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It’s not sudden or shocking. Just there. Something inevitable Eddie kept trying to rename into safer shapes. Best friend. Partner. Family. Anything except the truth sitting underneath all of it. His chest caves inward sharply.
Pepa’s expression changes immediately. “Hey,” she says. Eddie presses the heel of his hand against his mouth hard enough to hurt. His eyes are burning violently. Not now. Not here. Not after spending thirty-three years keeping this contained.
“I tried so hard,” Eddie whispers. Pepa goes still. The words slip out before he can stop them. “I tried so hard to be right.” his voice breaks on the last word.
And it finally destroys him. The exhaustion from spending his entire life trying to earn the right to exist comfortably inside himself. Tears spill before he can stop them. Eddie laughs once immediately afterward, humiliated on instinct.
Or
Eddie Begins Again
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02 Jun 2026
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You’ll be the prince, and I’ll be the princess (it’s a love story, baby, just say ‘yes’) by this_is_moony_lovegood
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
12 Jun 2025
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“Your eyes… they’re… wow.”
Normally, Eddie is pretty good at reading Buck, being able to have a full conversation with him with just a few looks. He can tell Buck is surprised to see him, and he should be. Eddie’s never worn makeup around Buck before, and he hadn’t sent him any of the photos that he’d taken with Mara, Jee, and Nash earlier, so he shouldn’t have known that Eddie would come home like this. But, maybe the little bit of anxiety swimming in his gut is clouding his best-friend-telepathy, because he’s not sure how to interpret Buck’s wide eyes and parted lips.
“Is that a good ‘wow’ or a bad ‘wow’? Eddie asks, nervously shifting on his feet. His hands find their way into their pockets, subconsciously hiding his painted nails. He can feel his fingers clasp around the mascara tube he’s shoved in there, and grips onto it tightly as he waits for Buck’s answer.
“G-good, ‘wow’. Your eyes… they look beautiful, Eds.” He replies, voice a little breathy.
OR
While babysitting the girls, Eddie gets a little princess makeover, and ends up finding his Prince Charming.
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30 May 2026
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“So, you’re saying,” Eddie starts carefully, hoping beyond hope he’s wrong about this, “that Christopher can, in fact, lose you.”
Buck stays serious. He’s fucking serious. “Yes,” he says, as if that didn’t just blow Eddie’s chest wide open.
Or, the conversation I wish they'd had after the kidnap-debacle. (Buck still doesn't say anything about sacrificing himself for Eddie, but they get to the root of the problem anyway.)
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14 May 2026
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Eddie Diaz realizes he’s bisexual at approximately 11:30 PM.
By 9:14 AM the next morning, he has:
- Dumped his girlfriend,
- Proposed marriage to Buck,
_ Emotionally compromised an entire fire engine,
- Held Buck hostage in radiology, and
- Turned a Level 1 Trauma Center into a live studio audience.The thing is, Buck would’ve handled this better if Eddie had:
- NOT proposed marriage in the middle of a gas leak,
- NOT immediately started flirting like a menace,
- NOT weaponized ER paperwork,
- NOT trapped him in a CT room,
- NOT weaponized eye contact,
- NOT somehow become hotter in a hospital gown, and
- NOT had an entire emergency department acting as witnesses.Evan Buckley, is, in a word, doomed.
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13 May 2026
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When the doors open, she is instantly relieved to see a familiar face. She even manages a small smile at her former colleague. “Eddie, hey—”
The smile instantly drops from her face as she fully takes him in. His brow is lowered and his eyes narrowed, and he is slightly hunched over with his hands clutching his side. His bloody hands.
She rushes to him just as the elevator doors close behind them. “What happened?” she asks, letting him lean on her for support.
“There’s… a shooter,” Eddie says.
No no no no no no.
Not him too.OR, May rushes to the hospital when her mom gets shot and finds Eddie bleeding out in the elevator.
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12 May 2026