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  1. Public Bookmark 16

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    Neil’s fingers twitched against Andrew’s sleeve, the fabric rough under his touch. He stared at their shoes—Andrew’s scuffed work boots, his own ratty sneakers—anything to avoid looking at the test again. “What if—” His voice cracked. He swallowed hard. “What if I can’t do this?”

    Andrew’s hand settled on the back of Neil’s neck, warm and firm. “Then you don’t.” He said it like it was simple, like the answer had been waiting in the space between them all along. Neil closed his eyes. The weight of the words settled over him, heavy but not suffocating. Andrew had always been like this, unflinching in his honesty, steady in his choices. It was one of the things Neil admired about him.

    “And if I want to?”

    Andrew’s thumb traced idle circles against Neil’s skin. “Then we figure it out.” Andrew’s fingers drifted from Neil’s neck to card through his hair, tugging lightly at the tangled strands.

     

    Or: Pregnancy was never something Neil imagined for himself, but now that it was his reality, the decision didn’t seem as simple as he thought it would be.

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    13 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 17

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    Nicky and Erik had a serious accident. Andrew can't tear himself away from Nicky's side and when a nurse advises him to talk to Nicky, he tries it and tells Nicky how he perceived his life with him.

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    25 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 3

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    Nicky Hemmick walks into a bar (and into a bad date)

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    24 May 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 85

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    '“Call an ambulance,” and Nicky opens his eyes to see Abby leaning over him where he’s slumped. Her voice is clear and steady—she’s probably seen worse—but her fingers are covered in blood and shaking as she quickly pushes her hair out of her face before pressing down over his stomach once more. “Nicky, are you with us?”

    'He wants to nod, but can’t find the force to do anything but let his gaze track over to Aaron and Andrew, where they have both had to retreat to let Abby through. He seems to be seeing double, which probably isn’t a good sign. Either that or they are both wearing the same indecipherable look on their face and the same blood on their hands. It’s nauseating, and Nicky looks away.'

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    Nicky Hemmick does not have bad days anymore. Not since Germany. Besides, when Andrew's holding the knives, he's not really hurting himself, is he?

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    23 May 2026

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    Nicky would do anything for the twins.
    When money problems threaten his ability to maintain the home he had managed to create for them, Roland offers Nicky shifts after-hours at Eden's.

    Nicky sacrifices himself a little more, and soon a person from his past creeps back into his life to push him closer to his limit.
    He worked so hard to keep this part of their lives his personal secret, but the desperation of the past never leaves quietly.
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    Nicky turns to sex work to support Andrew and Aaron, and must deal with the toll it takes.

     

    (inspired by "Making Ends Meet" by onedayanauthor and "All we need is somebody to lean on" by AgapantoBlu)

    chapter one: pre-canon
    chapter two-three: post-canon

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    20 May 2026