Defiler_Wyrm

BEHOLD: THE HOPE AGAINST HIM IS IN VAIN



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    Welcome to the Bedroom Hymns Continuity, which is basically the canon!verse with a divergence into the realm of slightly-cracked porn, focusing on Lucifer x Sam x Gabriel but who knows what else I might end up throwing out there by the time it's complete.

    The series is listed in chronological order but might not necessarily be posted in chronological order, if that makes any sense.

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    Or Fantasma!verse, if you will. A seven-part story for Samifer Week 2012 told in alternating POV which takes place during the time Sam and Dean are separated in early season 5, as well as timestamps thereafter.

     

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  1. Rec 16

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    In which Caleb loses his rhythm, and Essek plays the long con.

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    19 May 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Ugly sobbing. You know that one Stucky fic, To memory now I can't recall? This is, spiritually, the Shadowgast version of that, and it will make you cry just as hard for the same reasons.

    Really killer craftwork in the writing, too, chef's kiss.

  2. Rec 49

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    “Can you tell me why you are so certain I would prefer your younger face?”

    Caleb laughed again, still disbelieving. It seemed impossible that Essek could not understand this—Caleb felt like he was being asked to explain why burnt food tasted bad, or why putting one’s hand through a meat grinder would hurt. But Essek’s bemusement seemed entirely genuine. “Because it’s not as ugly? Because who likes fucking decrepit old men?”

    “Clearly you have not heard what your students say about you when they think you cannot hear,” Essek said, with such dry frankness that it startled a laugh out of Caleb.


    Caleb is getting old, and has a hard time believing that Essek can still be attracted to him. Essek decides to prove him wrong with a little tender loving bondage and body worship.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Bookmarking so I don't lose it again. Very sweet body worship with a simmering kind of hotness.

  3. Rec 31

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    Caleb visits Essek on what turns out to be a religious holiday, and sees a new side of their budding and mysterious friend the Shadowhand. (Set around episode 70.)

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    10 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 3

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    So I was looking at the official moorbounder artwork. The length and positioning of their tusks do not seem to fit with their known environment and diet. Here an exploration for the possible reasons behind the tusk shape.

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    18 Jul 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    moorbounder tusk meta

  5. Public Bookmark 24

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    There are freckles on Caleb’s back. Essek traces his finger from point to point, like he is trying to find the most efficient way to gather them, collect them on the tip of his finger and steal them for his own. When he reaches the last, he starts over. It is good to try multiple paths. Pathfinding is, after all, an algorithmic challenge. Essek’s canvas twitches, a flex of muscle along the ridge line of a shoulder blade.

    “That tickles a bit.” Caleb’s voice is muffled by the pillow.

    “I am way-finding,” Essek says, finger looping back to his starting point again.

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    25 Apr 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Sweet and soft and intimate.