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Does Not Knowing The Truth Turn My Words Into Lies? by ImNotAStan
Fandoms: Half-Life (Video Games)
04 Jun 2026
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After a rough ‘breakup’ with Gordon, Barney finds himself at a bar for a one night stand to take his mind off things.
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"Would you deny a dying man of water?"
"You ain't a necessity, yer a disease!"
"It's hard to tell the difference when he begs oh so desperately."
"You lyin' piece of shit!"
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After being plagued with nightmares of The Gman using Gordon, Barney sees the man responsible and offers himself in place of his lost lover.Series
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What Does A Man With Nothing Left Have To Offer? by ImNotAStan
Fandoms: Half-Life (Video Games)
30 May 2026
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'It hurts me more not knowing.' The Gman studies him for a moment before another smile crosses his features.
"Very well. Before we- shake on it, let us discuss logistics, hm?" Gordon nods, his heart ready to leap out of his throat as he comes to terms with the fact that he's about to sign away the last thing he physically owns.
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Gordon is stuck in stasis with next to no idea what's going on in the world outside, and with nothing left to offer in return for information, Gordon resorts to the only thing he can think of.
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After months of preparation, it was time for Barney to finally pop the question.
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Barney practices sign to propose to Gordon on his 30th. -
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He's back! Gordon Freeman is back! Barney should feel elated, and he does! So... Why does it feel like Gordon is farther away than ever before?
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Gordon returns after 20 years, and after weeks of constant avoidance, Barney is forced to talk about his feelings.Series
- Part 2 of Crowbar
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What Does A Man With Nothing Left Have To Offer? by ImNotAStan
Fandom Half-Life (Video Games)
30 May 2026
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One Night (It’ll Happen to You) by lonemachinist
Fandoms: Half-Life VR But the AI is Self-Aware (Web Series)
08 May 2026
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Gordon finds a new outfit for Stain. It suits him too well.
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09 May 2026
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If Gordon thinks about this situation too hard, he’s gonna have a panic attack, he can just feel it. So he stares at those emails and resolutely endeavors not to.
Most of it is the usual - contacts from other research facilities, contractor updates, the occasional undergrad messaging him about his work - but one in particular catches his eye. Sign-ups For The Inter-Disciplinary Black Mesa Baseball Team! He didn’t even know they had one of those.
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18 Feb 2026
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His work here is almost done.
The countryside burns, the bodies stack up, the world becomes cleaner. Were this anywhere else, he'd be moving on, continuing his work, migrating with the swathes of people as they tried in vain to escape.
But there's just one thing keeping him here. His little secret.
The house on the hill, one of the few with the lights still on. His favorite place, with his favorite person. One of the last few pleasures he allows himself.
One particular night, he decides to indulge.
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04 Feb 2026
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Hemotoxin by Antilocapra for Second_to_none
Fandoms: Half-Life VR But the AI is Self-Aware (Web Series)
31 Dec 2025
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He could almost see the spark of pleasure flowing up from his core to his head, racing along networks of nerves until it burst into a tiny firework, right in front of Benrey's face.
What was that?
“Nothing,” Gordon said quickly. “Don't worry about it.”
Worry? It felt...good. Benrey's presence stretched in his mind, like it did when he was feeling out a new sensation. Really good. Do it again.
A continuation of my HLVRAI/Venom crossover.
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- Part 4 of Coevolutionary Adaptations
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04 Jan 2026
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An intruder knocks on my door, and tonight, I let it in.
AKA palegun porn with plot
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05 Dec 2025