8 Bookmarks by Merdeners
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love you in moderation (don't you know i wish i could) by nondz (pinkjook)
Fandoms: Shadow and Bone (TV), Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo
06 Jun 2021
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Nina looks at him like he’s an idiot. “Just keep the gloves on, then.”
“What?” Kaz blurts.
Or: Kaz Brekker conquers intimacy. It's both easier and harder than he planned.
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- Part 1 of never thought i'd live to see the day
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- English
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- 4/4
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28 Apr 2026
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The fic with the scarf dental jam that Halo told me about
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Essek asks, “How much do you know about drow biology?”
“Not much, I’m afraid.”
“Essentially, there was a point far back in drow history where we had— a, a more rigid, erm, breeding cycle—” and Caleb heart stops before fluttering back to life, pounding like a bird’s wing. “I’ve, ah, I was testing a spell and it— did not go as I had hoped.
“I’ve— sort of triggered it, it seems.”
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13 Apr 2026
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Fundamental Forces Other Than Gravity by mllekurtz (TheKnittingJedi)
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
09 Jan 2021
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Essek's tone is academic, clinical, cold. “It would be pointless to deny that I am attracted to you. And I wouldn’t object if what happened last night would happen again. But I would be grateful if we could keep it between us.”
There’s a beat, then Caleb nods. “I’m fine with keeping it quiet and casual.”
Or how cold, ruthless and lonely Essek Thelyss (a brilliant student with a secret) accidentally makes some friends and falls in love: a Shadowgast college AU.
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- English
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- 40,676
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- 1/1
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13 Apr 2026
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reaching the starlight by CherryMilkshake, eldritchmochi
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
28 Dec 2021
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[the_shadowhand]
I would be willing to help you come up with ideas, if you want, so long as you’re willing to teach me your ways with dirty talk.
It’s… hard for me, I suppose. I never know what to say, let alone with the presence you have.[catsire]
Why Herr Shadowhand, are you flirting?[the_shadowhand]
Not intentionally. More… admiring a skill you have that I lack.Caleb is not disappointed. He’s not disappointed when they meet and The Shadowhand has the same casual fake flirty tone as his text. He’s not disappointed when they end up filming together, his feelings most definitely not returned. Caleb can live with the heat of his fixation on the other man as they, somehow, become friends beyond their work. He can handle himself just fine.
It doesn’t matter that The Shadowhand is gorgeous and brilliant besides. He likes Caleb well enough and there could be hope, if Caleb wasn’t such a fucking mess. They can be friends, and coworkers of a strange sort. It’s fine.
It’s fine.
Until it’s not.
Series
- Part 1 of fighting the forces of gravity
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- English
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- 86,552
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- 23/23
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13 Apr 2026
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(If One Could Be Home) They'd Be Already There by DotyTakeThisDown
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
21 Jan 2021
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When Caleb stays in the on-campus apartments, he expects to be alone for winter break. He doesn't expect to run into Essek Thelyss in the laundry room.
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- English
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- 25,820
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- 7/7
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13 Apr 2026
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Humming in interest, Caleb sucks, slowly. Oh, it’s nice. It’s very nice. The suction is replaced by the smooth edges of teeth, distinctly felt as they drag over the flesh. There is the slide of wet lips and then the clink of teeth on metal. Ever so lightly, Caleb tugs at the star pendant that dangles from the softest part of his lobe.
“Hahhh—” Essek gapes, staring up at the wooden ceiling as he feels gravity flip deep within his belly. He blinks and wets his lips before he can speak again. “Light above. What are you doing to me?
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13 Apr 2026
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Inside is not a heart, but a kaleidoscope by LadyOrpheus
Fandoms: Critical Role (Web Series)
11 May 2022
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Dynasty Salons are parties of legend. The politics. The gossip. The orgies.
The Mighty Nein decide to throw their own party and invite the usually reluctant Essek to join them. Somehow, with the Mighty Nein, Essek finds he wants to want.
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- English
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- 9,283
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- 1/1
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13 Apr 2026
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But I'll Go Down with My Friends by Dira Sudis (dsudis)
Fandoms: Critical Role: Exandria (Web Series), Critical Role: The Mighty Nein
14 Aug 2023
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"Caleb is having a... problem," Nott said. "He needs some help, but it's something that should be discussed discreetly."
"Oooh, is it a butt problem?" Jester asked, leaning in with obvious interest. Fjord and Molly looked worried and thoughtful; Beau and Yasha looked wary.
"It's not... not a butt problem."During their downtime in Zadash during Episode 16, Caleb gets hit with sex pollen and the Mighty Nein look after their own.
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13 Apr 2026