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  1. Kajczan on Chapter 2 Fri 28 Mar 2025 03:53AM UTC

    This chapter simply made me sob.

    "But he doesn't really need me, he just thinks he does, Qi Rong found himself thinking. He's better off without me, some freak of nature. His stupid gege can give him a better life, more than I could." - I felt this in my soul, truly. When I was a child I used to think my mother would be better off without me, now I know I was her hope and comfort. I hope Qi Rong will realize it too, to understand that he is not a burden, at least not for everyone and for that for some (and by some I mean Guzi) he is the light.

    The way Xie Lian asks Qi Rong if he's still the same person he once was, also awakened some unhealed scars within me. It is a philosophical question, since technically it is the same boy, but he changed just like rivers do, the water flows but it's not the same water. The fish swim, but it's different fish every time. Leaves drift on water but it's always a new leaf, not the old one. So is he the same person?

    It's the same river but you won't recognize it, the water changed it's path, it's curvier, more twisted than before, and there's no fish because the water's poisoned by waste and the leaves are rotting near the stick that blocked their way. The locals will call it by the same name, but IS it still the same?

     

    Also excuse my sloppy and nonsense writing it's 4:47am and I got too excited to leave this chapter for morning lol
    Anyways, the chapter is pure perfection (as per usual) and I wish everyone a night, or well, maybe the morning just as beautiful.

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    1. illiterateDitz on Chapter 2 Fri 28 Mar 2025 04:24AM UTC

      AHHHHH THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE COMMENT 🥹🫶 I love the metaphor you used to describe Qi Rong's changing nature BECAUSE WELL, YES!! Is Qi Rong still Xiao Jing or is he not by nature alone? I know teen!Xiao Jing was a lot to handle too but at least he had that naive world view and genuine admiration for Xie Lian, unlike Qi Rong who was forced to grow up and be even more cynical

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      1. Kajczan on Chapter 2 Fri 28 Mar 2025 02:27PM UTC

        I'm so glad you liked the methaphor, I wasn't sure if it was understandable when I wrote it lol 😭

        I also wanted to express my gratitude for that chapter again, I really appreciate your writing, it inspires me to grow linguistically 💚

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        1. illiterateDitz on Chapter 2 Fri 28 Mar 2025 05:10PM UTC

          AAAA THAT'S SO SWEET THANK YOU AGAIN 🫶🫶🫶

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