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  1. Public Bookmark 37

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    And then Dan does something unexpected – after weeks of avoiding his gaze, nervously doing small talk with him, talking with everyone around him but never with Phil directly, after hours of trying to ignore Phil’s insistent stare, Dan looks back.

    And his gaze isn’t even challenging, it’s not questioning, it’s downright pleading. His brown eyes are wide, soft, desperate, and there’s a blush rising from his neck to the tip of his ears, and suddenly, the last puzzle piece falls into place and Phil knows what it is.

    “Dan,” he mouths.

    Dan and Phil are broken up. And then Dan shows up to dinner with PJ while in sub drop.

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    23 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 19

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    The AU where Phil stopped posting Youtube videos in the summer of 2009, before he ever knew who Dan was. Phil's life heads into a different direction that leads to the stable life he has at 35 years old. Phil is stuck in an unfulfilling relationship with a busy lawyer. Everything changes when Phil unknowingly inserts himself into a rookie lawyer, Dan Howell's, life. The wheels of fate that stopped moving in the summer of 2009 are in motion again and Phil sees what his life should have been like for all of these years.

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    17 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 27

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    Phil has loved film for his whole life. He loves the idea of making anything beautiful in the right light, from the right angle. He is finally getting ready for his first major movie, when just before filming begins, his film scorer drops out of the project. Scrambling to find a new musician who will be willing to work for such little pay on his low budget film, Phil finds Dan Howell, a talented aspiring musician in need of work with a complicated past and beautiful brown eyes.

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    13 May 2026

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    2009 Phil and 2026 Phil switch places, leaving 2026 Dan to deal with the fallout. Not only does he have to come to terms with the fact that his partner of 16 years is just gone, he also has to fend off 2009 Phil’s seduction attempts.

    Frustrated, he turns to the internet for help, but he may end up biting off more than he can chew.

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    20 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 30

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    "I'm not pretending that I know what you need," Phil nuanced, "but I guess I can say that I know you pretty well—"

    Dan's laugh at the euphemism made him pause, a grin tugging at his own lips.

    "What I mean is, I imagine it as pressure, you know?" He didn't know himself. He had two degrees but pressure was part of none of them. It didn't matter. "The more you keep the valve closed, the more chances you have to explode—or, I guess, in your case, to get drunk on an entire bottle of wine and cry alone on our balcony."

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    What happens when you realise you need to come out but your feelings for your best friend and roommate of ten years get in the way.
    Or, the process between writing "Basically I'm Gay" and releasing the video (plus some more).

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    20 Apr 2026