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baby, you can drive my car by mildred123
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Mar 2026
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Most of the time, Ilya doesn’t pick on him about it. Partly because Ilya knows when to pick and choose his battles, and any battle relating to a Shane routine is lost before it starts – but mainly because the little sleepy snuffling sounds that he insists he doesn’t make because he’s not sleeping, he’s meditating, so shut the fuck up, are really fucking cute.
But sometimes, Ilya wants – needs – his husband’s undivided attention in their last few moments of peace before another loud, hectic, and exhausting day full of other people stealing it.
Or maybe annoying Shane just enough to get him to slam the door a little bit too hard on his way out of the car, to give Ilya one quick dose of his adorable angry kitten face, is Ilya’s own form of morning meditation.
“Shane.”
Shane starts a bit, but otherwise doesn’t move or open his eyes. “Hmm?”
“What sport would you play if you were more athletic?
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or, five times ilya makes shane feel less like a passenger princess and more like a passenger prisoner
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22 Jun 2026
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you know this moment, don’t you? (time is strangely calm now) by barnes_romzanov
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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It’s dark, and Ilya’s not quite sure where he is.
His entire body is numb. His shoes are soaking wet from trudging lazily through the snow. His nose is running, and his lips are chapped.
Selfishly, he wishes Shane would fuss over him now. Pull him close, whisper “I forgive you” even though he shouldn’t, because Ilya would never change, because something inside him- in his family line, in his soul- was broken.
Ilya wondered how long ago it had clicked- when Shane had realized that Ilya wormed his way into this country and tricked the Hollanders into caring for him, then returned the favor by botching their language and leaving a trail of mess in his wake. He still can't help but wonder if that will be part of his punishment- being doomed to miss him in death, too.
or: Ilya’s mostly been able to cope with the fact that he’ll never be able to articulate himself fully in this country- but he’s also never been good at talking about feelings in the first place.
"I'm tired" is the best he's got. It definitely doesn't capture what's going on in his head, and Shane can't read minds.
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- Part 1 of Merry Christmas, Please Don't Call
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18 Jun 2026
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i was raised out in the cold (i was raised on little light) by coffeeinallcaps
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
14 Apr 2026
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No one would believe it now, but Ilya Rozanov was a shy kid, prone to tears. Small for his age. An easy target.
After his mother’s death, he threw himself into hockey. He hit a growth spurt. He started lifting weights, became big and strong. Not as big and strong as his older brother, but big enough to make Alexei and the other bullies think twice. Strong enough to fight back.
(Or: Five times Ilya has to go home to Russia, and one time he chooses to go home to Shane.)
This isn’t what Ilya had in mind when he figured they’d be spending most of their time at the cottage in bed.He throws his arm over his eyes and groans. “I am ruining our time together. I am ruining your time off.”
“No you’re not,” Shane says. “Are you kidding me? I’ve basically been fantasizing about this.”
Ilya lowers his arm. “About me puking all over your favorite place on earth?”
“No, you asshole. About taking care of you.”
Ilya stares at him.
Shane says, defensively, “What?”
“I fantasize about you fucking yourself on boring beige dildo,” Ilya says, voice cracking, “and you fantasize about me being sick at your cottage so you can take care of me?”
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16 Jun 2026
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A Guide to the NHL/MLH: Everything But the Hockey by facingthenorthwind (spacegandalf), SiladhielLithvirax
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Men's Hockey RPF
02 Apr 2026
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What the hell is a "free agent" and why is Ilya Rozanov one at the end of Heated Rivalry? Would Cliff be suspended for that hit on Shane? How many times a season do Montreal and Boston play each other? How is the order of draft picks determined? How do hockey trades work?
All this and more is answered in this guide to how the NHL (and thus maybe the MLH) works! This isn't about the rules of playing hockey, but instead the rules of the league itself. Even the boring bits can become great prompts for fic if you believe in yourself!
If you're writing Hockey RPF, this guide makes sure to point out where the NHL and the fictional book series/show differs, so it still works as a simplified guide for that too!
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16 Jun 2026
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“Sometimes, I wish he was a worse person,” Ilya admits one night, while he and Yuna are doing the dishes. Shane and Ilya had come over for chicken parmesan, and it had been a lovely dinner, right up until David, clearing the plates, mentioned that he had met a guy at the store the other day who was a big fan of Shane’s, had a kid who idolized him.
David asked if Shane could sign a piece of merchandise for him, maybe record a video. Shane said yes, because he had a rule, about doing things for child fans. Now, Shane was off shooting a video while Ilya did the dishes, and Ilya already knew the way it would require Shane to drag his public face up from the depths of his stomach, the work it would take him to shed it afterwards, the way it would taint this evening.
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- Part 14 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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29 May 2026
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Ilya widens his eyes, moves his hands in an impatient “get on with it” motion. He has the urge to say it for him, end both their misery. Shane blinks rapidly a few times, takes another deep breath. “I want to stop,” he says simply.
Ilya lets out one humorless laugh, “Stop what?”
Shane ignores him. “At the All Star Game, I told you I liked you. And you said about Russia and your family. And I looked some things up. I get it. I get it better now. I know we can’t but I can’t stop wanting to be…more. Unless we stop.”
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Shane just wants to be friends and Ilya is, like, fine with that or whatever
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28 May 2026
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Ilya hadn’t known the video existed. If he had known, he would have paid someone to have it destroyed. Would have paid someone to murder Kuznetsov, maybe, just for redundancy's sake. But it was peak stupidity, to keep evidence of your homosexual perversion around in a country where that crime could get you sent to jail for several decades, and Ilya hadn’t thought that Kuznetsov would be that dumb.
Now here Ilya was, watching a video of his fourteen-year-old self on Twitter getting fucked by his former hockey coach.
So. There go the plans for the rest of his life.
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Or: in 2018, during Ilya's last year with the Raiders, an old video is leaked on Twitter. Ilya reacts, or overreacts. Shane does, too.
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- Part 20 of my anonymous heated rivalry fic
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09 May 2026
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Change Your Win Conditions by Vee (Vera_DragonMuse)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Feb 2026
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Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.
So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.
Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.
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- Part 1 of win conditions
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04 May 2026
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Jane: No problem again, sorry. I’ll see you in a few months.
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28 Apr 2026
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none of these stories are interconnected. they can be read in any order, and you're not missing something if you skip some of them. it's just all my HR fic, gathered in one place.
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18 Apr 2026
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a winner at heart by pressuretoparty
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Feb 2026
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Ilya laughs. He finds that once he starts, he can't stop. He laughs at the fact that he's in France with Shane Hollander. He laughs at the fact he's Shane Hollander's boyfriend. He laughs at the fact that he gave up Moscow for a better life, only to end up in fucking Ottawa.
Ilya's dick stops working one month before he's supposed to leave for the South of France.
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- Part 2 of winners-verse
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27 Mar 2026
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Ilya smells like chamomile with something spicy underlying it, sweet and earthy and a little like some kind of home. Not overpowering and unbearable, like a lot of other Alphas. He hasn't heard anyone online talking about this, which makes something irrationally possessive inside him feel very sated. Mine.
There’s a hand grabbing at his collar and pulling him back. “Who fucking taught you how to do that?”
“Googled it,” Shane hears himself say smugly.
In fear of his Beta status being a source of dissatisfaction in their not-quite-relationship, Shane is determined to find and execute the strategy of how to best keep an Alpha entertained.
Ilya is beyond confused.
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- Part 1 of ceramics
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23 Mar 2026
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loathing, love and shane hollander by TheHeartWantsWhatTheHeartWants
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
06 Jun 2026
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Loving Shane Hollander had taught Ilya Rozanov how to slow down.
They had a plan now. A life that made sense. Something quiet, stable, and boring, and for once, Ilya believed peace might be something he could actually have, not just something he pretended not to want.
Then Troy Barrett arrives from Toronto and starts looking at what Ilya has built, like it’s something he might be able to take if he flirts and schemes. Like peace might be something he needs too, after the mess he left behind with his old team.
Ilya tells himself it’s nothing, "A misunderstanding", so he plays captain. He plays nice.
But loathing has always come easier than love, and once everything starts to unravel, Ilya learns there are only so many times you can choose 'a misunderstanding' before you are forced to show how far you’ll go to keep Shane Hollander to yourself and let yourself unravel in the meantime.
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Troy Barrett wants Shane badly enough to burn with the ship. Ilya is determined to get rid of him before everything between him and his freckled love falls apart and what happens after it does?
Ilya’s POV of jealousy, mental health journeys and the miscommunication final boss rollercoaster
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25 Feb 2026
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through whatever you lose by aloneintherain
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
20 Feb 2026
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Shane’s eyes snap open. Wait a second.
“Ilya,” Shane says, propping himself up on his elbows. “Ilya, wake up.”
Ilya makes a pained noise, eyes still shut. “I shut curtains already.”
“It’s not that. Ilya, hey. Don’t go back to sleep.” Ilya tries to bury back into Shane’s chest, but adrenaline knifes through Shane’s hangover long enough for him to peel Ilya off and roll him into his back. Ilya blinks blearily up at him, starfished in the sheets. Beautiful and naked and missing his mother’s cross.
OR: When Ilya’s cross goes missing after the Centaurs celebrate their first Stanley Cup win, Shane is determined to get it back. And so are the Centaurs. And the rest of Ottawa.
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23 Feb 2026
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The text arrives a second later. Being stuck in the airport is almost as boring as you
Another text from Lily: Send me a picture. I’m sooooo bored.
Shane lifts his phone and snaps a photo of the screen above the airline kiosk instead. JFK -> PHX - CANCELED. He hits send.
The phone rings immediately. “You are at JFK,” Rozanov says. Not a question.
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19 Feb 2026
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The worst part of it all is that Connor can’t pinpoint exactly when and where things started to go wrong between them. At the same time, he won’t stand here and lie and pretend that he hasn’t noticed the gradual decline. Mold, growing over their friendship. What was that thing people say about rotten apples? How it poisons the barrel and nothing is safe? He wonders, if he could peel back their layers—all that history, everything they have ever shared, would he find rot, too? Is there nothing sacred anymore between them? But this is all rhetorical. Connor isn’t really asking, because he’s not sure he’s going to like the answer.
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11 Feb 2026
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Judges by a_good_soldier
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Dec 2025
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Ilya tries to breathe. Shane is the one who panics. In fact, Ilya has been so calm over the past hour. So, so calm. Soooooooo so so so amazingly calm that maybe Shane will reward him with a very nice blowjob later. Ilya has been calm because Shane needs a rock to lean on, but Shane is gone and now Ilya is panicking. This is his only chance to rectify the first, shirtless impression he made on Shane’s father.
“Do you still read New Yorker?”
OR: Ilya, on the confluence of Shane with David, Yuna, and Svetlana.
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20 Jan 2026
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“Should call you the Ottawa Puppies,” says the Toronto centre, Svensson. As an insult it makes no sense, so Ilya ignores it, until he continues, “Hear Hollander keeps you on a short leash.”
Ilya is the captain, so if anything, he should be holding the leash. In English, you can be singular or plural, but he knows what Svensson is trying to say. He is saying Ilya Rozanov, you are Hollander’s bitch.
“Only sometimes,” Ilya replies, grinning. He wins the face off.
OR: Ilya trains himself to be a very, very good guard dog for Shane.
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- Part 1 of Dog
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20 Jan 2026
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The road to the Stanley Cup is fraught with expectations, injuries, and worst of all, conversations about feelings.
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- Part 3 of like a bright new dream
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11 Jan 2026
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“Can I... help you?” Mingi asked, his initial wariness only adding to the naturally deep growl of his voice.
But instead of shying away from the fact that he’d just been caught blatantly checking him out, the other alpha merely smiled down at him. “Depends,” he said casually, handing him a shot.
An alpha buying another alpha a drink? Well that was certainly a new one. “Oh yeah? On what?” Mingi mocked, but he took the free booze all the same. He wasn't a complete moron, after all.
“On if you wanna come home with me tonight.”
Russian translation now available here!
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12 Sep 2025