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    Shane had told his manager, verbatim, that he “trusts her judgment” to pick the opener for his first ever world tour.

    Her “judgment” shows up to soundcheck with a parking ticket in his hand and a crimson hickey on his neck. Her “judgment” is Russian DJ, Ilya Rozanov.

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    22 Jun 2026

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    Rather than give him the joint, Ilya takes it back between his own lips and sucks in a deep breath, the tip glowing as he does so. Then, before Shane can process it, he’s reaching up and sliding one large hand around the back of Shane’s neck, pulling him down so their lips meet.

    Shane gasps softly, and Ilya takes the opportunity to blow smoke into his open and waiting mouth.

    Oh, God. Are you there? It’s me, Shane Hollander. We’ve had our differences, but I think I’d like to convert for real this time. I’m ready. Open the pearly white gates. I’m coming up.

    Shane goes to a house party, gets high, then gets on his knees. bon appetite
    now a multi-chapter saga bc i couldn't help myself

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    21 Jun 2026

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    Ilya always loved watching his mother skate; even years after retiring from the competitive circuit, she floated across the ice like there was no gravity. He learned axles and salchows under her graceful guidance, and once he'd learned everything Irina had to teach him, she passed Ilya on to the professionals.

    To move across the ice like it was effortless, fast but not aggressive, to throw himself through the air and pretend for a moment that nothing could bring him back to the ground; there was nothing like it.

    Sometimes he thought if he jumped high enough, turned his body just right, he'd figure out a way to hang there, caught in the moment between gravity and air; maybe, just maybe, he could stay airborne, never to return home.

    Sometimes he wonders if he could have found that height, if he could have saved her.

    Irina Rozanova died on a cold Wednesday.

    He'd found her lying there, cold hands curled around an empty bottle of pills.

    He quit hockey the next day.

    (Or: Ilya Rozanov is an Olympic figure skater. Shane Hollander is a professional hockey player. Somehow, they still figure it out.)

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    19 Jun 2026

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    I mean she doesn’t at least not **legally**, but definitely emotionally. But when you are getting most of your gossip out of the mouth of babes some things get lost in translation. One outsider’s perspective on how they assumed their child’s classmate had three fathers for most of the school year.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander suffers a career ending injury in Metros training camp derailing his pro hockey dreams before they even start. He is forced to come to terms with who he is without his sport and find a new direction. Ilya Rozanov with nobody around to push him has lost his love for the game. More than a decade later, the new team doctor brings up old feelings that never had the space to grow all those years ago, but are now growing out of control.

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    16 Jun 2026