diekusse
Recent bookmarks
-
catharsis by PaintedVanilla for load_star
Fandoms: Fight Club (1999), Fight Club - Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club - All Media Types
27 Mar 2023
Tags
Summary
I’m rapidly coming to the realization that I don’t like fighting anyone other than Tyler. I’m putting words to what used to be an abstract string pull in my gut, telling me that what I’m doing isn’t really what I think I’m doing. This isn’t about the thrill of the scuffle, the catharsis I am experiencing is simply a watered down, repackaged dupe of the real deal. I am seeking a blow to my cheek that leaves me reeling so hard my body has no choice but to conjure up tears. There is a butterfly light thrill that shoots up my spine when Tyler twists his torso under mine and forces me off my feet with his entire body weight.
These are dwindling highs. I need a higher dose every time, and there’s only so many ways to make lingering, full body contact as we try to beat each other into the floor. Fighting Tyler is losing its zeal, and I have no interest in any of the other idiots who crowd the basement every Saturday night.
Bookmarked by diekusse
12 May 2026
-
every man you've ever been by PaintedVanilla for load_star
Fandoms: Fight Club (1999), Fight Club - All Media Types
19 Jul 2023
Tags
Summary
"i feel crazy in ways i never say / will you still love me if it turns out i'm insane? / i know what you'll say / but it helps to hear you say it, anyway."
It occurs to me in moments like this that domesticity has somehow managed to creep up on both of us. But here we are. We don’t really talk about it. The same way we’re not supposed to talk about Fight Club, but admittedly we probably talk more about that than about the state of our relationship.
Series
- Part 3 of the bite that binds, the gift that gives
Bookmarked by diekusse
04 May 2026
-
Tags
Summary
After a fight, Roman and Hollis refuse to talk their memories out until they explode.
Series
- Part 2 of bratverse
Bookmarked by diekusse
03 May 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Roman spirals. Hollis knows how to help; they’ve been here before.
Bookmarked by diekusse
20 Apr 2026
-
Tags
Summary
Roman has a lot of pride. Hollis breaks it, but only after Roman finally asks him to.
Series
- Part 1 of bratverse
Bookmarked by diekusse
10 Apr 2026