12 Bookmarks by Frstflush

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    “But how did you know you liked guys? Like did you think about fucking them or were you just wondering and decided to try it out?”

    “Why do you ask me this?” 

    His brick wall shaped - and minded - friend shrugs, turning his head to look out the window to his right while he speaks noncommittally. 

    “Just, eh, whatever. It’s nothing.”

    “You are thinking overall? Or you have a crush do you think?”

    “Not a crush, fuck I don’t - I don’t know. Forget it.”

    “You make me tell you about my feelings, you can do too. Go.”

    Cliff sighs and dares not to meet Ilya’s eyes. 

    “The other day, when you and Hollander were talking shit to each other. I don’t know. It was sweet. I’ve never seen Hollander act like that with anyone.”

    Ilya waits for him to continue, cogs turning and creaking in his brain as more silence passes by them. He snaps his head towards Cliff, who looks away. It’s almost endearing to see his boisterous friend shy like this - it would be, if it weren’t over his Shane. 

    “You…you want to fuck Hollander?”

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Being a Hollander means having a singular focus, a deep well of loyalty, and a brain that rarely knows how to shut off. This series dives into the private thoughts of a family navigating the shift from secrets to truth, from "perfect on paper" to the beautiful mess of reality.

    It’s about the things unsaid and the fierce protection of a joy that no one—not even the world at large—gets to take away.

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    04 Mar 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Shane is drafted to Boston a year after ilya and lives in same apt building. They visit his parents cottage and Ottawa together one summer.

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    unconnected hollanov/heated rivalry fics all by the same author (it's me, i'm the author) // blanket permission for translations (posted on ao3/linked), podfics (posted on ao3/linked), art of any kind inspired by the fics in this collection! i would love to know about them though

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    22 Feb 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    20 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ilya moves to play in Calgary

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this entire series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here:

    https://www.instagram.com/p/DWhgjfuFsVr/?igsh=MTlmbDBvbDBmMG55bQ==

    (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

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    07 Feb 2026

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    Ilya is plummeting to his death when he closes his eyes, heart full of regret.

    When he opens them in what feels like just a second later, he is standing outside a rink in Regina, Saskatchewan. There’s a banner on the building across the street:

    World Junior Hockey Championship 2009.

    What?

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    03 Feb 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Story where Ilya dies and goes back in time. Lives with Boston GM and he and Shane are openly best friends.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    A continuation of Shane and Ilya's story post-Long Game.

    Starting with Canada facing Russia in the 2026 Winter Olympics, and including all of the moments that come before and after that.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    “We’re lovers.” Rozanov offered.

    “What the fuck?” Hayden said.

    Shane groaned. “Stop saying that, oh my God!”

    “What? Is not true?”

    “You two. You’re like- together?” Drapeau asked, his eyes flickering between the two of them.

    “Christ, I’m gonna be sick.” Hayden said faintly.

    Shane’s head reared back and Rozanov immediately stood. “Then fucking leave, Pike.”

    Hayden realised what he’d said and held his hands up, a look of panic on his face. “No. No, I didn’t mean- Shane I’m fine with you being gay, I swear-“

    Rozanov rolled his eyes. “Someone give this man a medal-“

    “For fuck's sake, Ilya-“

    (post-ilya moving to ottawa, hayden, jj & drapeau go to the cottage and find someone unexpected)

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    31 Jan 2026

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    'This is what happens when the social media manager for the Ottawa Centaurs just finished rewatching the entirety of The Office for the 3rd time'

    “What a fucking nerd,” Ilya laughed, his eyes following Shane across the ice. The camera swung between them before eventually landing back on Ilya.

    “I want to eat him,”

    Luca blinked at him, horror slowly etching onto his face.

    “Like...sexually or...literally?

    Behind the camera, Harris cleared his throat to remind them of his presence. Ilya’s eyes never left Shane, who was still berating Troy by citing some charts from his clipboard.

    “Yes,” 

    Haas looked into the camera in utter fear.

    Alternatively, The Office Fic

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    31 Jan 2026

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    “It’s not fooling around. It hasn’t been that for a long time. We’re… in a relationship. I love him, Mom.”

    Yuna’s eyes flitted between the two men, back and forth, until they rested on Ilya’s. His heart was racing but he was determined to make Shane proud in that moment. “And you love my son?”

    “More than anything,” Ilya replied honestly, feeling Shane tangle their fingers together between them. “I did not mean for you to see that.”

    “I know, I think we all wish that, Rozanov,” Yuna said with a wry smile.

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    5 times Shane and Ilya are caught out by unsuspecting people around them.

    And the 1 time they're caught and don't give a shit.

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    29 Jan 2026

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