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    Have more drinks. Go to the next bar. Then the club. The bass throbs and it’s like if your heart can follow the pulse of it, maybe it will keep beating. You’re the last ones left. You can’t go home, because home is where all the rest of it waits. Luca stumbles into you and blushes so easily with blue eyes so wide — desire that he doesn’t know what to do with as his gaze slides to your mouth like someone else you once knew.

    What’s the worst that can happen?

    Shane and Ilya had a plan. Ilya being outed by pictures of him getting a blowjob in an alleyway behind a club from Luca Haas was not part of the plan.

    A not-very-nice Hollanov infidelity fic.

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    29 May 2026

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    There was just no way this was his life. That morning, Rose had been forcing Shane to demonstrate with his hands how large Ilya’s dick was, wheedling him for all sorts of details that had made him flush beet-red and nearly lose his ability to talk. Now Ilya was here, in front of him, contractually obligated to be stitched to his side day in and day out for the next year, at least. The thought was enough to make Shane dizzy all over again.

    (Shane Hollander is the son of the Canadian prime minister. He is also the captain of his college hockey team. This obscene balancing act is seemingly going just fine, until he accidentally hooks up with his new bodyguard one night at the bar.)

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    01 May 2026

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    Five years ago, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov quietly went their separate ways. They handled their heartbreak differently. Shane cut off his family and friends and focused only on hockey, not that it helped, his game has totally fallen apart. Ilya had the support of the Centaurs, even if they didn't know why they were supporting him.

    But when Ilya announces his retirement at the end of the next season, it shakes Shane back to reality. He has one season left to play against the man he still loves; and then, would he ever see him again? As Shane starts to piece his life back together, the biggest missing piece is still Ilya.

    Ilya had planned to just enjoy the last season he'd play of professional hockey and obviously try to win another cup. But when Shane reaches back out, he has much more to consider. He never expected to talk to Shane again, but he can't deny that it's everything he's wanted in the last five years.

    Can they salvage what they had? Should they even try? How can Shane and Ilya be a part of each other's lives again?

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    29 Apr 2026

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    "He didn’t want Ilya to know that he had driven all night. He would be worried. But there hadn’t really been another option. Shane had been too tense to sleep, too tense to breathe properly. Seeing Ilya would help him relax. He was always good at giving Shane what he needed. He would tease him first, of course.

    “Fucking relax, Hollander.”

    But he would. Relax. As soon as he had Ilya in his arms. His heart would stop hammering, his bones would stop vibrating, the rush in his ears would quiet. He knew it. He just needed to see him. Because he was fine. Ilya was fine.

    Ilya almost died. Ilya almost -"

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    A character study looking at how well Shane Hollander would deal with, and process, almost losing the love of his life.

    Spoiler alert: Not well.

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    17 Apr 2026

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    It’s not because of Hollander.

    He and Sveta started talking about it the summer before Ilya left for America. In between rounds of shots, handsfree at the bar, or tipped into each other’s mouth. And then in America, in between women and men, in between sheets. Svetlana shouts outfit ideas into his ear over a brain-melting baseline in New York — matching pink stripes, clogs, him in the dress and her in the suit, Admirals jerseys — until he’s laughing vodka out his nose. He sends her increasingly ugly engagement ring pictures while he’s waiting in the airport and threatens to buy her all of them.

    Then Marly shows him the photos with Rose Landry, and like everything else in Ilya’s small, pathetic life, Hollander’s there in it. Wormed right into the centre.

    Or: By the time Shane's broken up with Rose, Ilya's already married Svetlana.

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    14 Apr 2026