finds that there is nothing more frightening than the monster that hides behind the face of a loved one.
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Not everyone gets a second chance, and in his case, it’s actually a third. Sam isn’t going to let it go to waste.
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- Part 2 of The Beginning Is The End
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Letting go is one of the easiest things he's ever done. But easy doesn't always mean right.
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His hands are stained with the blood of those who have come before. "Behind the Blue Line" tag
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Sometimes family is what breaks you. And sometimes family is what puts you back together.
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“I’m never going to be able to make this up to you, am I?” Eddie whispered, hugging Buck tighter.
Buck shrugged.
Eddie sighed aimlessly, “I don’t think I will.” Which earned a small laugh from Buck.
“Eds?”
“Yeah?”
“I’m glad you came.”
“Well I’m glad you called.”
______Or, Buck’s family is being shitty after the lawsuit and he makes the decision to give up
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07 Jun 2026
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The light has left your eyes by That_dirty_margarita for MinecraftStan22 (whatever_u_want)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
22 Mar 2025
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Eddie watched Buck die on top of that ladder, he watched buck fall and hang there like he was suspended in a place between the living and the dead. Once Buck made it to the hospital, Eddie knew he wouldn't wake up and that whatever made Buck "Buck" was gone. Eddie also realized that he was in love with his best friend, obviously too late. Eddie can't manage another loss, being left alone again without his other half.
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TLDR: The lightning strike happened, Buck is in his coma and Eddie spirals. It leads to the suicidal thoughts, which Eddie has had in the past, and an attempt.
Please read the tags! I am serious. If you are not in a place to read these things, don't.
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07 Jun 2026
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It was Eddie’s turn to cut her off. “No. Buck wouldn’t do that,” Eddie rushed out. A new wave of nausea was making his throat tingle. “He wouldn’t.”
“Wouldn’t he?” Maddie’s voice was practically inaudible.
Eddie desperately sifted through his memories, looking for answers. Almost right away, he could list several occasions Buck put himself on the line. He knew about the time he recklessly crashed on his motorcycle, and he always took risks on the job. Buck never valued his life the way Eddie did.
Maddie was right. It wasn’t Buck’s first attempt. Eddie wasn’t even sure if it was his second, third, or fourth.
“Wait—” Eddie took a breath, trying so hard not to lose his mind. “You said it was three weeks ago. Why are you just telling me now?”
“He didn’t tell me,” Maddie added. He could tell she was crying now.
Eddie’s heart broke into a thousand pieces. “He didn’t—”
“He didn’t tell anyone, Eddie."
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Or the one where Buck tried to end his life three weeks ago, and Eddie flies to LA the moment he finds out. Set after 8x10.
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- Part 11 of Buck + Eddie
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07 Jun 2026
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Everybody asks about the before; "Why did you do it?" "How did you do it?" "What were you thinking?" nobody really thinks about the after.
Nobody thinks about the way you never expect to wake up, and when you do you feel that sense of dread and nausea kick in like never before, the urge to get up and out of bed never really winning over the feeling like a failure at something that should've been so easily done.OR
Evan Buckley wakes up after trying to end his life, and he's stuck in a numb state of not knowing what to do after, because he hadn't planned to fail. He'd planned to die.
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06 Jun 2026
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After calling Buck exhausting, Eddie has no idea what he's done.
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- Part 2 of Song Titles and Lyrics: Buddie
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06 Jun 2026