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  1. Public Bookmark 59

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    "No," Eddie says, shaking his head when the officer looks over his shoulder to Chim. He lashes out, grips the Officer by his button down uniform, shakes him and forces him to look at Eddie. He bares his teeth, heart battering the same way it did in that damn New Mexico hospital. "You're looking at me right now, do you understand? You're answering my questions. Now tell me, where is Buck?"

    After New Mexico, Buck's house burns down, and he's nowhere to be found. Eddie promptly loses his mind. 

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    25 Jun 2026

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    “God, Dad. No.” He huffed in displeasure. “I'm not— It's Buck, Dad.”

    Eddie barely ever heard that name anymore, except for an echo in his own head, and he went still, looking down at his phone and then replacing it by his ear.

    “What— what about him?” Eddie asked, hoping he sounded less thrown off guard than he felt. Hoping he sounded less breathless through the phone than he did to his own ears.

    “I got, um, an invite. To his wedding.”

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    A story told across five years. Eddie finds out Buck is marrying someone else and reflects on what brought them to this - and what, if anything, he can do about it.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    Captain Buckley, who is steady, who has his shit together, who definitely does not recognize his new probie because he spent a night eight years ago with his hands in that man's hair whispering things against his skin that would get him fired on the spot if anyone in this building ever found out.

    "You must be Eddie Diaz." His hand goes out. Not shaking, by some miracle that deserves its own cathedral, its own patron saint, the patron saint of men who are dying inside and shaking hands about it. "Welcome to the 118. It’s nice to meet you, I’m Captain Buckley."

    Eddie takes his hand. A firm grip, calloused in places Buck doesn't remember, but Buck's skin recognizes him anyway, every nerve, all at once.

    "Captain." Eddie's voice is level, pleasant, perfectly neutral, and Buck would buy it completely if he couldn't see the tension bolted into Eddie's shoulders. "Thanks for having me." A beat. "You got a first name, Captain Buckley?"

    "Evan. But most people just call me Buck."

    "Buck," Eddie repeats, tasting it, dragging it out, and Buck's stomach drops through the floor. "Suits you."

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    Captain Buckley WILL NOT fuck his new probie, okay? At least, not again.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    The only warning he gets is the catch in Eddie’s breath, before he bursts into tears, dropping his head to the table with an audible sound as sobs wrack his body.

    “I’m sorry,” he sobs into his folded arms as Buck blinks in surprise.

    — the aftermath of buck and eddies first fight as a couple.

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    26 May 2026

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    One day, Buck will tell an interviewer that he would be happy to make movies with Eddie Diaz until the day he dies.

    But first, years before that, he sees Eddie for the first time on the set of Chimney’s fifth movie.

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    or, the actors au

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    24 May 2026