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    [Sokka is five when the first mark appears. 

    It writes itself in a deep red like a wound, as if someone had carved the word “nonbender” in a messy font across the knuckles of his left hand, as if it was handwritten with a knife.

    When he asks his mother, as she applies salve on Sokka’s knuckles, she sighs deeply and says nothing for a few moments. 

    “Sometimes, spirits don’t make much sense.”

    Sokka has yet to turn thirteen when he wakes up screaming in pain, about ten soulmarks all over each other between his left shoulder and his ear, red and vivid like burning flesh. Among the few words that are somehow possible to read out of the disastrous scribbling, “disrespectful” and “coward” and “burned” and “sorry sorry sorry” are the ones that stand out the most to Sokka. He thinks, at the tender age of twelve, whoever did this to his soulmate will be sorry too, one day.

    A month after Hakoda leaves him with the job of the protector at the age of thirteen, Sokka realizes, with a bitter taste in his mouth, that he’s got more soulmarks than his entire village combined.]

    Or, to have a soulmark is to carry the vilest things that your soulmate believes about themselves on your skin.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Ilya looks at Shane, closer than he’s had him in months, farther away than they’ve ever stood when alone. For the first time, he actually questions himself. Would it have made a difference if Ilya came to the cottage? If they had a week? He doesn’t think it would have changed anything that matters.

    “Is it everything you dreamed of?” Shane asks. An echo of Ilya’s own words passes through his mind. An old hotel gym, small and stuffy, sweaty bodies. More, Ilya asks, and Shane gives. More, Ilya still wants desperately.

    No, he wants to say, because there’s only one thing he’s wanted since he was 18, and as they stand here, he knows it’s the farthest from it he’s ever been.

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    Ilya never comes to the cottage. Life goes on, a summer passes by without contact. They find their way back to each other anyway.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    The vibes of this fic makes me feel things. Character introspection at its finest

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    “What did you actually think?”

    He can’t help it. He looks at Ilya. Ilya only stares at him. “I say that now, in hindsight. Back then, I wasn’t thinking. Not really. It would come to me in waves, the anxiety, the fear. Most of the time,” he says. “I was just…”

    “Waiting for me to speak?” Ilya offers.

    Shane shakes his head, “I was trying to make it to tomorrow with you alive.”

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    Ilya and Shane work to find themselves, and each other, again after Ilya's suicide attempt.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    Stunning look into their charatcters and how you navigate such a complicated situation. The complexity is genuinely awe-inspiring

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    Before Ilya can bite out a teasing remark at his state, Hollander starts to speak in a jumble of words that seem like they’ve been on the verge of spilling out for a long time.

    “Don't marry her, Ilya." Hollander says desperately, now using the hold they had on each other for balance just a moment ago, to keep Ilya from running away. “Please, don’t marry her.”

    “Hollander?” Ilya says the name dumbly, at a loss for how to answer.

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    Marrying Svetlana seems like the obvious solution to the growing pile of problems in Ilya's life. It's not like Hollander would care since he's dating one of the biggest movie stars in the world. Right?

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    17 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is trying his best to keep everyone compliant with Health, Safety and Wellbeing standards at Centaurs by Design. Ilya Rozanov does his best to make Shane's job as difficult as possible.

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    13 Feb 2026