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  1. Public Bookmark 79

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    At first, Ilya was reckless with it.

    He would find an open expanse of skin and scratch with his nails until he drew blood. Find a sharp object and grip it till his hand starts to ooze red down his wrists. Skating more aggressively, hoping to get hit back with so much force he blacked out.

    It started when he was twelve, after his mother died.

    After a few years of getting used to his new team and eventually becoming captain, his cutting morphed into something more punishing and less noticeable, or at least he thought. Drinking himself to the point that no memories of the night before stuck with him. Taking women and men up on their offers to fuck despite feeling disgusted with himself after the deed was done. Entertaining a group of party goers by doing a line with them, although he himself never had an interest in coke.

    However, something did change throughout the years. He took on a more regular hookup. Someone who had the chance to see his body more than once, someone who could remember his body, someone who had the chance to see what Ilya had done to himself.

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    09 May 2026

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    For Shane Hollander, life has always been about playing a part. On the ice, he plays the best (or second best, depending on who you ask) hockey player in a generation. With his family, he plays the role of golden boy - kind and resilient and responsible. Even with Ilya, Shane has a part to play; reliable, happy, secure.

    But after the big move to Ottawa and a summer full of life changes, Shane can't catch his footing. This is supposed to be the start to the best chapter of his life – so why does he feel like he's drowning?

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    Shane Hollander-Rozanov navigates an Autism diagnosis during his first season as an Ottawa Centaur.

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    07 May 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov, get loved.

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    03 May 2026

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    “Mm, not stuff his pockets with the drug everyone thinks makes you gay right before a press conference? Maybe!” Ilya’s voice chimed happily from the phone.

    “You wanna tell us why you’re so acquainted with Rush that you can identify it in 780p, Ilya?” Kip asked.

    “…I have so much leather to deodorize, Kip Grady. So many sports cars, you know.”

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    Kip can't believe no one else can tell how outrageously gay Ilya Rozanov is, but he's not complaining, he's happy to have someone else to talk to at all the hockey functions.

    Or: Perfect gaydar haver Ilya Rozanov finally gets a taste of his own medicine. A series of looks into Kip and Ilya's friendship, starting after the cottage.

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    03 May 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 47

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    Luca remembered one of the first times he’d cut himself.

    He also remembered one of the last.

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    30 Apr 2026