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    “What is there to talk about?”

    “What’s there to talk about?!” Hollander scoffed, shaking his head. “You’re playing for my fucking team!”

    “I know.”

    “Why did you have to go and get traded?! You realise we’re going to have to see each other every day from now on, and play together, and-”

    “Yes,” Ilya interrupted. He didn’t want to know how long Hollander’s list was. “I know.”

    Hollander took a deep breath. “Okay, listen,” he said. “Just so we’re clear - we don’t know each other outside of playing against each other, right?”

    “Right.”

    “And we can’t- can’t hook up anymore.”

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    OR: Ilya gets traded to Montreal in October 2014. He's lonely, and angry, and he misses Boston. He doesn't know if it helps that Hollander is there or not.

    title from Buckle by Florence and the Machine

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    04 Apr 2026

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    The words sliced through Ilya’s confusion. His own voice from over a week ago, echoed in the sudden, ringing silence of his mind: “You can have sex with other men when we’re apart.”

    No.

    No no no.

    Ilya blinked rapidly, fighting back the hot press of his own tears. The sheer, utter wrongness of it all was suffocating. Shane, on his knees, apologizing for being hurt. Shane, calling himself a burden. Shane, begging for the bare minimum of affection because he thought… he thought Ilya wanted this.

    (or, what happens when Shane does go and sleep with another man and utterly breaks because of it)

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    22 Mar 2026

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    “He’s never given me any details about your sex life. But he did tell me once that you’d brought out a side of him that he doesn’t share with anyone else,” Svetlana said. “And that I’d never seen him like that before.” 

    “Oh.” Shane caressed the side of Ilya’s throat. He pressed his fingers against the warmth and remembered last night, how the world had both quieted and stretched around them. It made him feel brave. “Would you like to?”

    OR: Shane breaks his threesome rule. Kind of. [Standalone]

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    17 Mar 2026

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    Initially just a little one-shot of self-validation and recognition in relation to Autism.

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    Ilya moved and rested next to him, Shane leaned over and curled in on his side, moving the weighted blanket over his hips, to rest his head on Ilya’s thigh. He closed his eyes as he heard the video start.

    They both listened to the male voice from the UK start talking. Ilya immediately knew why Shane had run. He wrapped his arm around and under Shane’s arm, pressing his flat palm to his chest while he held the phone with his other hand. Shane pressed his hands over his and held him there. As the man kept talking, he felt Shane start to cry, his chest sobbing. He couldn’t make it more than five minutes in; he paused it and ran his now-free hand through Shane’s hair.

    Through tears his words came out in a torrent “Am I the weird one? Everyone always talks about how antisocial I am and makes jokes about how I don’t go out with people and I like to stay home and read. I am always boring and eat weird food and have such a strict focus on hockey and have all these rules and I make people follow them…” He was starting to struggle to take in a breath.

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    15 Mar 2026