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  1. Rec 87

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    “Is there a boy?” Rose asks, feeling a lot of conflicting emotions. A part of her is giddy and curious, and another dreads the answer a little. Shane sighs so hard his shoulders sag, biting his lip and blinking quickly.

    “There used to be”, he admits.
     

    OR: Shane's coming out to Rose goes a little differently.

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    20 May 2026

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    Ilya gets sick while on the road with the Centaurs, he had his own number listed as an emergency contact. Ilya insists he has no emergency contact. Coach Wiebe thinks it incredibly sad. Troy Barrett thinks it's simply not true.

    As Troy followed Coach Wiebe out of the emergency room, he glanced back at Ilya and paused. Fuck it, so what if he gets mad at me, he shouldn’t have to wake up all alone in a hospital bed when there is someone out there who would care. He quickly moved back towards the bed and leaned in close. “In New York, I was right, yes?”

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    11 May 2026

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    It's 2023.
    Ottawa has a real chance at the cup again this year.
    First win could've been luck but a second one in a row would cement their reputation.
    And if these few remaining games go right, they will be looking at back-to-back wins.
    Shane might be the first player in MHL history who has consecutive wins in two different teams.
    He will never do anything to jeopardize that opportunity.
    But his body. Something's happening... Not to mention his temper.
    It can probably wait until after they get the cup though.
    Probably.

    Or, it’s Shane’s second season with the Centaurs and he’s getting that cup, no matter what his body’s screaming at him. Ilya’s more stressed about it than he is. They get the cup and a pretty amazing souvenir out of it by the end of the season though.

    Set in a universe where everyone can get pregnant. Men just need time and “effort” for their bodies to adjust to being a carrier. It usually takes a while and is normally done on purpose. Hollanov is really just that “casually beats the odds” couple.

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    05 May 2026

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    "I made a decision," he said quietly. "A really important one."

    Yuna raised an eyebrow but didn't interrupt.
    Shane swallowed hard. "I erm- I think I'm going to carry a baby."

    For a moment, the words seemed to hang in the air between them.

    Yuna blinked once in surprise.

    Not because the idea of a baby shocked her. She knew how badly Shane and Ilya wanted a family of their own.

    No.

    The surprise came from the fact that the words had come from Shane himself. For years, the thought of pregnancy alone had terrified him.

    "You're serious?" she asked softly.

    Shane nodded slowly. "Y- Yeah I am."
    He looked down at his hands again, fingers twisting together. "I know it's... a lot. And I know how I used to react whenever it came up." He let out a humorless laugh. "I practically had a panic attack the first time Ilya mentioned it, but-"

    Yuna reached across the table and placed her hand over his. "That was before," she said.

    Shane's jaw tightened.

    Before.

    Or Shane Carries his and Ilya’s rainbow baby a year after Ilya has a stillbirth with their son.

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    16 Mar 2026

  5. Rec 63

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    Self indulgent Shane giving birth to he and Ilya's first child fic. Can be read post cabin or mid show, it doesn't really come into play. A bit of hurt/comfort but mostly fluff. This is also my VERY FIRST hollanov fic!

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    27 Feb 2026