Fortitude



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  1. Summary

    This is mostly meant as thought and translation exercises for myself, but I still publish them so maybe someone else can cry with me about how much I love these characters.

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    28 May 2026

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    I cannot believe that a fic about a zombie apocalypse made my cry this much. It took probably around 80k words for them to finally say I love you and I’m only slightly ashamed of just how hard I sobbed at that (and also when they finally get back to Shane’s parents)
    (oh well, i guess we’re gonna find out by angel_deux)

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    What does it mean to love someone who can't be fully known? These stories examine the architecture of connection—the walls built, the doors left unlocked, the people patient enough to wait on the other side.

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    24 May 2026

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    (A Formal Study of the Heart by HH_Arrow, downloaded)

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    Yuna Hollander has spent thirty years learning to love her son from a careful distance and calling it respect. When Shane finally comes out, she has to reckon with what that distance actually was — and what it cost him to grow up inside it. The years after are about learning to stop watching him sideways.

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    732
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    16 May 2026

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    Oh

    (A study on indirect light by HH_Arrow)

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    Chapters:
    14/?
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    25 Feb 2026

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    a gorgeous character study told through sex and intimacy. desperately torn between wanting to know how it ends and never wanting it to be over. This quote from chapter 13 is how i feel abt this fic: "It was the ache of a body remembering a language it had been forbidden to speak, the same ache that hit him at fourteen when he’d heard Richter’s recording of Rachmaninoff on his mother’s radio and understood for the first time that beauty could be a wound—that you could hear a thing so complete it broke you open with the knowledge that you would never make it yourself."

    (read up to chap 14/?)

    (Wolfbird by OpalApparition, downloaded)

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    Shane and Ilya are different behind closed doors.
    A multi POV fic that allows other characters to get a glimpse behind the wall.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    I never thought I’d cry this much at a fic about sex, but wow what a gorgeous character study

    (Walls by AC91, downloaded)