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With You There's No Pretending by r3albatman
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Mar 2026
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Ilya gets his ears pierced (and something else), and asks Shane a question.
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- Part 2 of (You Make Me Wanna) Buy a New Dress
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10 Jun 2026
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And when you see what I've become (will you love me for who I am, not who I was?) by soul_wanderer
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
23 Mar 2026
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Ilya had always been a man. Had always been so sure of it. Had never had any reason to question or doubt this fact.
Until he meets a rookie, who gives him words for something that might have been living inside of him all along.
Ilya has questions.
Shane helps him figure it out.Bookmarked by ashfreya
10 Jun 2026
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let's be who we were already by labeledbones
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Apr 2026
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It starts with Ilya’s nails. Or, at least, that’s the first outward sign that Shane picks up on.
In which Shane supports Ilya as he explores gender expression/gender identity. Set during their first season on the Centaurs together.
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10 Jun 2026
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Your Silhouette is Gold by ironstrangle
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
26 Apr 2026
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One night in Toronto, Ilya meets up with Fabian and decides to give makeup a try.
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10 Jun 2026
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Born to be an astronaut by Anonymous
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 May 2026
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Ilya can’t be realizing, at nearly thirty-five years old, that he isn’t as happy with who he is as he thought he was.
Because then, what? What is he supposed to do with that realization, except grieve? Should he mourn a life he might have had if his childhood hadn't been the way it was?
He has Shane now, and Shane loves him just the way he is, just as he's always known Ilya. This life led him to Shane, and being able to build something with him is the best thing that's ever happened to Ilya. He can’t, ever, fuck this up. He will always try fold himself into smaller pieces to preserve this.
But I don’t want to have to do that, his heart shouts at him. I don't know if I can do that anymore.
Or: Ilya Rozanov fights against and then accepts the fact that there's no such thing as being too late to learn more about yourself, and still be loved.
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- Part 4 of Hollanov collection
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