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  1. Public Bookmark 65

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    Despite what the media likes to believe, Ilya has never hated Shane. They’ve been obscenely competitive on the ice and angry with each other off of it, but he doesn’t think he’s even capable of truly hating Shane Hollander.

    Last night, though, something ugly and uncomfortably close to that woke in him. He knows that on some level, Shane has to know what Ilya has sacrificed. He wasn’t trying to hurt Ilya. He never would.

    After the Boxing Day fight, Ilya disappears.

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    26 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 32

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    There was something deeply wrong about the way Ilya was falling, but there also wasn’t anything he could do about it. He was a helpless victim to the laws of physics. Gravity was a cruel mistress, and so were force, mass, and acceleration.

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    Ilya breaks his leg REAL BAD during a game.

    Finishes next Friday!

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    26 Jun 2026

  3. Public Bookmark *

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    “Hi,” he said timidly, then shoved his arm out of the blanket for a handshake. “I’m Shane Hollander.”

    Or, the one where Shane is put under anesthesia and when he wakes up he can't believe his luck.

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    25 Jun 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

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    It’s nice, having a husband. Even nicer when the doctor leaves and Ilya turns to hold him properly, wrapping both arms around his shoulders, eyes gooey and soft as he looks at Shane like something treasured.

    Shane can’t tell him. He can’t lose this, the way Ilya is looking at him, the ease in how he touches Shane, his husband. No amount of lights shining in his eyes or shouting at the top of his lungs would hurt as much as seeing Ilya’s expression shutter, seeing his face look like it did at Sochi, cold and closed off and not Shane’s anything.

    (OR: Shane wakes up in the future and realizes he has everything he's ever wanted. He doesn't tell anyone he's missing a decade worth of memories as he comes back to himself in pieces.)

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    25 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark *

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    Happy Sub Top Ilya Week

    Ilya wakes up horny in the night, Shane lets him fuck him but Just the Tip.

    Or: Just the Tip, Sub Top Ilya Rozanov, Edging and Sexual Overestimation all in one fic. This is self-indulgent pwp.

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    25 Jun 2026

  6. Public Bookmark *

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    It might have been easier to fall to his knees and beg for forgiveness. But his boyfriend was a dangerous thing right now, and God help him, Ilya couldn’t resist. He liked it when Shane’s sharp edges caught his soft sides, when all of his intensity bubbled onto the surface.

    “Did you want me to sign your tits too, Hollander?” he asked. “Make things even?”

    There was some saying about playing stupid games.

    Or: a drunken fan interaction was making its rounds on social media, and Ilya knew that apologies weren’t cheap.

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    25 Jun 2026

  7. Public Bookmark *

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    “You are very beautiful,” the man said. “What is your name?”

    “Oh,” Shane said, feeling his mouth drop open. “Wow. You’re beautiful too. I was thinking that before you woke up. I’m not just copying you,” he added, quickly.

    The man beamed at Shane. “It is okay to copy. I know I have good idea.”

    or

    Ilya and Shane both have temporary amnesia. At the same time. Together.

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    25 Jun 2026

  8. Public Bookmark *

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    Ilya Rozanov is disappearing one day at a time and no one is close enough to notice.

    He goes to practice. He scores. He says he's fine.

    He writes it all down in a notebook his therapist told him to buy, in a house that feels too big and too quiet. Someone will find it eventually.

    He just doesn't expect it to be Shane.

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    OR: A Week in Ilya Rozanov’s Journal as he battles with depression. And everything that comes after almost losing your life and having to learn how to live it.

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    25 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    holy shit

  9. Public Bookmark 13

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    Ilya doesn’t know how much more he can take.

    He watched as Shane left him sitting alone in his apartment feeling emptier than ever. Ilya felt like he had fallen from grace.

    Irina was gone.

    Shane was gone.

    There was only one more thing left to do.

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    24 Jun 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 57

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    “Ilya hadn’t woken up that morning planning to die. At least not with any more commitment than he had felt for the past few months.”

    Or, with Shane out of his life in a very public relationship with Rose Landry, Ilya is struggling.

    He deals with this by downing a bottle of Vicodin.

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    24 Jun 2026

  11. Public Bookmark 7

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    In the months after Shane Hollanders traumatic death, Ilya is mourning the love of his life.
    He's also trying to figure out how to deal with seeing Shane's ghost in every mirror.

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    24 Jun 2026

  12. Public Bookmark *

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    Ilya wakes up to his and Shane’s sex tape all over Twitter.

    And he can’t help but feel like it’s all his fault.

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    24 Jun 2026

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    He watches the tape again over dinner. Listens to Rozanov moan inside a girl's pussy while he eats. By the time he finishes his last bite, Rozanov's inside her, her nails raking down his back, her mouth twisted open in pleasure, and Shane's hard in his pants.

    So, Shane puts his plate in the sink and goes back to his room. Starts the video over.

    ———

    A sex tape of Ilya with a girl leaks. Shane reacts normally.

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    24 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    fuuuuckklkekeopwskdpdo

  14. Public Bookmark 35

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    Ilya is married. He is married to Shane and has Shane in their bed and their house every day. He has Shane as a part of his life more fully than he ever has. People know about them. He holds Shane's hand in the grocery store without Shane pulling away. They are on the same team, getting ready to share the ice for a whole season.

    Ilya has everything he'd been longing for over the past four years. Maybe longer. Probably longer.

    Ilya has a hole in his chest. The edges push aside his heart and lungs, digging up under his ribs so everything feels tight and cramped while the core of his being vacillates between aching and emptiness.

    In which Ilya collects pills, distracts Shane, and has a great time doing it.

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    23 Jun 2026

  15. Public Bookmark 41

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    His beautiful husband Shane. He’s been so worried about him. Ilya knows this will destroy him. For a time, but he’ll get over him. He’ll move on. He’ll find some nice Canadian man and live a very happy life, no longer weighed down by Ilya and his sadness. He won’t understand it right away, Ilya knows, but really, this is for the best in the long run. Shane will find himself much happier in a world with Ilya. He knows it, but for now it’s going to hurt. It’s going to rip Shane apart, and for that, Ilya is sorry.

     

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    The one where Ilya kills himself, then is forced to watch his husband grieve his death. But maybe a miracle will happen in the end.

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    23 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    i cried

  16. Public Bookmark *

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    “Ilya?” Shane gasps at the barely standing figure at his doorstep.

    “Sorry.” Ilya hiccups. “Did not know where else to go.” That’s the last thing he says before he collapses into Shane’s arms.

    Or the Fighter Ilya x Nurse Shane AU nobody asked for.

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    23 Jun 2026

  17. Public Bookmark 11

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    Shane Hollander reads Ilya Rozanov's diary.

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    23 Jun 2026

  18. Rec *

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    David never walked in on Shane and Ilya at the Cottage. Yuna and Ilya work together for the Foundation, with Yuna still under the impression that he and Shane are just friends. But she is worried about him - he seems very quiet since he moved to Ottawa, not at all like the Rozanov she saw in the media previously.

    Perhaps she should call Shane to discuss her fears that Ilya is depressed. Ilya needs his friends around him after all. Yuna suspects a toxic relationship with this absent, neglectful partner Jane. She's sure Shane can support his friend.

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    23 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    IM SO SAD MY BABY ILYUSHKA

  19. Public Bookmark 87

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    Shane stares down at the top of Ilya’s head. He wonders if this is what wakes up in Ilya when the lights go out and when the armor comes off. Maybe the arrogance, the control and the rough dominance, it’s all just a suit he wears to get through the day. And underneath, waiting for the right trigger, is this.
    A needy obedient slut who gets off on being put in his place.

    or

    Ilya loses his fucking mind because Shane called him a Good Boy.

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    20 Jun 2026

  20. Public Bookmark 68

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    Stranger: You are going to do as I say now
    Stranger: What should you say when I give you order?

    You: Yes

    Stranger: Yes what?

    You: Yes, daddy.

    Or, Shane spends an evening on Omegle and comes across a stranger who gives him an opportunity to explore his sexuality.

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    20 Jun 2026

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