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Heliotrope by Waiting_for_a_sunny_day
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
28 Nov 2025
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“Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”
Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.
“It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”
He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.
“Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.
“Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”
It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.
But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.
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- Part 1 of Heliotrope AU
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- English
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Bookmarked by iemon_rat
27 May 2026
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Things That Cannot Speak by anodymalion
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
15 Mar 2026
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The first mistake that Yoshiki makes is staying the night at Hikaru's place.
Bookmarked by iemon_rat
08 May 2026
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Practice to Perfection by vampkaru
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
06 May 2026
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Hikaru has a date with a girl and wants Yoshiki to help him prepare for it.
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'Hikaru' recovers a memory from the original Hikaru, and he wants Yoshiki to help him understand it.
Bookmarked by iemon_rat
06 May 2026
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The Summer Hikaru Lived by hey_its_leri
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
11 Apr 2026
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Yoshiki has loved Hikaru for as long as he can remember. He just didn’t realize it until the summer.
Hikaru keeps doing things: small things, dangerous things that threaten to unravel everything Yoshiki has worked hard to keep together.
A prequel to the inevitable. To miss someone before they’re gone… that’s how it all began.
Bookmarked by iemon_rat
12 Apr 2026
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Yoshiki Ain't Gay by hey_its_leri
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
29 Nov 2025
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“Hey, Indou!” someone from midfield shouted, laughing between breaths. “Careful—Tsujinaka’s takin’ pictures of ya like he’s in love or somethin’!”
“Shut up,” Hikaru snapped, voice sharp. “Yoshiki ain’t gay.”
“Damn bro, calm down,” someone muttered. “Didn’t know you were his bodyguard.”
“Maybe he’s got you whipped,” another chimed. They erupted in laughter again.
Hikaru kicked the ball hard. Too hard. It smacked into the fence with a metallic clang that made a few heads jerk up.
“Knock that shit off,” Hikaru barked, shoving past a teammate. “I said he ain’t gay. Don’t fucking talk about him like that.”
One wrong reaction shatters everything between them, leaving Hikaru wrestling with a fear he can’t name and Yoshiki trying to pretend he doesn't exist. What follows is a slow, aching unravel: avoidance, regret, the steady realization that losing Yoshiki hurts more than anything Hikaru was trying to protect himself from.
A short, four-chapter "what if" story about bad timing, teenage feelings, and the clumsy way boys learn what it means to be truly honest with each other and themselves.
Bookmarked by iemon_rat
22 Nov 2025