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    Shane turns bright red, his freckles showing up as lighter pink specks against the dusky color of his cheeks. “It’s not like… I haven’t been… I don’t have a crush on you or anything!” 
    “Why not?” Hayden demands, too shocked to filter his words. “We’re best friends! I’d have a crush on you if I was gay!” 
    Shane gapes up at him. Jackie puts her hand over her mouth, her eyes dancing. Hayden realizes, far too late, how that must have sounded. 
    Well, at this point, it’s too late for him to do anything other than lean into it, right? He folds his arms across his chest. “I mean, jeez, man, am I not hot enough for you?” 

    Hayden Pike has a terrible, horrible, no-good, very bad day. And then, just to make it worse, Ilya Rozanov shows up.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    when shane gets the injury that would come to end his career, in the moment he’s just thankful he didn’t break his jaw.

    or: shane knew, in the abstract, that one day he would play his last professional nhl game. it never occurred to him that hockey would choose that day for him.

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    12 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 29

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    Ilya felt a rush of something like pride that it was Shane who was making this guy lose it like this. His Shane, just the idea and sound of him. Ilya decided that this was the closest he’d ever come to liking Hayden Pike, and that he’d give him a show.

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    Ilya realizes he and Hayden might have one (1) thing in common

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    31 Jan 2026

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    Hayden thought, sometimes, about Shane’s smile. About those few times he had been able to make Shane burst out laughing. He thought about when Shane had felt like his person. But Shane wasn’t his. He guessed Shane had never really been his at all. But that was okay. That was okay.

    Hayden Pike was okay, he was almost sure of it.

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    In which Hayden Pike is a bit in love with his captain and best friend, Shane Hollander, he just doesn't quite realize it.

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  5. Public Bookmark 138

    Mystery Work

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    This is part of an ongoing challenge and will be revealed soon!

    31 Jan 2026