This comment may get a little emotional so please be warned…
I stumbled across this fic purely by accident and I genuinely don’t know how I’ll recover from it. I keep wanting to reread it but I’m also so hesitant cause I know I’ll feel too much and feel far too seen every time I do. I literally ranted to my best friend about it and read aloud sections of it, that’s how much I already love it.
I’m asexual so got so excited when I saw you’d written Chan as asexual as well, what I wasn’t expecting was how much I’d relate to Hyunjin and his struggle to realise he didn’t owe anyone access to his body, that he could be more than just a desired object. Then you hit me with Chan’s statement about his body belonging to him and things just… clicked. It was like everything I’d been struggling with for years had been laid out in a story written by a complete stranger. Hyunjin here was me for years and Chan is who I’m slowly making my way into being and it both broke and healed me a little bit all at once.
Reading the bits about Hyunjin’s dating experiences physically hurt cause I’ve felt like that, this crawling wrongness and disconnect from something you’re meant to want and enjoy. And then him finding Chan, who doesn’t want that from him and Chan’s asexuality being seen as a plus rather than something to deal with or work around or ignore… that just… I still don’t know if I’ll ever have that.
This is literally the first ever comment I’m leaving on a fic so I’m sorry if this is too much or too personal but I’d just really like to say thank you for writing this, and please keep writing for as long as it brings you joy
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KaiUlaralei Sat 02 May 2026 08:46PM UTC
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