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    “You want to talk to people about me?” Shane asked quietly.

    There was something small and confused in the question. But Ilya was still furious and raw.

    “Well I would,” he sneered, “if there was anything about you that was fucking interesting to talk about! It would be nice to not be so fucking bored and miserable!”

    The second the words left his mouth, he watched the pain roll across Shane's features like a thousand fractures shattering through glass.

    Ilya had seen Shane nearly break ribs. He had seen him miss game-winning shots, take hits that left bruises blooming purple and black across his skin. He had never seen this.

    Shane closed his eyes for a long moment. He shook his head slightly, a tiny movement, then nodded once as if agreeing with something only he could hear. His face twisted briefly with a fresh wave of pain before he forced it to still.

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    What if Shane and Ilya don't make up so easily after the Boxing Day fight? The Centaur's plane never malfunctions, so Shane never proposes. Instead, Ilya gives him an ultimatum on coming out and going public. It backfires spectacularly.

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    30 May 2026

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    Shane was just at practice. People didn’t die at hockey practice. That was just stupid. The article was stupid. Shane was fine. Shane would call him back any minute now, and they would laugh about how stupid it was together.

    In fact, he was probably laughing with his teammates about something boring.

    He definitely hadn’t taken an ill-timed puck to the chest or a skate to the throat or hit his head so hard that he-

    Fuck.

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    Shane stays late after practice, and the Internet convinces Ilya that he died there. Ilya handles it about as well as you'd imagine.

    Oh and Hayden is there too.

     

    (Edited: 5/27/26 bc I'm a dumbass.)

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    25 May 2026

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    If Ilya could do it all over again, there is one thing he would change.

    It's not a big thing. It’s so tiny, in comparison to everything Shane gives him: all his love and patience and kindness and his mocking smiles on the ice and his quiet laughter in the mornings and long summer days at the cottage and, yes, his body, his beautiful insatiable body that craves Ilya and welcomes Ilya and belongs to Ilya, as Shane swears over and over again. Ilya is so fucking lucky, so fucking amazed every time they touch, still overwhelmed with gratitude that never fades no matter how many times and how many ways they savor each other. It doesn't matter at all, really, that there is one way he's never had Shane, and never will.

    But still. If he could do everything over from the beginning, he would ask Shane to fuck him, first.

     

    Or: Ilya really wants Shane to fuck him. He figures out a way to persuade Shane to want it too.

    Or: whoops, I over-identified with Ilya Rozanov (as a bisexual of Annoying experience) and then I needed him to get railed.

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    24 May 2026

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    "That is. Okay. Where do I start." Pushing off the counter — hands need to be free for this. "Number one. That is not how being secure in your sexuality works. Number two. That is the opposite of how it works. Number three. Most straight men who are secure in their sexuality do not, as a method of confirming this, seek out gay sex. That is— Eddie, that is gay. The thing you are describing is gay. The act of doing it is gay. There is no version of this where you end up more straight at the other end."

    Eddie scoffs. "You don't know that."

    "I do know that."

    "You don't."

    "Eddie, I am bi. I have personally conducted this experiment. The results are in."

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    Eddie asks Buck to fuck him to prove he's straight. Things go about as well as you'd think.

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    17 May 2026

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    “You…wanted to see me?” He asks, barely resisting a wince at how awkwardly it comes out. “After yesterday-” He stops, swallows.

    Hollander makes a face–one of Ilya’s favorite faces, in fact–that says he’s a little embarrassed about what he’s about to say. Ilya feels his chest go a little tighter, wondering if Hollander has had time to reconsider, if he’d even planned to reach out after the game, apologize for spooking and running, ask to come ba-

    “Did something…happen yesterday?” Hollander asks.

    Ilya stares at him.

    (the accident that takes shane out for the season happens the day after the tuna meltdown) (...it also takes his memory of the tuna meltdown with it)

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    15 May 2026

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